Calm....

Woah!

That was a miserable post before, wasn't it?

Silly Jaime.

I am much calmer now. I am making hot dogs and smasharoni and cheese, so I'll soon be feeling high as a kite!

I'm excited about that.

Know what is keeping me from killing myself right now? My 11:11 gods!!!! hehehe how funny is that??

Nah. I wouldn't kill myself. But, I know I will probably throw myself into another relapse if I stress out much more than I am, so I am taking the calm road to avoid the hospital. I think that is rather smart, don't you?

Life is interesting. But you know what? I'm glad I've chosen to be honest about my feelings rather than act like a bitch and pretend I have none. Although that approach didn't quite work out like it would have, I am still glad that I chose to be like this. I did what I had to do. And that is that. Life goes on, does it not?

I think I've decided I will go camping by myself this summer. I think it might do me a world of good. Even though I can't start a fire, I will just play in my tent and read a good book. Be alone. To think about my life and the important people in it. My family. And possibly the one friend I have. The people that matter. And put the focus back on them.

Yes.

That is what I will do. I will also be going to the Wyndham (since they sent me stuff for a free stay!!!) and just chill in the jacuzzi by myself. Be alone. Funness!

Okay, hotdogs are done!

Will write more laters!

Toodles with noodles...whoever you are...

Jaime Lee