Weird Post...

Good early morning to everyone!

4:35 to be exact. I just got home from work.

I realized something today, while listening to Coast to Coast AM, 950. It was a segment with Dr. Joyce Hawkes, PhD. She was explaining how she heals people. Using her mind. She used a phrase that was also used on my 11:11 meditation tapes... which was "if they are meant to be healed, they will come"

You may remember me saying when I was in deep alpha, mike came into my world. Not by my doing. I was quite offended when he just showed up there actually. But as I was listening to Dr. Joyce, there may have been a reason he came forward in a spiritual way for me. Perhaps I am supposed to be helping him through my gifts, which I know I have. Rather than hurt him with my voodoo doll, I should help him. Perhaps that's why he came into my life at all. I think I've been confused this whole time.

You see, I knew he was coming into my life. I knew his name would be Mike. I knew everything that was going to happen. I knew I truly loved him, but I also knew we were not meant to stay together. I saw the future and it involved us not being together because of someone at work. I remember telling him this a few months into our relationship. I probably sounded like a nut job. But, indeed that is what actually happened, which is why it was hardly a surprise to me actually. I knew it.

But after it happened I was still perplexed. I knew there would also come a day, far into the future, that we would meet up again. But it would be a time in both our lives when we developed into different people; the people we were both meant to be. I used to pray for him every night. I used to pray that his head would be clear. At the time I thought he had brain tumors, but, turned out that was a lie. But I also know there still is something wrong with him, involving his head. Obviously, through everything that happened, I know he's not entirely right. Perhaps that's where I come in. I am his healer.

I know this sounds crazy, but, as I listened to Dr. Joyce talk about meditating and the levels of consciousness you go through and how people who are meant to be healed, will come forth to you for that healing, I realize it's him. It must be. He came forth. In my world, and I could not open my eyes because I was in such a deep alpha that I could not.

So. I think I'll start doing that. Dr. Joyce says you can do it without even touching someone. You can do it through the phone or just with your thoughts.

Maybe I will try. This might actually help my anger. If I can let go of the anger he caused me and actually help him in his own life, then that is okay. This might be why I knew he was coming into my life to begin with. I have to heal him.

I will try that in a little while.

Goodnight, world.

Love always,

Jaime Lee