UTI. AGAIN.

Hello internet void...

Went to Boston for 2 days...get stuck for two hours in a massive traffic thing, tractor trailer caught fire...delayed two hours...took 6 hours to get home... Then...I get a UTI.

this keeps happening when I am outside in heat.  I can't.  This is too much.  I have a chiropractor appointment tomorrow, but I have no idea if it'll be better by morning, I'm so tired I could just die... I need to find out what's wrong with my back.  I can't!!

Help. 

Cranberry juice.

Car accident of Doom and Derp: Chapter Two- A Chiropractor Thing

Hello internet void...

So...I woke up at 1 pm today...why?  Because I'm tired.  Why?  Because MS. blah.

I called a chiropractor and set up an appointment :) my boyfriend says it'll help my back a lot 😇 I'm scared, do I have to be naked??  I hope not... I wonder what they'll find, my back is always hot and like, feels like a knot.

I've gotten up only to pee today... It's 9:47 pm...I can't even fathom having to do anything.  ☹️ I just laid here watching Netflix with Goomba...he keeps me company in my sad world ❤

I'm thinking of talking to my neurologist about this medical marijuana thing, they say it helps spasticity.  Muscle relaxers just make me fall asleep!  Merrrr....

My head hurts :(

Goodnight internet void...I'll see you in the afternoon!
❤

Car accident of doom and derp: Revelations from a back pain perspective

Hello internet void! 

HELP ME.  So, this back pain from the accident has not gone away... How long ago was it?  Over a year I believe...I think?

The pain is like, someone reached into my back and is squeezing my spine and won't let go.  I've been taking Advils and muscle relaxers like a fricker, but...reality has set in:. It's not going away.

I have my boyfriend lay on me now...it kinda sorta helps...a heating pad helps a little.  But know what?  My lower back is always warm!!  I've always noticed, but it never entered my brain completely...I had my mom feel my back and asked her to note anything... she's like...WOAH, it's really hot!  Inflammation, dear...

Well.  There's another thing I have to muster up the energy to do now...I've been putting it off...bo time.  No energy.  Jaime needs sleep. 

But...I'm going to call a chiropractor tonotomo...it won't go away 😞 I've been stupidly optimistic about this accident.  Psht.

Do chiropractors make house calls? Hello?

Love,

Jaime

Car accident of doom: update!

Hello internet. .it's been a while huh?  So...I'm. Going for my fifth infusion in .a week or so... So far it's good, just getting used to the groove and the slump week. 

My back is painful again the past couple days, it's exactly as it was when I first had the accident :( oh my gosh i don't like this.  Every time I get up it takes my breath away!  Ack the pain!  Help.  I'll need to call the doctor :(. Why is it coming back again?  😟

Me and Matt just celebrated our 2 year anniversary :) yay.  I'm still feeling weird tho, I'm not as active as he is, and I hope he understands that I just can't be :(. I talked to my neurologist about this too.  I witsh I could be, but, MS is getting in my way a lot lately...

Speaking of which, my fingers hurt from touching my phone to type... :/ Derp. 

Goodnight, internet void. 


Love,
Jaime
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Tysabri has happened!

Hello internet void...

I had my first infusion on Tuesday!  It took a lot of time.  I ate a granola bar!

How do I feel?  Exhausted and extremely emotional...I've been crying randomly.  Ack!

I'm hoping this won't last too long!

 The physical therapy people haven't called me back yet :(

I'm so overwhelmed, I really wish I could float away on a raft, into the ocean.  Find an island!  With a Wendy's!  And...an Applebee's... 😁 But no people besides the cooks.  I want to be left alone in my miserable state I've found myself in lately.

I don't know what to do, life is coming at me like a train and I desperately need time to prepare for the inevitable crash, and I want to process things.  But I don't have time or energy to do that :(

Help me? 😳

Love,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Car accident of doom: Revelations from a floater perspective

Hello internet void...

So.  Those bug looking things I had been seeing are not bugs.  They are floaters!!

I saw the eye doctor and he said I have vitreous gel detachment, which causes the floaters :(

He's referring me to a retinal specialist to see if there's more stuff :/

So.  He said that because of the jarring of my head, that would cause the gel detachment...

Apparently there is nothing I can do and I'll have it forever, which makes me sad because that's one more thing I have to deal with... 😲

I have my first Tysabri infusion on Tuesday...

I'm scared and tired and overwhelmed and I have so much to do and think about.  Relationships take energy and mental stamina that I don't have anymore, gyah.  I'm so frustrated lately, I just wonder if everyone would be happier if I just went away, had my own place where I could go through these emotions and problems myself, without worrying people.

I think I'm better by myself, I always thought so since I was young.  I find my standards must be too high or unattainable that I'm always let down.  If I was alone I wouldn't feel that way anymore!  Aaaack

I'm just typing any thought in my head, since I'm just laying in he'd like usual.  Resting.  Psh.

Ok internet void, I must go...

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Floaters: Car accident of doom

Hello...

So I went to the doctor today, and as i was looking at the wall in the waiting room I saw something...like little light brown bugs!

The past few weeks I kept thinking I was seeing tiny fruit flies and would try to swish them away.

So, staring at the light colored wall I figured out that I'm actually seeing something...not bugs :/

So, I did some research and apparently it's floaters, and is common after car accidents...  I need to call my eye doctor asap...

Gyah.

No more please :(

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Sickness of Doom: Revelations from my Bed

Hello there, internet void...

I have a cold, or flu...or..something.

Everything hurts, I'm stuffy and so sore!

I'm only irritated because I can't get a break lately.  Although, it seems as if I've been saying that for years, which makes me sad :(

Seems like a year has only a few good happy days, and the rest of the year is spent sleeping, being tired, wondering where my life is going if all I have energy for is turning on my Switch to play Zelda for an hour, then sleep/rest more.  How will I live?

That is the question of my life now.  I want a break please! 😩

My back still hurts, I still have to find a physical therapy place, but now I'm sick and need to sleep.  I'm irritated that I have to do these things :(

Ok, I must depart, internet void...


Love,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Neck pain of doom: Revelations from my Bed

Hello again...

So today was tiring and derpy, as life has been lately.  I'm losing my positivity very quickly... :(

My neck is killing right now, which bothers me because I keep assuming the pain will go away as time goes by, not get worse and spread... 😩

I lay on my heating pad a lot now!  Finally it's of good use!!

Ok internet void, I will talk to you later!

Jaime Lee
11:11

Back pain of doom...

Hello internet...

I have back pain that only gets worse as the days go on, I was hoping for the opposite... Although beggars can't be choosers..

I got the police report from my accident, and the guys statement is wrong!  He lied about how it happened, he made it seem a lot more innocent than what actually happened.  That bothers me.  :(

The more my spine feels like snapping, the angrier I get.  I understand people make mistakes, but at least he honest about what happened.  And oh, maybe apologize.  Yeah.  I'm still on that point.

😑

Ok, internet void, I must lay on my heating pad!!

Love,

Jaime Lee
11:11