Lost soul...

Alrighty! I'm glad everyone has taken such an interest in the things I write on here! I think I may have 2 readers of my blog now! That is super exciting.

Alright, this one will be dedicated to Amanda. She has gotten quite angry and posted a reply to one of my blogs. I will respond to each account. After all, what's fair is fair.

Number one:

I think she needs to go to David about this. He told me the one thing that was always in the back of his mind while dating you, was that you two were doing it behind your boyfriend's back. Not my business. David's words exactly.

Number two:

Oh! David's words again. We had many a discussion of how it bothered him that you would have an affair with a married man. When him and I were discussing the situation where he didn't know which one to be with, he said that was a big one and has always bothered him.

Side note: I was being very supportive of him pursuing you if he wanted, and asked if you had any good qualities, to which he remarked about the affairs once again.

Number three:

Ah, David's words once again! He said Meth. Not coke. But perhaps it was a whole bunch? I suppose it could be.

Number four:

Ah yes, passing your married man onto another friend. Once again, straight from David's mouth. That was also the hot topic about a week ago. I frequently asked him if these were maybe fabricated, he said no. I think you have to take this up with him, sweetie.

Number five:

Again, David's words! He mentioned it about two weeks ago. Yeah, I sleep too! I'm with you on this one, sister! Working a family job and having multiple sclerosis is pretty tough, but we manage, do we not?

Number six:

I'm glad David loves you. I really am! He's not the one for me, the lies and inability to make a decision is not my cup of tea. May be yours, but not mine. So good luck with all of that.

Number seven:

Ah, this is where it gets interesting. So, you would not mind if David started talking to me in six months from now, and not tell you about it...? It's so sad these days that people cannot just be honest with each other. Be straight up. Be grown up. the "because they're guys" excuse is sad. I know that you, being a woman, would not be too happy about that.

Number eight:

I'm not miserable. Can I be? Sure can be, look at some of my posts! Notice when my most miserable ones are? When I've been lied to. Or, a few when I was frustrated with my disease. Acceptable, no?

Number nine:

Not obsessed honey. Astonished. By this whole high-school drama that was started by David. I was extremely supportive when he decided to tell me he loved someone else too. Not what every woman wants to hear, right? Astonished by how people are liars. Users. Manipulators. It has to stop.

Number ten:

You guys seem to think that I have a blog that is read by millions or something. Know who reads it? My mom. One friend. Aaaaaand I think another friend of that friend. That's all :) So the fact that I use my blog as a way to get things out in writing when I'm feeling the anger, frustration, betrayal, is nobody's business. I did not give names, now did I...? I think more people should try it. Then when you look back on what you wrote a week back, you have a clearer mind-set of what you were writing about in the first place.

Number eleven:

I am not, nor was I ever, trying to convince my "readers" that you are something you are not. I was taking exact wording from David and being astonished that he was doing this, based on these things he said about you not more than two weeks ago, as the reasons he wanted to be with me. That's all :)

Number twelve:

So, you are admitting that Ex Wife purposely said things to David to drive him away from me? Interesting. ;) I'm glad someone admitted that one! And interesting, only in that David was happy.

Number thirteen:

Again, another thing admitted by David. Yes, that is a theory! Do you know how many people get married and have kids, all the while still wanting someone else? I do!

Number fourteen:

Interesting statement that speaks volumes about you. "Dream mommy. Have any kids of your own?". Don't you think more children of idiots wish they could have a mother like I would be? Responsible? Caring? Concerned? No drugs? No drinking? Yes. Some day I will be a dream mommy and I can't wait for that day to come. :)

Number fifteen:

No, you don't have to justify your past. You don't get it. I was mad at David. He swore he loved me. Swore he wanted to be with me. Swore he saw his future with me (I have the texts to prove it, 1 day before you two got back together).

This is the dumbest dramatic thing in the world and I hope you know that. And why? Because I, once again, fall for an idiot. :)

When I get mad, I get mad. You will hear about it when injustice has been done. Why? Because I'm passionate. Passionate about the truth. About righting wrongs. I can't stand when good people get hurt.

I may be in the wrong line of work. I should be doing something to defend good people. To bring people to justice.

Wouldn't you say? ;)


So! To summarize! Angry blog? About my ex boyfriend. He should apologize to me. I did not deserve that kind of treatment. I did not deserve to have my heart toyed with three times. But, the past is the past. Move on. I am. Can't we all? :)