God is messing with me...

Hi everyone!

Why is that picture there...? Jeeze.

Know what bothers me? When I am being haunted by people who have to do with an ex boyfriend. I just realized a girl that applied for a job about a week ago is related to my ex somehow... I found someone else for the position, but then the name kept bothering me so I went on a hunch and sure enough.. found her on my exes facebook, exes sister's facebook, exes father's facebook, and exes mother's facebook.

I suppose that was a good thing I found someone else...?

Then. Someone else wants a job that works at the place my exes current girlfriend works. Eek. What if they know each other? That would be weird. But she sounds like a doll so I'm stuck in this weird position. Also in need of another person at work... Hmph. And don't worry... I did not stalk her Facebook, I only know she works there because I had to find her when I suspected my ex of cheating on me... so. Found out where she works since it's on her Facebook. I swear.

So. God is continually toying with me. I can't get a break. There are signs everywhere. And why I have no idea. And these aren't things that I can control, or that are coming from my head. Ugh.

I got on the subject of this particular ex at lunch today. Why? (because trust me, I hate thinking about it). I had a weird dream about two ex boyfriends and one friend. Had a dream that the most recent one's son died by getting hit by a bus and it was horrible. Then had a dream I was in my OTHER exes car, but he would not look at me and all I could see was the back of his head. I think I'll look that up to see what it means... one moment please!

Okay. Can't find anything. But I'm sure it has something to do with deception.

But anyways. I think God has to cut it out. Unless he wants to TELL me why he is sending these weird things to me to make me think of something that I don't want to think about because it PISSES ME OFF so GOD DAMN MUCH. Oops... sorry God!

Well. Maybe he's telling me I need stop being angry or something. OR to not let that relationship ruin my future, since I recently vowed never to trust another man ever again.

Jeepers.

Okay, I will write more tomorrow!

Love,

Jaime Lee

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