Friends in Higher Places

Hm....

People seem to pounce when Jaime is single... am I that special?

YES I certainly am.

I gots me a phone number, YAAAAAAAAAY.

And! The hectic hellish week of graduation cakes is now over. I will miss it. And! Andi visited me at work today! I missed her so much, and she might come back to work for us on Fridays.... how cool would that be? Have someone there I actually like...

Everything is okay now...

I have to go eat a sandwich, some chocolate, some salt, and some tea!

Will write more laters!

Love,

Jaime Lee

Executive chef, anyone?

Oh my GOD!

Guess WHAT?!

Well. So one of my matches on eHarmony is... an EXECUTIVE CHEF! Oh my GOD. Can you imagine a more perfect match for me? I hope to god he replies. Do I love watching cooking shows? Yes I do. Do I love watching Iron Chef? Yes. I do. Do I love watching Chopped? Yes I do. Do I love Rachael Ray? Yes I do. And guess what ELSE?!

Look at this next part:

I typically spend my leisure time:

walks, looking at the stars, campfires



Oh my GOD. I love walks. I LOVE looking at the stars! That's the one thing I love to do that NOBODY understands! And ahem.... CAMPFIRES?! OH MY GOD. I LOVE CAMPFIRES. Was I not just talking about things I'll be missing this summer? Yes. I certainly was. Oh my GOD.

And he lives in a place that I wanted to go to college because of how beautiful it is there... and in FACT was just telling my family this two weeks ago at our Sunday get-together.

How perfect would this all be?

Campfires. Looking at the stars. Walking. And GOOD FOOD! I think I'm in love and I haven't even talked to him yet.

Well. Good things come to those who wait... perhaps my day is here. I deserve a good man. :)

Know what bothers me? That I have to spend another $1,000 for a crown on my toothey. But it's all okay, I will have good teeth!

So. Maybe... just maybe, I will get to go camping this summer after all... Cross your fingers for me :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Food is good.

Hi everyone!!

Ever throw up in your mouth? I just did. And no, I have nothing witty to say as to the reason I threw up in my mouth, I just found it interesting! My stomach is eating itself again. Know what I've realized? My bouts of throwing up every day coincide with my mental state. When I am happy and comfortable, I do not throw up. When things start getting weird in my relationships or there is mistrust, I throw up every day.

I think I should talk to a psychologist about that one, huh?

I realized that I started throwing up again in my two year relationship when I started noticing anomalies with his stories and knew something was wrong. Then when everything was over, I stopped throwing up. When I started dating someone new, I was okay, but when things got weird, I started again!

Know what bothers me? When employees don't listen to me. Then I get upset and nobody likes upset Jaime. Am I right?

I also just realized that tomorrow I was scheduled to have two teeth pulled. Imagine if I had gone through with that? Luckily I plunked down $1,000 and had the root canal. Stupid medicaid dentists!

I have a new crush! Well. Two. And I know what people will think first, but it has nothing to do with how they look. I mean, I know they look all tough and all tattooed and scary, but, I didn't know what they both looked like before I liked them! So I'm in the clear. They are both so SWEET! I need a boyfriend like either of them.

Jaime Lee Balmes.
Jaime Lee Moea.







Looks can be deceiving can't they? When I first saw both of them I was all like "psht". And I immediately judged them based on their appearance! But then they start talking and they're so sweet and nice! I will get one of them. :) So needless to say, I watch The Next Foodnetwork Star every sunday... TEEHEE

Okay, I have to go eat something!

Love,

Jaime Lee

Smelling Happiness!

Hi everyone!

I just bought some Mike & Ikes and guess WHAT?! They are all RED KINDS! Oh dear lord I was in heaven. Perhaps I should lay off the candy, but, when it comes to red chewy things, I cannot keep away!

I am super excited, the family and I might rent a camp this year again. That will be super fun. I love summer time. But, every time I smell a fire I get really sad, considering what I'll be missing from other years. But, I'll be okay. :)

You know that new guy I was working on? Not the Hannaford's guy, but the other one? Nope. No can do. He tells me he has had two DWI's and is on probation for three years. Um. No.

No thanks. Byebye! Jaime Lee deserves better. So, I am on the hunt once again. Or not? I don't need a boyfriend, now do I?

Nope.

Okay, everyone is making hamburgers outside on the grill and I am smelling happiness EVERYWHERE, so I have to make this one short!

Can you imagine? A short blog? Without offending people?! Holy Bajeezum!

Love,

Jaime Lee
AKA Cake Bitch

Exponential.

Aaaaaaaah...

Had a nice drive to Pennsylvania yesterday. It was super fun!

I suppose you are wondering about my title to this post... it's just a really fun word and it sounds mighty awesome. Say it! Exponential. Say it again! Exponential..

Yeah, that's an awesome word.

I will reply to a girl named Amanda one more time here... Hope this satisfies her.

Good luck with your life, I do wish you and David the best. I, obviously, was not sweating at my computer. If I had been, I could not have written a whole story, all of the points legitimate, now could I...?

I hope you just realize that the post was all about your boyfriend. And what he did. My problem was not with you. :)

But since you chose to make it about you and not actually take a look at the person who told me all of this stuff, that is your problem to deal with. Not mine.

I appreciate your reading my blog and I'm so glad I can count you as a dedicated reader! Now I can see that I have a total of 3 readers! I am super excited about this one.

I will be a good mother. I was wondering if you were going to be a good little journalist and give valid points on why I would not be a good mother, and why people should be concerned about it...

Just to make a good point (as I always do), I never did drugs. I never cheated. I never had an affair. I never drink. I would say I have a pretty good resume so far, right? Right.

Now, most ex or current druggies will always use this retaliation to what I said, by saying "but those things will make me a bette parent!". Yeah. No. Sorry chickey.

I will write more, peeps, as I have to blog about cell phone usage at work!!!

Love,

Jaime Lee

PS. David, I would like my Mario game back, please.

Lost soul...

Alrighty! I'm glad everyone has taken such an interest in the things I write on here! I think I may have 2 readers of my blog now! That is super exciting.

Alright, this one will be dedicated to Amanda. She has gotten quite angry and posted a reply to one of my blogs. I will respond to each account. After all, what's fair is fair.

Number one:

I think she needs to go to David about this. He told me the one thing that was always in the back of his mind while dating you, was that you two were doing it behind your boyfriend's back. Not my business. David's words exactly.

Number two:

Oh! David's words again. We had many a discussion of how it bothered him that you would have an affair with a married man. When him and I were discussing the situation where he didn't know which one to be with, he said that was a big one and has always bothered him.

Side note: I was being very supportive of him pursuing you if he wanted, and asked if you had any good qualities, to which he remarked about the affairs once again.

Number three:

Ah, David's words once again! He said Meth. Not coke. But perhaps it was a whole bunch? I suppose it could be.

Number four:

Ah yes, passing your married man onto another friend. Once again, straight from David's mouth. That was also the hot topic about a week ago. I frequently asked him if these were maybe fabricated, he said no. I think you have to take this up with him, sweetie.

Number five:

Again, David's words! He mentioned it about two weeks ago. Yeah, I sleep too! I'm with you on this one, sister! Working a family job and having multiple sclerosis is pretty tough, but we manage, do we not?

Number six:

I'm glad David loves you. I really am! He's not the one for me, the lies and inability to make a decision is not my cup of tea. May be yours, but not mine. So good luck with all of that.

Number seven:

Ah, this is where it gets interesting. So, you would not mind if David started talking to me in six months from now, and not tell you about it...? It's so sad these days that people cannot just be honest with each other. Be straight up. Be grown up. the "because they're guys" excuse is sad. I know that you, being a woman, would not be too happy about that.

Number eight:

I'm not miserable. Can I be? Sure can be, look at some of my posts! Notice when my most miserable ones are? When I've been lied to. Or, a few when I was frustrated with my disease. Acceptable, no?

Number nine:

Not obsessed honey. Astonished. By this whole high-school drama that was started by David. I was extremely supportive when he decided to tell me he loved someone else too. Not what every woman wants to hear, right? Astonished by how people are liars. Users. Manipulators. It has to stop.

Number ten:

You guys seem to think that I have a blog that is read by millions or something. Know who reads it? My mom. One friend. Aaaaaand I think another friend of that friend. That's all :) So the fact that I use my blog as a way to get things out in writing when I'm feeling the anger, frustration, betrayal, is nobody's business. I did not give names, now did I...? I think more people should try it. Then when you look back on what you wrote a week back, you have a clearer mind-set of what you were writing about in the first place.

Number eleven:

I am not, nor was I ever, trying to convince my "readers" that you are something you are not. I was taking exact wording from David and being astonished that he was doing this, based on these things he said about you not more than two weeks ago, as the reasons he wanted to be with me. That's all :)

Number twelve:

So, you are admitting that Ex Wife purposely said things to David to drive him away from me? Interesting. ;) I'm glad someone admitted that one! And interesting, only in that David was happy.

Number thirteen:

Again, another thing admitted by David. Yes, that is a theory! Do you know how many people get married and have kids, all the while still wanting someone else? I do!

Number fourteen:

Interesting statement that speaks volumes about you. "Dream mommy. Have any kids of your own?". Don't you think more children of idiots wish they could have a mother like I would be? Responsible? Caring? Concerned? No drugs? No drinking? Yes. Some day I will be a dream mommy and I can't wait for that day to come. :)

Number fifteen:

No, you don't have to justify your past. You don't get it. I was mad at David. He swore he loved me. Swore he wanted to be with me. Swore he saw his future with me (I have the texts to prove it, 1 day before you two got back together).

This is the dumbest dramatic thing in the world and I hope you know that. And why? Because I, once again, fall for an idiot. :)

When I get mad, I get mad. You will hear about it when injustice has been done. Why? Because I'm passionate. Passionate about the truth. About righting wrongs. I can't stand when good people get hurt.

I may be in the wrong line of work. I should be doing something to defend good people. To bring people to justice.

Wouldn't you say? ;)


So! To summarize! Angry blog? About my ex boyfriend. He should apologize to me. I did not deserve that kind of treatment. I did not deserve to have my heart toyed with three times. But, the past is the past. Move on. I am. Can't we all? :)

Reflections...

I am having a root canal tomorrow! Oh my god! I am so excited!

Why? (You knew I'd ask)

Because! I haven't had dental work since I was little so I'm excited!

Know what I've noticed at work? Girls actually are afraid of me a little, which I'm happy about.

When someone calls in, I yell at them and say no, they actually come in!


Can you imagine that? That I can have that kind of control? That's awesome. And I'm proud of myself. I don't understand how these girls take no responsibility. They have jobs just because their parents tell them they have to. They call in all the time. And their own parents lie for them. Interesting isn't it?

I would hope that I would not lie for my child one day when it comes to work ethics. I've noticed most people have none. Just like morals.

But hey, Correcting Time is coming soon so the world will balance itself out. Don't you worry!

(http://lightson.net/correctingtime.htm)


I'm excited by the upcoming movies about 11:11. If I give $1,000 to the one, my name will appear on the credits! How exciting will THAT be? Very exciting.

http://11-11-11themovie.com/

http://www.the1111phenomenon.com/


I'm more excited about the second one...

I've been having the feeling that someone is watching me lately. I always feel a presence. Not necessarily a bad feeling, but different. It happens every once in a while, usually when my sightings of 11 increase. Which they have. I usually take those sightings as though I'm on the right track. Going in the right direction. So, YAY ME!

Life is such a gift. I don't intend of wasting it. And I've noticed that when certain people leave my life, other ones come in. When Mike and I broke up, a girl from work wrote me a beautiful card that made me cry. She said I'm an amazing person.... that sticks with me. The fact that someone can see the good in someone is so wonderful. I needed to hear that, especially after the difficult time I had after Mike and I broke up. So it seems as if through divine intervention, that certain people come into your life for a reason. They make you think. Make you wonder about the beautiful forces out there. And she didn't even know about my breakup. And I'm grateful that she came into my life. She has morals. She has conviction. And her and I both know those are hard qualities to come by.

And I can look at it another way too, when Dan and I broke up, Mike came into my life. He was amazingly different from anyone I had ever known. Made me feel good. Made me feel like I could take on the world. He instilled in me the confidence I did not have before. And I only hope I made a difference in his life as well.

Dan was my first boyfriend. He was my first everything. And I am grateful for that, he is a good person. So I am grateful that he was there for my 'firsts'. I could think of nobody better to share those with.

After the beating my ego and confidence took after the breakup with Mike, David came along. He was so different than anyone I had known previously. He was gentle. He was kind. He instilled in me the calm that I had not had before. He made me leave anger behind and be okay with things. And for that, I am grateful.

I have learned so many things from everyone I've known well in my life. There are other forces at work out there. 11 came into my life when I thought my life was worth nothing. When I had wondered if life was worth living. 11 mysteriously showed me that there is something to live for; a mystery. A question. Something that needs answers. I am grateful for that.

And all the while, my family has been there. To guide me. To listen to me. To love me. Words cannot express how grateful I am that my family is who they are. They are hard workers. They will do anything for the rest of the family. And I love them.

Goodnight...

Love,

Jaime Lee

Why?

I pose this question a lot!

People who know me best would not be surprised by that at all. Am I right? Yes. I am right.

Why. Would you date someone who was seeing someone else at the same time, behind their back?

Why. Would you date someone that has had numerous affairs? One with a married man?

Why. Would you date someone who does meth? Whom you call "The Methsakin" (Like Mexican)

Why. Would you then date a person who passed her married man onto her friend?

Why. Would you date someone that you think sleeps too much and it bothers you?

Why. Would you not learn something from those things?

Why. Would you talk to this person behind your girlfriend's back?

Why. Would you then go to a picnic to discuss with your cousins which female to be with?

Why. Would you then conclude that you want to be with Nicer Girlfriend, instead of the Methsakin, through advice from your cousins, then promise the Nicer Girlfriend you love her and see a future with her and not the Meth head, because she is immature, but then change your mind because of your ex wife... ?

Why. Would Nicer Girlfriend want to be involved in this? She doesn't!

Nicer Girlfriend thinks it's funny how people older than her can be ten times more immature than her...

Why. Would ex wife voice an opinion of Nicer Girlfriend about how Ex Boyfriend is moving too fast with having his kids meet her?

Why. Would ex wife then not be concerned about a meth user, drunk, affairs with married men type of female meeting her kids?

Why. Would ex wife drive Nicer Girlfriend away from Ex boyfriend? Ah. I know why! (I actually do!)

Because. Ex wife has feelings for ex boyfriend? Doesn't like that ex boyfriend liked Nicer Girlfriend so much.

Because. Ex boyfriend had a good thing going. Decent person. No meth. No drinking. No affairs. Good with her children. Loved her children. Wanted to spend more time with her children. Wanted to make an easter basket for her children. Wanted to take her children to the zoo. Children actually liked Nicer Girlfriend a lot?

Because. Jaime is the good girl that finishes last.

Jaime is okay with this :)

1:11?

I'm confused! It said I just posted the Taco post at 1:11.... but I JUST did that, but it's 2:30 pm right now... oooooo....... 1:11.... INteresting....

Tacos in my tummy!

OOOOOOOOOHHHHH YESSSSS....

Pardon me.. I just ate tacos and I am more than thrilled about the experience. I love tacos. I love tacos so much that I just decided I will capitalize the T from now on. I love Tacos.

I love Tacos with hot sauce. All over it. I love many Tacos. I love many Tacos with hot sauce.

Hot sauce deserves to be capitalized too. Hot Sauce.

Tacos with Hot Sauce.


I went to the dentist today and he confirmed that Medicaid dentists are idiots. He said there is NO REASON TO HAVE MY TOOTH PULLED. Thank you. i'm not a dentist but I didn't understand why EITHER. He said he is going to talk to the other dentist about THAT.

Thank you very MUCH.

So, I am going wednesday morning to get a root canal! I am excited. Although it's costing me $1,000 since I don't have insurance, but hey, teeth are worth it.

So. Jaime has to start working a lot more to afford this little adventure. At least I don't have a boyfriend to blow all my money on.

I want to go camping. I really am going to miss that this year. I saw firewood at the grocery store and almost cried.

But that is life.



I also can't believe what an asshole my ex is being. He honestly does not see why he owes me a huge apology for playing with my heart three times.

But I realized that I know so much. About ex wives. Ex girlfriends. Ex everythings. Threesomes. Rituals. Habits. Bad things. Everywhere! And here I sit. I do the right thing. I am this good person with morals. So. Makes me feel so good! Because at the end of the day, I know I did right by people. And I got thinking about the things I know about other people he's dated or married, and I can't understand why I would want to be with a person that would have settled for certain things. There were hardly any standards involved there. I have my head on straight. And that gets me through the day. I have my family by my side. :) I don't need the bullshit anymore.

I deserve better. I deserve to have a man respect me enough to tell me the truth. A man who loves me unconditionally, who appreciates the person that I am. A man who appreciates my values. A man who understands how passionate I am about things. A man who truly loves me.

Where is he?

I'll find him one day. I swear!

I have to go get my car now, so toodles with noodles until next time!

Love,

Jaime Lee
AKA Cake Bitch

A nice summer day...

I just spent a little while walking around the house, exploring the trees, laying in the grass, all the while Little One was prancing around behind me... We played... I threw grass at her and she liked that, I walked some more, she pranced some more...

As I got to the side yard playing with Little One, I heard another cat somewhere... I looked up at the house and saw Goomba in the window of the bathroom! He was yelling at me! Hehe.

My eyesight went away for a while due to the heat, but it was all worth it, to get back to nature and spend time with an animal... to connect to an animal is very rewarding. She won't go near anyone else but me... and I love that I can do that. :) She's my baby....

I was thinking about my life while I was laying down in the grass looking at the clouds... There is so much more to life than just boyfriends, ex boyfriends, ex wives, ex anythings. The drama has to stop. I look at what I have... I have a family that I would do anything for, and they would do the same, I have animals, I have a job that I'm good at, I have my health, besides the MS, and I have my future. My future can be anything I want it to be. And I'm excited about that. I do have to let things be. I think about how happy I was when my one ex wrote to me. I missed him. I missed bantering with him, as he was the only person that could stand up to my personality. But if he wasn't willing to make good on what he said, then I don't deserve that. I deserve better than that, because like my other ex always said, I am an amazing person. And he was right. He probably doesn't think that NOW, but he did! And I am. And I was sad that my most recent ex got mad at me. But I thought about it, and he had no reason to be mad with me. I am the one that understood his situation and took him back three times.... I deserve better. As he always told me, don't settle...

And I won't.

I'm trying on another guy right now! It's in the works, so we'll see how that goes. Plus I want to find out Hannaford Deli Man's name and ask him if he's free sometime... TEEHEE.

Yes, that is what I should do today... go buy some turkey and cheese... muwahahahaha.....

Okay, I have to go play Etrian Odyssey 2 some more and maybe go shopping for turkey and cheese and wear my best outfit.... :D And do my hair... :P

Bye for now... whoever you are..

Jaime Lee

Happier Post! YAY!

I'm so awesome I can't stand it anymore.

No, you know what I mean though? Like. I am so much better than most people I meet. How awful to say, right? But it's true.

I have morals. I have standards. I have integrity. I have conviction. I love my family first. I am smart. I am beautiful.

I mean really, how much more could you ask for?

Ah, I know some people reading this would comment on my anger problem, and how I say what I feel like at the moment. But you know what? Don't you envy my ability to do that? Yes you do. You don't mess with me. My ability to have word vomit would make me a cool judge some day.

Yup.

Those are my thoughts right now.

Oh! More thoughts!

I am almost excited to be single again. Because now I can focus on myself. I really need to do that. I meant to do that after Idiot boyfriend whose name will remain nameless (MICHAEL), but, then it didn't happen.

Although, there is that guy still working at Hannaford, in the deli department.... I now know he drives a red car! No, I did not stalk him, I was going into RiteAid and noticed him is all. he's so cute. I've been intrigued by this young man for two years now. And NOW that I'm single, I can act on it!!! How cool will I be? He's super handsome. And I won't feel guilty since I have no lingering feelings towards anyone anymore, because I've successfully cleansed myself of all the bullshit.

YAY ME!

Okay.

I have to go now. Maybe start running again! Super cool. Cross your fingers for me!!!

Love,

Jaime Lee

Where is my knight in shining armor...?

I am looking for my love.

An honest man. A sweet man. A gentle man.

Where is he....?

Does he exist? I deserve the best. I will not stop until I find the best. Somehow, twice I thought I found the best. But somehow these men keep using me. I don't know why.

I'm honest. I'm decent. I'm sweet. I'm true. I care. I love.

What else do I need...?



I guess I would rather end up alone and true to myself than to end up with a liar or a user. Yes. That is okay with me. I will not change who I am.

Never.

Goodnight...

~Jaime

Mother Rant

Ah. Quiet time. To reflect.

Does anybody know what it's like to get your heart broken three times in two months? By the same person? No? Didn't think so.

So. How in the world am I the one to blame? Nope. Not going to happen, people.

Jaime gets broken up with.
Ex wants her back.
Jaime goes back with him.
Ex disappears again to talk to his ex.
Jaime is alone again.
Ex wants jaime back again.
Jaime goes back with him.
Ex doesn't want Jaime again.

Really? How is this my fault? Seriously.

I don't deserve this. And I've also decided to go back to the bitchy Jaime who doesn't forgive people. Know what's weird? I've never hurt this badly before. Not even with Mike! Woah. That is a strong statement! :D

My reason for writing that bitchy blog? Because I couldn't even believe that there would be a question in his mind, that I would be a better influence than his ex. Really? REALLY? And I guess I can't see how the ex wife can feel comfortable with this type of girl around her kids. I know I wouldn't be.

You know? I think I know why this subject bothers me so much. I've always had such critical opinions when it comes to how people raise kids. I hate how people conduct their own lives when they had small children. The type that seem to work for me! One pops out a baby, and can't stop going out every night drinking. Really? I couldn't even look at her towards the end. You know what? You want to go out drinking every night and go bar hopping like a moron? Fine. But you made that kid. That child deserves the best. Always. Don't even get me started. I'll write a nine-page blog about this.

Then this stupid bitch starts moaning about how she doesn't have as much time to go to the bars as before... UM. Yeah, try keeping your legs together, maybe you wouldn't be in the situation now. Then she shows up stoned on Christmas Eve. I say she looks stoned, and she flips out and calls my mom crying. Really? And like I say, I wouldn't even care THAT much if she didn't have a child at home, that your fucking grandmother is taking care of, while the father of your kid is in jail for robbing a convenience store!!!

Really????

Okay. I'm done with that.

No, I'm not.

Then this other bitch has two beautiful, smart girls. The woman is a fluzy and just dates random men all the time and has them stay over at their house. The one daughter gets frustrated and tells her mother that she wants to run away and that it's not right that she keeps dating random men and has him stay in their house. The woman tells the daughter to run away if she doesn't like it. This woman is actually TELLING me all this, and says her daughter is a bitch! (Daughter was 11, by the way). Really? REALLY?

This idiot woman can't even comprehend that it's hard to see her mother with a different man every night? You can't understand how that would be hard for a young girl? So you decide to call her a bitch?

OH my god.

OKAY, that's all for today, because this is going to turn into a huge blog.

I'll be back!

~Jaime Lee

God, it only sucks because I adored those kids.


But, that is life.

Calm....

Woah!

That was a miserable post before, wasn't it?

Silly Jaime.

I am much calmer now. I am making hot dogs and smasharoni and cheese, so I'll soon be feeling high as a kite!

I'm excited about that.

Know what is keeping me from killing myself right now? My 11:11 gods!!!! hehehe how funny is that??

Nah. I wouldn't kill myself. But, I know I will probably throw myself into another relapse if I stress out much more than I am, so I am taking the calm road to avoid the hospital. I think that is rather smart, don't you?

Life is interesting. But you know what? I'm glad I've chosen to be honest about my feelings rather than act like a bitch and pretend I have none. Although that approach didn't quite work out like it would have, I am still glad that I chose to be like this. I did what I had to do. And that is that. Life goes on, does it not?

I think I've decided I will go camping by myself this summer. I think it might do me a world of good. Even though I can't start a fire, I will just play in my tent and read a good book. Be alone. To think about my life and the important people in it. My family. And possibly the one friend I have. The people that matter. And put the focus back on them.

Yes.

That is what I will do. I will also be going to the Wyndham (since they sent me stuff for a free stay!!!) and just chill in the jacuzzi by myself. Be alone. Funness!

Okay, hotdogs are done!

Will write more laters!

Toodles with noodles...whoever you are...

Jaime Lee

FUCK TO THE WORLD

FUCK.

TO EVERYBODY.

I can't believe my fucking bad luck.

I try to be strong, and it sometimes pays off, but today it would pay off to fucking kill myself. Seriously.


Other ex boyfriend decides he has feelings for an ex! Or two. i forget how fucking many now. Breaks up with jaime! Two days later tells Jaime he loves her! Jaime falls for this. Uh oh! Ex boyfriend tells Jaime that she is the best thing that ever happened to him.... stupid fucking idiot writes back... bears her heart and soul to him under the influence of other ex.... he doesn't write back. THEN WHAT? Ex decides he wants to be with Jaime again! So he has to choose! Between two exes! He decides he loves me and doesn't want to be with the other one because of drugs and drinking and how she would be for the kids! Yay! Jaime and ex back together again... Ex tells Jaime how much he loves her and wants to be with her and is sure about his decision and will NOT change his mind..

12 hours later! Ex decides it's not going to work now....

FUCK. FUCK YOU. Fuck me. Fuck everybody. Jaime wants to go now. Far far away.

Jaime tries wearing her heart on her sleeves for the FIRST FUCKING TIME IN HER FUCKING LIFE and somehow ends up with nobody.... again...

FUCK.