Dream dream dream....

Good morrow!

Teehee. I am still sick. I coughed up a sticky thing. That bothers me.

I had a weird dream last night. It bothered me. I had a dream that me and mike were in my car driving up and down route 12. I was not saying anything to him, but he just kept apologizing to me. But I refused to accept his apology. I just said nothing. Then he put his head on my chest, like right over my heart, and said "I just miss you... you know?"

And I still wouldn't say anything.

I think his head on my chest was symbolic. Probably relates to how I am dedicated to protecting my heart now. Not let anyone manipulate me or lie to me. And I suppose mike is the epitome of lies and manipulation to me. Although the dream felt nice... it was comfortable, just like how I remember feeling with him. Like a connection that was other-worldly.

But. Despite the feeling, I would not say anything. But he was sort of cowering to me. Hrm.

I will hopefully go out soon. I want that. I like dating. Yup. Kissing too. Kissing is fun.

I started my quest over on Twilight Princess. I have a problem.

My brother recently told me that he's decided to stay single for a long time. I gave him a high-five for that one... smart kid :) My older brother just looked at us funny.... I suppose because he always has someone.

I'm different. I enjoy getting to know myself. Being alone. If you want in, you're going to have to prove a lot. Do the right thing. Let me see your email if I ask. Let me see your phone if I ask. Come home when you say you are going to. Not cart around strange young women to and from work to 'be a nice guy', not lie about past relationships, not lie about your relationship with your parents, not lie PERIOD.

Fuck.

Ahem. Apparently I got mad again..!

I'd better go, I have to write back to the sweetie man that needs my help with MS... I love helping people!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

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