Part 1?

Hi again!

Well, the new gigantic freezer is in our possession now! So excited. This will able us to produce more to meet demands... make more money... and hopefully see my parents one day buy a lake front cottage like they always wanted. I hope to see that dream come true for them.

Life is interesting. It intrigues me every day. And lately I've been reflective because certain things keep coming up that insist on reminding me of the heartache I had to go through because of the cowardly acts of an ex boyfriend.

Now, I do realize I seem to touch on this subject a lot. No, I am not obsessed. The world is insisting on reminding me of it for some reason and it's been bothering me. I'm trying to figure out why things are coming together synchronistically for me, but have to include memories of someone I don't want memories of because it angers me. But I suppose there are reasons, right?

My brother moved back into the house (yay!) and he is re-doing his room in an asian style. Doing all blacks, grays, and reds. He is into the whole asian art thing and he showed me a simple painting of a bamboo tree that he loves. Then it hit me (don't know why) that this ex boyfriend gave me a chinese brush painting kit a month before he turned into a douche bag and started doing things with another woman.... cough.

Anways! So I showed my brother and told him to pick out a picture and I'd do it for him and frame it for his room. He asked me where my ex got it, and I told him. Nobody believed it and asked "who do you think he ripped this off from?"

I laughed, as I now have to question everything he had ever done for me.

I'm constantly reminded that I was naive. And stupid.

I only worry because I'm having a hard time wanting to trust another man. And this isn't going to bode well for my new man friend. If I lack the ability to trust people, where will that leave me?

I only trust my immediate family. And perhaps that's the way it should be. They've always been there for me. :)

Exes not so much. I once asked an ex to get my car inspected for me, as he was just hanging around the bakery doing nothing. He said "do it yourself". Ah... but that was right around the time that he started doing things with someone else... so I suppose it all makes sense now :D

Okay. Enough with how stupid I was!

Onto how COOL I am!

Wait I have to go to bed instead.

Will write part 2 tomorrow!

Love,

Jaime Lee

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