In my Construct...

Hi everyone...

I've been doing these meditation exercises, specifically using the Akashic Construct CD (you can google this to find out what I'm talking about).

I've been going right along with practicing daily and getting really into it...

Well... I am onto using the second track, the one used to reach deep alpha and hopefully make contact with my celestial guardian...

So, in this track, after going through some awesome exercises to get deeply relaxed (I've done it a lot and now it totally makes me feel like I'm somewhere else. Amazing.), you then are told to put yourself in a pleasant scene in nature... I've been working on where that is, what I see, the sounds I hear, all the small details... since starting this, it's like this whole world goes on without me, like it's a real thing...

So. Yesterday, I was in deep alpha, in my pleasant scene in nature, and the big tree and the creek and the blue sky and all that stuff I came up with, and who shows up from behind a tree? Not by my doing?

An ex. An ex who I did not want nor intended on seeing there. I yelled at him. Told him to get out of my scene. He kept coming closer....

I swear. I did not want him there. This was, by far, the most bizarre thing I've ever experienced in my entire life. On the CD, he talks about how if you want to be a healer, people will begin showing up in my construct to be healed.. perhaps this was part of it?

I have no idea. But I did not want him there. I was getting nervous. I wanted to open my eyes, but I could not. It wasn't time.

So. I have to do it again tonight, and I'm scared. Because these things are happening in my head without my doing so.

Help.

Love,

Jaime Lee

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