Equalizer

Hi everybody!

I walked more! I did I did. Be proud!

My brother wants me to go to the gym with him.. aww! He said he will always go with me and it will be super fun. Awwwww! How sweet is that? I have a good brother..

I might take him up on that actually. Aww....

I have a nagging suspicion that the person who robbed us works for us currently. I don't know why, but, this person has been acting so weird... I think it's her. I don't trust her. I don't like her.

Meet my dolly:

She's a good dolly. She will help me get even. She's my equalizer.

I was thinking about something today. This new friend person I've mentioned, I'm confused about it. Because, he's so nice, and doesn't have to be, he doesn't have to talk to me but he does, and he's been extremely helpful in an area of my life that I so needed that motivation. He's extremely good looking though. It doesn't fit. You know what I mean? Good looking people usually go with arrogant assholes.

Take my ex for example. One time when we were fighting, I mentioned that I wanted to break up with him because I could not stand him anymore. He just stood there all arrogantly, smoking a cigarette (ew), and said "you'll never leave me".

I was stunned and said "Yeah? Why not?"

He just said "psht. I mean, look at me." And pointed to himself.

He was serious.

Now, in all fairness, yes, he did have a nice body. Well, at least for a few first months, yes. Very nice. Can't complain about that. Nothing wrong with that. But why should that turn a person into an arrogant dick-hole, so much to where you think no woman would ever leave you because of it?

But. He wasn't drop-dead gorgeous though. His only good looks related to his body. That's all.

I never cared, to be quite honest, those things don't tend to enter my mind when being with a person. It was his personality I unfortunately found attractive.

I hope I am never like that. It's such an unattractive quality. It's all well and fine if you are good looking. I think I have good features too, but, so what? I know that if I take some time with hair and makeup I can look really good. I know it. But does it matter? :(

Psht. OH! So that was my point. This particular person is nice looking and is voluntarily nice. It throws me off. I'd like to give him a medal for it. Granted, I hardly know him, but, it was a kind act to even talk to a stranger in the first place, let alone help me with something.

But anyways. Yes, I am happy that I finally got a push from a person I hardly know to start running/walking again... I got over my fear of ending up in a hospital. And I feel really good. I had been missing that feeling. So, I'm glad.

My dad made these amazing cake things. They are like, french chocolate cake, with an irish cream/custard filling. Amazing.

But, I can't really eat that kind of stuff. I wanted it, but, I said no :) Teehee.

I always wonder who even reads this blog. Like, who cares enough to read what I have to say? I don't think there could possibly be one person who likes what I write.

Hm.

Either way, it lets me put my thoughts on 'paper', since I don't have anyone to talk to :)

My two men online are equally intriguing me. One is Mike. One is Todd. They both were chefs at some point. How cool is THAT? One worked at the casino here, and that is super awesome. But, he's enlisting or something, but he seems to be super excited about it, as that is his family's legacy. I admire that so much. So, even if I don't get to know him long, I'll be glad I got to talk to someone neat like that :)

Obama is pissing me off something horrible. I swear. I think I have to call the White House and talk to him directly. He needs to know how much I dislike him. I think this is important for America to know my opinion. :)

I've been watching all the republican debates. The only person I want to see is Gingrich. I don't like Paul, I don't like Romney as much anymore, I like Santorum, but, I don't think he can win. I appreciate Romney's business sense, but, I can't see him leading the country. Gingrich I can.

I have to go eat a salad now, so, I will write more randomness later!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Gingrich Supporter :)