Psychic Jaime

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HI!

Well. I love getting doses of confidence. It really helped my state of mind I was in yesterday. You know which one I'm talking about, the fuck it all type? Yes. I've had that lately.

So. I went to the gas station, and the dude in there was the same cutie that asked me out! And.... he said....

"Hey, can I tell you something? You have a really really cute smile... really really cute...."

TEEHEE!

So, I say:

"Awww thank you! I don't think I've ever been told that before!" (trying to make him feel that his comment was super special)

Then I thanked him, and I told HIM that he has a super cute smile too, and how I LOVE that he is always so happy when I come in!

So HE says:

"Aww.. come here!" and stuck out his hand and shook my hand and introduced himself (His-self?) officially. Asked what my name was. And called me sweetheart!

!!!!!!!!!!!

Imma sweetheart! With a super cute smile!

See? Jaime can find a man. All she has to do is flash her super cute smile at someone and start flirting and wear my super cute shirts. Teehee.

So. That was my day yesterday and it helped my brain tremendously!

So thank you, DD. ;)

On another weird note, check this out...

I was in the kitchen two days ago, and I received a text message. It was from Jon (my new 'maybe' man, we'll see where it goes!!!), and my mom blurts out:

"What did Michael say!?!"

????????????

So I stopped and looked at her, and it took her a second to realize she had said the wrong name... And I laughed and said "Yeah, you're about eight months behind, mama"

And we laughed and I went to bed.

Not more than 1 hour later, guess who texts me? For the first time in a few months?

You guessed it. Can you imagine a weirder coincidence? Take into consideration that my mom has not once slipped up on my many mens' names. hehe... many men... not once. Even immediately after our breakup my mom did not confuse the names. Interesting.

And even more interesting is the fact that for the past week there has been a pulling sensation in my heart and I kept getting flashes of him and I. Been bugging the shit out of me and hadn't the foggiest idea as to why I would be seeing these images.

And even MORE interesting is the fact that just a week ago, I found a necklace that he apparently gave me... I thought I had never seen this necklace before, until I opened up the locket heart, and there was a picture of us.... But I cannot figure out when he gave this to me.... But needless to say, I just found it.

So. There you have it. Interesting chain of events.

Do you think it's possible to be connected to another person on a higher level? And that connection can never truly be broken? Because perhaps it was a connection made in heaven somehow? I am only mildly curious just based on the fact that when he wrote to me the first time, I knew he was going to. I had been having strange sensations and that same pulling sensation. Pulling to what I did not know. But I think I found out.

I will go ponder this....

So. In summary: Man thinks Jaime's smile is super cute. Jaime also is psychic. Interesting....

Love,

Jaime Lee

AKA Mush...

Holy Blood, Holy Grail

Hi!

This is the book I am reading now... quite fascinating so far, I recommend this to anyone who has at least a quarter of a brain!

This book, paired with The DaVinci Code would be quite awesome I think. I only wish I read this before starting DaVinci Code.

I love the quest for truth. Or rather, the quest to find contradictions to things that were always given as fact. It's rather interesting. I once asked a super religious freak, "Isn't it possible that Moses didn't part the Red Sea? Is it maybe possible in the least, especially given the scientific reasons that could have happened instead of it being Moses' doings?"

He replied "No."

I said "I understand, but, isn't there like a 1% chance that it didn't happen that way?"

He replied "No." once more.

This kind of thinking and blind faith is the kind that bothers everything that is Me (Hehe, Me is capitalized). I like the fact that people have faith. I have faith. But this 'not questioning' attitude bothers me.

When I start telling people about my 11:11 thing, I don't expect anyone to take me on blind faith. And usually nobody does. Rightfully so. Ask you own questions, seek your own truth! Right? Don't believe me just because I said it. Respect yourself enough to say "What if?"

What if...

I was driving to work this morning, and out of nowhere, I started crying. I found this odd, as it's not usual for me to start crying, so I looked at the clock for some reason. It was 8:11. I looked at the mileage, it was on 41.1. That worried me. But in a good way. It quickly made me smile and everything was okay again.

I've been bombarded by songs from my past relationship (2 relationships ago) and I've been getting very frustrated. It's almost funny now. Every morning as soon as I get to work, Extreme is playing. Then it goes to a Taylor Swift song, then almost always goes to another one that related me to my ex. At work this morning, at the bank afterwards, back in the car again, this Extreme song is haunting me now. It's getting ridiculous. I usually have to leave the room. I don't want to be forced to think of the reason a song meant so much to me before, but no longer can mean those things.

Help me. Someone is trying to tell me something.

But, I have to go for now!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Kardashians= Puke Pile 2

Hi everyone!

I just voluntarily rotted a quarter of my brain... how, you ask?

I watched fifteen minutes of Keeping up with the Kardashians.

I hear their names all the time, but never really understood what the show was supposed to be about. Then I sat down and watched some. It became abundantly clear to me. This show is about nothing. No, Nothing. It must be capitalized. Now, it's not Nothing, as in Seinfeld way. It's Nothing bull-shit whore fest TV.

What I learned from watching fifteen minutes is:

The mother is a bad mother because she realized she was spending all her time with the older girls and she doesn't want to not be a part of her younger daughters' lives.

Kim (I think) and I think maybe her fat sister were launching their new line at Sears and Kim is kind of slow.

Fat sister had to speak for Kim because she got flustered in front of 150 guests.

Um... now, Kim ( I think) is the prettier one if I am right, and, I have seen her on many magazine covers, commercials, dressed nicely, or dressed a little scantily, she's all over, right?

How in the fuck do you get flustered in front of 150 Sears Reps?

Oh wait. I know! These are smart people... They have real jobs..

I understand now...

Now, I know what people may think, that I'm just jealous or something. Of what though? She's gorgeous if you ask me. She has the potential to be so many things. I mean really. But, when she opens her mouth, 'blonde girl' comes running out of it and you just make a weird face with one eyebrow raised... It is a huge disappointment. She has looks, but, where is her personality?

Too bad.

So, that was all that happened on the show so far. Oh that, and the mother does not like the one sister's husband. Or boyfriend. Or. Something.

Is this useful for people to watch?

I have a dentist appointment on wednesday! I am super excited. To see a dentist! I love him. :)

I told off someone the other day. It felt good. She had it coming. I can't keep my mouth shut anymore. People of the world will hear me!

That is my brain with lesions. I know that is incredibly random. But I swear there is a point to it! I was at Rite Aid today, and I saw some canes. Then I saw a pink cane. And so I was thinking of when I couldn't walk and how I was all excited to get myself a bright pink cane. I was determined to have a kick-ass cane if I wasn't going to walk anymore. Then I remembered how about a year or two ago, that one ex boyfriend of mine (Mike) was at the bakery with me, and I was talking to one of the girls about how I had to use a cane. And Mike looked confused and asked me if that was true.

Um. Imagine having a boyfriend that never pays attention to the things you say? About your past, and about something as important as that??

It made me sad. I was thinking that I don't think I'm meant to really be with someone long-term. The whole casual thing makes a lot more sense than it used to. The relationship with Mike put a huge dent in the way I think. He completely changed what I'm looking for. I don't really want a man. He will lie to me. Break my heart. And I'm a tad frightened of finding someone, loving them, and then they go away. Can't do it. No more. Byebye!

But anyways, that is a post for another day...

Okay everyone, keep smiling, and I am going to enjoy today!!!

Love,

Jaime Lee

Happy 100th Post!

Hi everyone!

Today marks my 100th post...

I would like to commemorate this wonderful day with a quick overview of the years I've covered with my blog... Let's see...

Started my blog in 2005... six whole years ago! So crazy to think! I was dating Dan at the time. Those were fun times and I'm glad he made me start a blog.

Then went to when I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Lots of blogs about those.. I'm so glad I had a blog because reading them now, I see how I've grown. I see how I've changed. And I also see how my attitude about my disease has changed for the better. So I'm grateful!

Our second location also opened up! That was a good day... I paid tribute to my father for being the most wonderful person and the hardest working man I've ever known...

Then let's see.... switched over to dating Mike. Not many blog about him. The wonderful "To makeup or not to makeup, that is the question" post. Poor me, imagine? Me worrying about what my boyfriend thinks? Gosh. Oh how I've changed :)

"I need help" post, again, relating to Mike. I read them now and can't believe what an idiot I was. :)

I just got mad at myself when I read "For the cute things he does, I am certainly smitten.... "Apples and Bonomos". My all-time favorite now. I love you, Michael.

But hey, life has been interesting. And I am grateful.

December 23, 2010: end of an era in blogging. Beginning of?

Some angry posts aaaaand start dating David!

*pukes*

February 23, 2011, exactly two months after sad post. Jaime oh so happy with David!

If only I had known he was actually psychotic.

The more I read my old blogs, the more I think my life would make an awesome sitcom. Or at least be used in a classroom to teach children something... Lesson? Don't date. Ever. Men=worthless. They will lie. They will cheat. They will betray you. Jaime's wrath will be incurred.

But as today is my 100th post, I am happy. Happy that readers out there have been along with me on this journey, for six whole years of my life. Through the ups, the downs, the boyfriends, the problems, and the just plain silly things. I am happy for that. I am happy that people read my blog. :)

So, this was a cute tribe to my life... In six years I've been through three boyfriends (not bad, right?), a disease, a new bakery opening up, and a bunch of silly things that piss me off! Many more years to come I hope!

I look forward to posting more, and thanks for coming along with me on this journey... :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Morons and Abortion

Hi everyone!

I have been playing Twilight Princess all day today... perfect thing to do when it's raining, right? Right. Well. Camping is super fun in the rain too I think. But hey, Jaime does not camp anymore. Yay me. Wait, what?

Hehe. I had a dream last night about the evil ex. In my dream he finally talked to me and revealed why he stopped talking to me again (fifth time, I think). And it turned out that the Amanda girl DID say something to him that wasn't true. And so him and I started talking again. I woke up disturbed. I don't like dreaming about people that piss me off so much. Well. I made my day all better by eating Starbursts and playing Twilight Princess.

And on the upswing, I'm loving getting to know this new man. He speaks correctly, spells words right, has a sense of humor, would like to go camping, likes to go out and eat. Ah.... Jaime's dream boyfriend. And this time, I'm taking it super slow. As that has been the one problem in all my relationships I think. Partly my fault yes, but, usually the man is always super-eager for some reason... I mean, I can't blame men for being infatuated with me ;)

Hehe. Silly Jaime.

But really, I think that is the problem. Mike practically proposed on our second date. As flattered as I was, it completely changed the relationship in the long-run. And I'm sure he knows that. I warned David of the same thing, but, he went and did it too. Changed everything.

So, I am taking things super slow, and makes sure my new man friend knows that too... wish me luck!

IT'S THUNDERING!!!!!!!!!!

Excuse me. Didn't mean to burst with excitement over that one.

I keep starting wars on Facebook. I just can't keep my mouth shut when I see morons everywhere.

I was told to 'go suc a dic' because that is the only thing my mouth is good for. LOL

I laughed at the improper spelling of both 'suck' and 'dick' but was more than delighted at the compliment that was. ;)

I love calling out morons wherever I go. Why? I'm tired of peoples' lame-ass excuses for everything. It has to stop.

Oooh, you have a baby and are posting on Facebook that you are looking for drugs? Then you post your number for people to 'hit you up'? Are you kidding? You have a child. See? This is exactly where abortion comes in handy. This very example. Poor kid.

I have to go, as it is thundering!

AAAAAAH!!!!!!

Cosmopolitan Magazine= Puke Piles

Hi everyone!

I'm all happy today. I love that rush of meeting someone new and getting to know someone. It's so exciting. And then hearing from someone else too makes me happy. I have friends!

Know what bothers me? Cosmo. Aren't they out of sex positions by now? Let's see... the magazine started in 1886 as a family magazine, correct? Then went to raunch in the 1960's. So. That is like fifty years worth of sex positions and how to please your man. So by now, we'd better have every person having amazing sex, right? Nope.

The fact is, men don't seem to know what women like or want. Nor do they seem to care much. Then there are the extremes for women. They do way too much to please the man because, despite how they act, have very little confidence in themselves. No matter how great you look and no matter how much of a hot body you have, women are still insecure. Am I right ladies?

Yes. I am right. Even if it's just a tiny small part. Right? Right.

I've recently acquired this "fuck it all" attitude and I hope it stays around. I'm so tired of caring. I'm so tired of feeling like I have to compete. Done!

So. Back to Cosmo. Shouldn't we have less Dr. Phil episodes about intimacy issues since the All Mighty Know Everything Cosmopolitan Magazine has tackled these issues for us? Hehe.

I've only purchased one in my entire life. Due to sheer boredom. What type of women reads these? I am awaiting a smart answer.

I was at the grocery store today (what else is new), and I was looking at the magazines. I love the ones which feature two celebrities on the beach in their bikinis. One is fat. One is hot. Then there is the headline "Which celebrity is this?" pointing at the fat one. Hehe.

Are people desperate and bored enough to buy this just to find out who is fat? Does it matter? Does it change your day? Does it change your outlook on life?

Nope. Didn't think so.

Now, I don't want any angry replies about how it's 'just entertainment'. That's my point. I'm tired of 'just being entertained'. Where are the brain cells? I don't want to know which celebrity gained fifty pounds, which one dieted and lost one hundred pounds, which celebrity has the best abs, and who Ke$ha fucked and what Lil' Wayne said and which celebrity is currently expressing their distaste for the republican party. Oh. My. God.

I thought we needed a breather. This is my way of telling you all that there will be a subject change. Wookey at the cute wittle whale!!!! I named him Chester. Awwww....

Okay.

I was thinking. That I have no more thoughts at the moment. Hehe.

I stopped taking Ritalin. And I have more energy than before... that bothers me.

Okay everyone... I have to go for now. I'll give a big shout-out to the two people I know that read this. How is everyone doing? Still idiots? Yes. Yes you are. Congratulations! Chester says hi!

~Love,

Jaime Lee

Apprentice.

Hi everyone!

I'm very tired right now so this post might not make sense.

I had a dream last night that some young girl called me and asked if I had seen my ex boyfriend's ex wife... I said no, and apparently she went missing. I immediately said try to call my ex boyfriend, as he would be the first suspect. I got very worried in my dream.

I woke up and thought it was real. I was all sad because I thought to myself "if only I had done more to warn people".

Hm. I hope that doesn't come true :(

I still have the feeling that someone is watching me. Or. Something. Someone is still there with me. It's creepy. I have my suspicions, but I won't voice them here.

SO!

Guess who is talking to a man who used to go camping at Delta Lake?! Jaime is!

YAAAAAAY. I might possibly find a man to go camping with. Which is my number one concern now! How weird, right? That camping is a 'must-have' in my relationships now.

SO. We are purchasing a freezer three times bigger for the bakery! I am super excited about this. It's about time. Now we can produce to meet demands! YAAAAAAAAY!

I've also been thinking about seeking out some sort of apprentice for myself. Get someone in there that I can bestow all my talent onto, and maybe pass the torch as cake decorator and maybe someday in the near future will be able to focus my talents on the bigger things now. Wedding cakes, specialty desserts, things like that. I like doing regular decorated cakes, but, I'd love to teach someone.

Aww.... a Jaime apprentice! I will call her "Jaime 2". Or... "The Jaime 2".

I don't think she would like that very much...

But it will be hard to find someone I can get along with. Nothing is worse than working alongside someone you can't stand, right? Right. Been doing that for 11 years! :D

Okay. I have to go again. Will write more!

Love,

Jaime Lee

Blank.

.......Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all.......

:)

The Goomba.

Hi everyone!

You know what really bothers me? When you are checking out at the grocery store, and the person behind you stands about 6 inches from you. That bothers me a lot.

But you know what I do like? When Eric is working and I get to see him and dream of being with him. Teehee. Like a school girl I am. THEN there's anOTHER person at Hannaford's I think is cute too.

I realized today that I've been noticing a lot of people. I never used to look at people before, let alone men. And it's my own stupid fault, because when I was with Mike, I think I was way too loyal to him and never dreamed of looking at another man.

See what an idiot I was? I'm sure he was getting his fill of eye candy, so I should have too!

Well. Either way. That's how I am when in a relationship. And I think it's the right thing. So. I will be happy!

But... Jaime is single :) YAY ME!

I've also realized how stress-free and happy I have been since not being attached. I miss being single and I told someone that I want to be for a while. I'm liking it too much.

I just ate like a cup full of pistachios and I want to barf them up right now. I remember one time when I puked, there was a stick in it... that bothers me. A lot...

AND guess what? Andi is coming back to work Fridays! Finally there will be someone there again that I respect and can have fun conversations with. YAAAAAY!

SO. I am also looking at getting a new car. I will pause for a moment and let people log off because the rest of this will just be about me and nothing worth reading.

Okay. So. I was thinking of a Chevy Traverse for my next purchase. I think they are super cute. I will name it Ginger 2. Or. The Ginger 2. Everything is better with the word 'the' in front of it.

The Hitler? Teehee.

The Hulk.

The Goomba.

That's it! I will now call my cat The Goomba.

I've also decided to take an online course. Or possibly actually go back. I was thinking back when one of my teachers from USC called the bakery and remembered me and told me to come take his class because he remembers me and how smart I was. And he said my talent should not be wasted! Aww...

So he is now teaching at MVCC, so maybe I'll see about that.

Ah. Jaime back in the world of Macroeconomics and Management. Fun times.

But alas, I must go throw up some pistachios!

Will write more...

Love,

Jaime Lee

P.S. Anyone reading this that knows David, would you please tell him to crawl up his own ass and die? Aww that's mean... oh! Could you tell him to be a man and explain his recent actions? Thanks!