Yoda?

My soup is on hold until Sunday!

Why? Because my mom's uncle died... the funeral is tomorrow.... Love you Uncle Ralph! Good man. I will miss him. :)

I had a psychic dream! My psychic-ness is back to full-throttle lately. So watch out. I can do uncanny things when the power is with me :) Let the force be with you.. muwahahahah.

My head is very dizzy. I think I'm sick again. Is that possible?

The girls were asking me when my last serious relationship took place. My answer was over a year. They seemed concerned, and said "Doesn't it seem like, time to get back on the horse?"

Hehe. I said I understood, but, I've been far too happy being single. I had way too many headaches and I was not myself.

Love,

Jaime Lee

Voodoo at work?

*play this while reading, as it is Jaime's Theme music now...* http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fN1vFESbfZk

hehe...

Hrm...

My mom was trying to ask about my guys, and she said "have you heard from Mike?"

:O

Um... mom?

She felt really bad, and she told me that she's been thinking of him a lot. Like there's something going on. She can feel it.

I found this rather interesting, as I told her there's been a mike aura lately.

Hm. What can that mean? I swear though, I hope nothing horrible happens, and I have NOT practiced with my voodoo doll or anything. I swear! I'm too much of a chicken-shit to do that now.

Hm. I love Adele. I want to be her friend. I think I will be!

I am making my zuppa toscana tomorrow! Picking up sausage at Roma's, and hope they don't act like dirty old men this time, and making soup. Hopefully my brother is making breadsticks tonight... oh. My god.

Can't wait!

I'll let you know how it turns out!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Zuppa Toscana Lover

I love you.

Jaime hearts Adele.

I swear, I wish I could tell her how awesome she is. Not just what an amazing singer she is, but what an amazing woman she is. I love the fact that her whole album was about a 'rubbish relationship'. How strong she must be to wear all of her emotions on her sleeve like that.

Amazing.

Maybe one day I will write about my experiences, in hopes of inspiring people. :) This song always reminds me of someone... I think she has had the same experiences as me! Aww... Adele... I love you! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_lWUNwxz3-U&feature=related

Jaime hearts Adele. Forever.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Adele Admirer

Teeheehee.... hehehehehe!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RTYG84lpIQM&feature=related

Hehehehehehe....

Pondering.

Hello!

I found a recipe for Olive Garden soup... I hope it's the same.. I am going to make it, my dad said he will help me!

Oh. My god. I can't wait. I have not had Olive Garden soup since... long time ago. Probably like a year and a half or two! Woah. Time flies.

Oh my god. Sausage potato soup... *orgasm*

I'm confused. Mike's sister wants to be friends on some gamey thingy now. This is the same sister that deleted me from Facebook because it was causing problems... and then her husband just casually talks to me now.

Okay... Why all the drama? The only thing I mentioned to the brother in law was that I didn't see how me joining his ghost thingy would be appropriate, considering the history, and the fact that his wife deleted me because of mike... all he told me was that it was all mike, and not to worry about it.

So. You break up with someone, and I'm still 'allowed' to talk to his family members? Even weirder, is that they all kept calling me and texting me as soon as it happened, to tell me what an idiot mike is and what a bastard he is. Then her daughter even started texting me, telling me how much she will miss me... then I was invited to a few birthday parties...

Is something fishy here? Should I be wary of this clan?

And I'm not sure why I should care, but, I guess I need to know, because I liked them all at one point. Thought they didn't match the rest of the family. Like they were normal, and the other side of the family were frickin' loons.

Hrm. I will ponder this now.

I think I will be taking out my two girls at work, treat them to dinner to get to know them on a different level.

I've only ever done this once before... so maybe this will be good. They are both nice girls, and we get along unlike any others. So. Yeah.

I need soup.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 Soup Lover

Dream dream dream....

Good morrow!

Teehee. I am still sick. I coughed up a sticky thing. That bothers me.

I had a weird dream last night. It bothered me. I had a dream that me and mike were in my car driving up and down route 12. I was not saying anything to him, but he just kept apologizing to me. But I refused to accept his apology. I just said nothing. Then he put his head on my chest, like right over my heart, and said "I just miss you... you know?"

And I still wouldn't say anything.

I think his head on my chest was symbolic. Probably relates to how I am dedicated to protecting my heart now. Not let anyone manipulate me or lie to me. And I suppose mike is the epitome of lies and manipulation to me. Although the dream felt nice... it was comfortable, just like how I remember feeling with him. Like a connection that was other-worldly.

But. Despite the feeling, I would not say anything. But he was sort of cowering to me. Hrm.

I will hopefully go out soon. I want that. I like dating. Yup. Kissing too. Kissing is fun.

I started my quest over on Twilight Princess. I have a problem.

My brother recently told me that he's decided to stay single for a long time. I gave him a high-five for that one... smart kid :) My older brother just looked at us funny.... I suppose because he always has someone.

I'm different. I enjoy getting to know myself. Being alone. If you want in, you're going to have to prove a lot. Do the right thing. Let me see your email if I ask. Let me see your phone if I ask. Come home when you say you are going to. Not cart around strange young women to and from work to 'be a nice guy', not lie about past relationships, not lie about your relationship with your parents, not lie PERIOD.

Fuck.

Ahem. Apparently I got mad again..!

I'd better go, I have to write back to the sweetie man that needs my help with MS... I love helping people!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Ahhhh...

Well hello!

My cat has decided he will walk around on tables... I do not accept this. Bad Goomba!

I just checked my phone and I missed a call from Chris... YAY! No... not yay that I missed it, just yay that he called!

I have to go call him back. Yay! Funness... muscles... cuteness...

Excuse me. A girl can have fun, can't she? He's very nice. :)

I am still sick. But life is good. I was thinking about my new outlook on life. Why? I was asked what I am looking for in dating, and I always say I'm not looking for anything serious. Which I know, sounds wrong, but, it's the truth.

Companionship. How is that? That's fine. I am not looking for someone to break my heart again. So, best way for that not to happen? Don't care for someone!!! Unless they are amazing and prove themselves to me. Yup.

I really want tacos. I am craving them. Input tacos!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Taco Lover

Sick Still...

I am still sick! Help me Lord!

Something is weird. A few minutes ago, Mike's brother-in-law messaged me on Facebook. I don't get it. His sister deletes me and says that it's causing problems (no idea what that means) but her husband can talk to me? Makes no sense.

He wants me to join his ghost hunting thingy. Sounds super fun. But um.... conflict of interest much? I say yes.

The world is all messed up. Aren't there like, rules about this stuff?

I am currently talking to him about ghosts now. But... how does this fit into the rules?

Oh well. Oops. Now he just invited me to his class.

What is a girl to do?

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Confused in New York

Pulling!

I decided this song is my theme song. It's official. Always play this when thinking about me or reading my blog.

You have to. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fN1vFESbfZk

Amazing. Song. It has hope. This song is my life. I will live! I will be okay.

I was talking to the girls at work and a Michael Buble song came on, and I always say "My husband is singing!!"

They know I want him. I think he is the perfect man for me. I will find him.

The girls keep asking me about Muscles. Hehe. He said he'd call, so we'll see! But, they worried me by asking if he takes steroids and if his neck is big.

His neck is big... in fact I commented about it to him once. Oh noes...

I am sick. I can't breathe. And my sinuses hurt! I have to have a root canal done on Thursday, so I'd better feel better!

A person contacted me through youtube about MS! He was recently diagnosed and he's asking me all these things... I love helping people. As Muscles once said, I'd be a perfect counselor. He even said that seems to be my calling; helping people.

I think he was onto something! I hope I can help this young man, he sounds so scared. My advise is always to stay positive and miracles can happen... I'm living proof :)

I've been eying my voodoo doll lately. I have not attempted anything, because before I tried it I wanted to make sure my thought process was correct and if it did in fact work, how I'd feel with knowing that I made that happen.

I know I sound crazy, but, I've proven time and time again that I can influence things to happen... I don't know if I'll get bad karma out of this... :( Or if the person is even worth my time and energy.

I've also had a pulling sensation in my heart again lately. Something is calling to me. I have no idea what it is, but, something is going on in the universe.

The only other times that ever happened related back to Mike. I had that feeling so bad the night before he texted me out of the blue. That feeling actually worried me... Is it possible I can sense people's emotions? On that level? Or does that mean that I'm still connected to him somehow? Ugh.

I really wish he'd apologize though. I could use that.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Run?

I think I've decided what kind of man I want! If I want a man at all.

But if I were to want a certain kind of person, I think I want a person in the military.

I seem to perceive them as having higher morals. Which is what I've been searching for my whole life. Someone that does the right thing. And someone who does not lie.

I just watched Sleepless in Seattle. What a good movie. But I was cringing watching it because it forced me to think about someone, with the whole feeling that you were destined to be with someone, and your souls need each other.

So, I was slightly mad again. Because no matter how much I don't want to think about certain people, certain things will forever remind me. Songs, movies, that type of stuff.

I believe I will start running again. I've spent three years being afraid of relapsing, but I'm tired of being afraid. I will go for it. And if it lands me in the hospital, oh well, right?

Do it up.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Runner Girl