Thursday!!!

Hi!!!

I'm going out Thursday!!!! Maybe to go eat... or a movie... or... whatever else... YAY ME!

How cute am I? That makes me happy inside... :)

Wish me luck!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Happy Girl ;)

Jaime Strikes Again!

Hello!

So I had a good time on Date #2! Jon is very nice and I like him. He has a great laugh!

Everyone is confused on how I'm juggling. I'm not really, though. I just met two people. Justin said "don't end up like Phoebe!", like that episode of Friends where her two guys find out about each other...

But... I don't have guys... I just... know them...

I am highly attracted to Chris though.. I have to say... and I'm not being shallow, but, I could not stop touching him! He's one of those people who you just want to hug. All the time. But, he didn't seem to mind the touching ;)

But really. There was that instant 'I want to jump on you' thing. Which doesn't happen all the time, you know? Instant attraction. Whether it was just normal attraction or more sexual, either is fine by me. He's insanely nice, which I wasn't actually expecting. Not that I thought he was mean, but, his voice and his body seemed to point towards something else. So I was pleasantly surprised. But do you know what I mean? Muscles tend to go with idiots. Because men with great bodies seem to be more arrogant. But, thankfully he's not.

On my way to go out tonight, I had to stop to get gas. There stood the asian kid that likes me... he stayed in the doorway and made me hug him before going in!!! I was so surprised by this... so I was paying, and he said "You are such a nice lady... you have such a lovely smile... I like you... I really like you..."

!!!!!!! I was totally thrown off by this, but, I've noticed men DO like me when I dress up. Every single time! So, my confidence level is way up now... being in a verbally abusive relationship for so long had me doubting that anyone could find me attractive.

The answer? Yes, of course. I'm a good person.

Then, he went all the way around the counter to open the door for me, too!!! Ended with him saying '... lovely lady'

Awwwwwwwwwwwww.... so sweet.

So. Jaime is awesome. :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Pretty Lady

Side note...

I just realized something! My 'Hooker boots' always bring me good luck on a first date... I love my boots..

I also realized something else! I think Kelly Clarkson had the same exact experiences as me. I've decided her songs are everything I'm feeling or have felt before.

I like her. I would like to be friends with her.

:)

Aaahhhhhhh...... :)

So HI!

Had a date last night.... went great....

He is yummy. And nice. And smart. And sweet. And ........has amazing arms.

I just think that's worth mentioning...just because... you know how much I like arms. They tell a lot about a person I think.

But the best part? He wants to see me again!! Yeah. I'm so awesome. He said he wants to take me to Bella Mia, and then maybe to his place to watch a movie! How super cute is that? Why is this important? Because it's been so long. So it feels so weird.

And! I actually have sort of a date tomorrow with someone else!

Hehe... silly Jaime! Look at me! I'm all like... dating people... and it's so fun!

I love getting to know different people. Very interesting!

Wish me luck :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Dating Person

Date! Friday Night!

Hello! Guess who has a date Friday night?!?

I do I do!!!

His name is Chris... teehee.

Wish me luck. I don't know what will happen, but, we'll see!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Why isn't it mine?

Ugh.

I was buying music on iTunes...and I was all, like, syncing my ipod, and, it says "Syncing Michael's iPod".

What the fuck.

Michael's iPod? Since when was MY iPod HIS iPod?

Why is it not my name anymore? Why? This is pissing me off. I want to see MY OWN GOD DAMN NAME!

Psht.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Skyward Sword=FINISHED!

HELLO!

Well... I just beat Skyward Sword! I am awesome...

But I have to say, for the record, I was expecting something fantabulous and epic... I did not find that. I'm glad that they made Zelda this cute little girl with actual emotions. But other than that, I'm still missing something.

Where is it?

I will surely play it again on Hero Mode... but... I need to go online and hear other people's interpretations!

I remember back about 3 years ago, I had a dream that I knew would be significant in my life. I had a dream that the man I'm supposed to be with is in law enforcement. It was also a dream highly cluttered with 11's. I always remembered that dream. When I met Mike, he convinced me that the dream was pointing to him, because he was 'thinking' about being a correctional officer.

My dream was not about those people. I know it. I didn't want to make him feel bad, so I just agreed. But my gut instinct told me the dream pointed elsewhere.

So. I just got the phone number of a person who apparently is in the law enforcement field... maybe?

Wish me luck!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Skyward Sword Beater

Skyward Sword Update...

I did it!!!! I got the Hylian Shield!!!

How awesome am I?!? I just

Totally freaked myself out trying to

beat all 8 bosses!

But... Jaime prevailed.

As I always do in the end.

Jaime always wins.

Yes. I do.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Awesome Skyward Sword Player

Puking up M&Ms

Well good evening!

I just puked up M&Ms and that really bothers me... I think because they didn't taste like puke coming up, they tasted just as good as when I first ate them...

My period stopped. Is that weird? It came for a day and went away. Hell, I'd take a 1 day period, huh ladies? Yes ma'am.

The girls at work were discussing boyfriends, and bad boyfriends, and cheating. This of course led to the topic of Tribal, yet again. They asked what he did, and I told them the whole truthful story of how he decided to take a girl to work, then deciding to take her home too. The looks on their faces were of sheer hatred... the one says "Oh. My god! What a DICK!"

Then I got a 'douchebag', and they could not fathom how a man could make such an error in judgment. I laughed though, and said I had repressed a lot of this, but now It's making me angry again! Hey, at least I had a sense of humor.

They all agreed with me and said their boyfriends would never do anything like that and that is so bad to just agree to be carting around a single woman.

Uh huh. Tell me about it.

Then! The one girl says "Is that the one that used to come here to see you?"

And so I said "oh my god, I forgot you were here then! Yes"

So she said "ugh, he was ugly. I'm sorry, but, he was ugly"

And I said "Yeah, I know, he thought he was so hot though. He gets women confused because of the tattoos"

Hehe. So. This is where my blog was going. He's not a good-looking guy, but women just see his tattoos and automatically think he's a stud. This is an amazing thing I've witnessed with women. It's such an interesting phenomenon. Just like when men see a woman with an amazing body, they seem to interpret her face as gorgeous. Even though it's not.

Now. I have a pretty face. And I'm glad for that. Don't have the body, but hey, I can change that. You can't cure ugly!

Love always,

Jaime lee

Pretty 11:11 Midwayer

Just in case you needed a reminder...

Aww... so pretty ;) See what lip-gloss can do?

Kiss my ass, Ghirahim!

Hehe.... hello everyone...

I totally just kicked Ghirahim's ass... I was scared, only because he turned into a scary, albeit kind of hot, monster thing... as you can see...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHtO9q7s66o

No, that's not me playing... but look at what a studly thing he turns into!! I was shaking, as I only had a few potions left... :( Imma sad face...

But I was kind of turned on by Link's heroic display! He was all like, Fo Shizzle!

I got my period today. I'm upset by that. I really didn't want it today. But at least the zits are accounted for now..

The girls and I were discussing our breast sizes today. Is that what girls do? Apparently... I think I need a guy to talk to about this stuff. I'm sure that'd be fun.

So. I am almost done with my game, and I'm so excited to see how it ends!!!! I'm not sure if I'll start a quest over when I beat it, or start Twilight Princess over. I think that sounds fun... I could go in between both games! Man.

Does anyone care about this stuff? Probably not. Why do I write it? Not quite sure. Something to do. Someone to talk to. My mama is sleeping so I can't discuss games with her now... :)

My brothers and I had an hour-long conversation about Skyward Sword and it was awesome. I'm finally at that age where they take my criticisms and critiques of games seriously! I'm not just their stupid sister! Aww.... But, it's become like a bonding thing with us. And I enjoy every minute of it.

Something is going on with the universe. I can feel it. That's such an odd thing to say isn't it? Yes. It really is. But something is happening. I am experiencing that tugging sensation again and I can't stand it. Makes my heart feel weird. Ack.

Anyway, I'm going to go drink orange juice, and maybe watch some Friends!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 approaches...

Justin's Awesomeness.

Hello everyone!

I think the cat pee smell is gone! If it wasn't, I don't think I could keep him anymore... hehe. Just kidding. I wuv Goomba...

So, I was searching for things online and came across something that looked familiar to me... one of my ex boyfriends uploaded it and I remember that day vividly and it made me so happy! I forgot how friggin' funny my brother was that night!

We had rented a camp somewhere, and we all spent the weekend and it was super fun... and of course, spending time with Justin is always priceless, as he usually does something very random that is so awesome... (my other brother Jerry is the one in the chair laughing)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVZBNe5vwdo&list=UU74ZTbOH6AqGxD9xegOMBAw&index=12&feature=plcp

It was so unexpected... and I miss that! Aww... Hopefully he will stay home this weekend and we will play games together!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Cat Piss. What the F.

Hello hello...

Well... I just went up to my room to play a nice round of Skyward Sword and hopefully collect some more dusk relics to upgrade my arrow thingy... and what do I find on my bed? A large puddle of cat piss.

What the F?!

So.... I just did a nice load of laundry.... ya know, if it were dog piss I could handle it better.. cat piss? Deadly. Ugh.

I wonder if that smell will ever totally be gone... so, I think my cat must be stressed about something, since he only ever did something like that once before when he was introduced to another outdoor cat... he also had a UTI when he did that before too...

So, instead of being pissed off (teehee PUN!), I will hope that my cat is alright... as that is not his normal behavior.

So. My dentist is going to be on WKTV at 5:45!!! I have to see him at the end of the month too.. I love him :) He's so kind. So awesome at what he does. Yay Dr. Burns! Why can't I seem to find a neurologist or primary as good as my dentist? Psht.

Ack. I need a shower.

Happy trails!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Preggo!

Hello!

I had two dreams, two nights in a row... both involving mike and his wife. In the first dream, mike came to the bakery to talk to me, and was pregnant.. ??

Second dream, both he and his wife were at my house having dinner, and she was pregnant. I asked her if she was excited, and she said "...ehh..."

So. Why did I dream about the two of them being pregnant? Let us find out what preggo means in a dream... one moment please!

To dream that someone else is pregnant indicates that you are experiencing a closer connection to this person.

Um.... am I?!? Didn't know that one... now it scares me. Let's find another interpretation that suits it better... one moment!

What does it mean if I dream that someone else is pregnant when they aren't in real life?
"Sometimes, these dreams can be literal and the person indeed turns out to be pregnant," Mead says. "Usually, though, this is a sign that something has been left inside, unexpressed or undone. Something this person once deeply cared about is either coming to the surface for them on an emotional or physical level or is begging to be let out by his or her soul."

That one is better! So! Does that mean one of those idiots should apologize to me? Yes. Yes I do. That'd make sense. Someone owes me an apology.

Okay! I'll take that explanation. Or, what if I am psychic and she really IS preggo! How awesome would I be!! I could document it. Awesome.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Mike, Midna and Madness! Teehee.

Hello everyone!

I think I've crossed the line into 'gamer chick'. I've finally experienced the painful hand syndrome. Ack. I can barely type because of it. I've been holding my nun chuck wayyyy too long.

It's snowing a lot and I'm super happy!

That damn Kelly Clarkson song, Mister Know It All,keeps playing on the radio. I like it, don't get me wrong, but, the only person I can think of when I hear it, is mike. No, his name is not worth capitalizing. In case you were wondering about my punctuation and grammar...

The girls and myself often talk about guys, boyfriends, ex boyfriends. They now refer to Bad Boyfriend #1 as Tribal. That's his nickname. As I've had millions of horrible stories involving him.

I get asked the same question at the end of my mini-series of horriblness... "Why did you date him again...?"

Honey. I wish I knew. But. I had a dream and I think that dream led to the answer as to why I stayed with him. Yes, dreams help you figure things out. Trust me.

Because he was thin. I was not. My whole high school career flashed before my eyes when I realized he wanted a second date. That's what it was. And how pathetic of me to not realize that. Imma sad face. I never thought a thin person would want to date me.

But. At least I realized something about myself. Which also means I still have an issue that I must deal with. My weight. Self-image.

So, in a weird way, I think that was my destiny with him. To realize this important thing about myself. And change it. Once and for all. We all know what that means.

So! I have a baby shower to go to! And my brother is coming up from Pittsburgh again! Super excited! I love seeing him.. :)

I also just realized what a super huge loser I am, in that I just read this entire article...

http://zelda.wikia.com/wiki/Midna

Problems? Afraid so...

But. I am thrilled to see that perhaps she could re-appear in another game... I would love that. I could die happily.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Lightworker 11:11

Twilight Realm

I've decided I want to live in the Twilight Realm. I would be completely at peace if I got to hear this music all the time, being surrounded by the little black thingies...

Need an explanation?

I'm referring to Twilight Princess, of course...

But I've decided that's where I belong :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUwkjIXaHEI&feature=related

Okay, so listen to that song, and look at this place, and tell me you DON'T want to live here eternally?

Now come on. Look how beautiful.

I'll be here someday!

This will be a post purely about my gaming obsession. Particularly about The Legend of Zelda. I'm almost done with Skyward Sword. It has grown on me, to be honest. I was not sure how I was going to like it. But, I still miss my Twilight Princess.

I believe that will always be my favorite. As soon as I beat this game, I'm re-starting a quest in Twilight.

Loser? Afraid so.

But, a pretty loser, at least.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

11:11 and my Ascension.

Hello there.

Every time I need a sign that I'm on track, I get one...

I was musing about different things in my life the other day, while driving home, a route I don't always take.

That Andy Grammer song was on the radio, the one about keeping your head up... you know.

I didn't change the station.

Just as these lyrics came up,

I start to comprimiseMy life and the purpose.Is it all worth it
I happened to glance at the clock, and it was 11:11.
That was my sign. It is all worth it. I'm doing something right, I'm going in the direction I think I was meant to go. What I was specifically musing about, was if it's right of me to not want a boyfriend right now, at this point in my life.
So, I got my answer...

This happened at another critical juncture in my life, and it happened to be the only other time I lied to my ex (Mike), we had a huge fight and I ran into the field next to my house to try to get away from what I was feeling and how angry I was (as I always was, but chose to ignore the things I knew that were wrong), and he started following me out there. I was crying my eyes out, and as I was running, I asked, prayed, and begged God to give me a clear sign that I should not be with Mike anymore... as that is what I had been feeling the entire length of our relationship... it wasn't right. I looked down. There was a four-leaf clover. I picked it up. I cried more. Mike asked me what was wrong. I lied to him. I told him I asked God for a sign that we should be together.
I know it was wrong. But, I did indeed get a sign that my thought-process was right. I only lacked the power to make that relationship end when I should have.
I have that clover still, put it with the two others I've found in my lifetime.
I will always keep it. It means so much to me. It meant I was answered.
Since Mike, I have been not wanting to be with anyone, as many of my posts show... I felt something change inside of me since dealing with everything from that scarring relationship. Something changed.
I wanted to find out what, and today I found part of my answer as to what happened and what is happening...



10 Common signs and symtoms of the ascension and spiritual awakening of an individual.

Body aches and pains, especially in the neck, shoulder and back. This is the result of intense changes at your DNA level as the "Christ seed" awakens within. This too shall pass.
Feeling of deep inner sadness for no apparent reason.
Crying for no apparent reason
Withdrawal from family relationships.
Unusual sleep patterns.
Intense dreams. These might include war and battle dreams, chase dreams or monster dreamPhysical disorientation. At times you'll feel very ungrounded.
Increased "self talk." You'll find yourself talking to your Self more often
Feelings of loneliness, even when in the company of others. You may feel alone and removed from others. You may feel the desire to "flee" groups and crowds. As Lightworkers, you are walking a sacred and lonely path.
Loss of passion. You may feel totally dis-impassioned, with little or no desire to do anything.
A deep longing to go Home. This is perhaps the most challenging of the conditions. You may experience a deep and over-whelming desire to leave the planet and return to Home.
you have an inner remembrance of what it is like to be on the other side




Now... reading this stuff scared the baJESUS out of me, since all of them are what has been happening to me for a little over a year and a half.
The crying. The sleep patterns, as I hallucinate too, the intense dreams (the Zelda beast!!), wanting to be alone, do nothing.. yup yup and yup. And, the most damning of all, is the fact that every night, when I say my version of 'prayers', and I talk to myself about things going on and my family and things of that nature, I end with talking about how I don't belong in this time. I'm not meant to be here. I don't fit, nor have I ever felt like I fit with this time... I always say to myself, or whoever else is listening up in the heavens, that I feel that my journey is one I must walk alone. I feel it. I know it.
The fact that this checklist is talking about what I feel inside, scares me a lot....
Am I crazy?
Love always,
Jaime Lee11:11 approaches

Idiot Boy

Ahhh, got rid of one guy!

Ugh. How do seemingly nice people turn into such morons? That Michael character is an idiot. Told him I don't think we should talk anymore.

I think all men are idiots now. His actions just verified it.

Meh, so I was right to be wary of a guy that calls me sexy.

So, where are these nice men? Where ARE they?

I am way too into Skyward Sword to want a boyfriend. My mom finds it funny that I have potential dates all the time, but turn them down because I'm having too much fun doing my own thing.

Hey, I would say "you go girl!!".

Girl power. Rock on.

But seriously. I'll meet someone one day. But I've lost all concern. It's so wonderful... so many women I know just have to have a boyfriend. They can't go two days without being with someone. It's sick. Where did this mentality come from initially?

Why not be in touch with who you are? Where you're going. If a true gentleman happens to come into your world, then yay! If not, then, okay...? Right?

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Lesbian?

Hi everyone!

I just had the oddest experience of my life.

I was at McDonalds (ugh), and I was ordering. The young lady behind the counter started talking about how she was starving. So we got talking a bit. She was saying how since she gets up so early, she doesn't have time to eat and then it's so hard because she's around food all the time.

She said how happy food makes her, and it warms her soul. I laughed, and agreed with her. Then she said food is good for everything except for your waist line. I laughed again, and thusly agreed, as I know what she means.... We had this weird like, bonding. It was unlike anything else I've ever experienced with another woman. Then she said "I'm such a fatty!" and I chuckled and said "nooo you're not! You're beautiful!"

She blushed and said "awwwww! Thaaaank youuu!"

Was I flirting with a woman?

Is that normal? To tell a complete stranger, that I think she's beautiful?

But she was... her name is Meghan. She has dark hair. And she's pretty!

So why is saying she's beautiful after she just called herself a fatty, wrong?

Is it?

And she wasn't fat either. She was lovely. And sweet. And nice. And friendly.

I told the story to my brother, and I asked him if that's flirting and he laughed a lot and said ".... yeah... you were flirting."

ACK! But see. It's not fair to call it that, I am not a lesbian. I can just appreciate a nice young lady. Contrary to what ex boyfriends may think, I do NOT view all other good-looking women as evil or something. Just because I don't have a dream body, doesn't mean I look at other woman as evil for having something that I don't.

So. Was that weird? To say that?

But! She really liked that I said that! So it all works out... I made her happy...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

??

Where is my post!?!

Sad face.

Flying Mother Effer.

Good evening!

I have a question that I know nobody will answer... but I will ask it just the same...

Is it weird to barely know someone, but they call you 'cutie' and 'sexy' and 'dear'?

I found it somewhat offensive.. but I'm really not sure if I am too sensitive about that...

I mean, sure I like to be called 'sexy', but usually after a substantial amount of time, you know?

But... he's a science teacher... so that's nice. Has a house. A truck. Two big dogs... sounds like a good match for Miss Jaime, right?

But there are just two downfalls... the 'cutie' remarks, and the fact that his name is Michael.

Ack. Why do I keep having this bloody bad luck with names?

Maybe I'll convince him to change his name. Yup. That's what I'll do.

I'm almost near the end of Skyward Sword. My whole vacation, this is what I've been doing... playing video games.

But hey, we all need time to unwind, right? Yes.

I started having heart palpitations when I was doing this one part... it's the thing I had nightmares about... I think I did better than this guy, but...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BvAOq0vEz8

Ugh... is that not right or what?!

I can't believe I beat it, but, I will forever have nightmares about this thing. I can't get over it. It was terrifying. I was sweating while doing this...

When it started flying, I was like "WTF?!?"

My jaw was actually dropped.

Picture me, all alone, in my room, in my comfy chair, with gummi Lifesavers.... seeing this ugly mother fucker start to fly....

WHAT.

THE.

FUCK?!?

Exactly how I said it too...

But hey! I was awesome...

Now, I also fought this one round ball-on-fire in this game too.. I was so terrified that I stayed up at the top and refused to fight it until my nerves calmed down....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzcwNBiZVKU

Problems?

I think so...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Scrapper!

Good morning!

I was up until 1 am playing Skyward Sword, wanting to finish it to see what the story is! I am so so hoping it delivers. If not, I've spent over 53 hours playing a game with no story line.

I am currently at a part with Scrapper, and he's so adORABLE!

I have my voodoo doll resting on something that belonged to the person I want to get even with... YAY! That's what my dollys specialty is... 'getting even when all else fails'.

See, my brother knows me well :) What a nice Christmas gift!

I was thrilled to see this online and it made my heart happy:

Look how cute!!! If I had one wish, I would be her... Just have to loose some weight but look how awesome! She's yawning too!!!

I think I need to get out more..

But then! Would I rather be Midna in her true state?

That's awesome too...

She's so awesome!

But I think I'll take the short version because she's so adorable..

I have run out of thoughts for today... Hmph... rather pointless blog, wouldn'tcha say?

:D

TEEHEE!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 approaches...

Happy New Year Horoscope.

Happy first of January!

I was reading a Virgo horoscope today, projections for the year 2012.

I was happy to see this!

With Neptune moving back into your partnership sector in February, you'll settle for nothing less than your true soul mate; either that or you'll feel blissfully wedded to your spiritual nature ... or perhaps a little of both! In any case, this is the time of your life to realize how important it is to satisfy the longings of your soul. You've compromised, settled and rationalized trying to make the wrong relationship right for long enough. Now you're willing to wait for the real thing.

Now, this is awesome since I've been 'blissfully happy' being single and being in touch with who I am, instead of worrying about who I am with another man. So this rings true now... And my new year's resolution fits..

I agree also, in that I have compromised and settled, and tried my damn hardest to rationalize trying to make a very wrong relationship right (Mike). So true, right?! After him, my thought process was to wait for the right person, even if that means being single for a while.

So, I am content. And my horoscope says the same. It's okay to be single. Since when has it become a world full of people who can't be without someone? I think about the fact that people rush into getting married and pushing relationships forward, and I don't envy that. Life is too short to do something that major. ugh.

I was intrigued by the next part, only in that it's exactly what happened...

You're slowly becoming accustomed to Pluto's ongoing death-and-rebirth experiences in the realms of love and creative self-expression. You've already shed many selves over the past few years, and Pluto has been gutting out your love life in order to create space for greater levels of passion and intimacy. You may have learned - or you may still be learning - the hard way that the more you let go, the more you receive.

Anybody that knows me, knows this is 100% true to me. And I'm happy to know that what I'm doing is the right thing now.

I'm happy :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 approaches...