Akashic Library

Hi!

I still can't write my name correctly.. it's almost funny now and I wish I could put up a picture of what it looks like. I hope this isn't the second-half of my relapse.

I've been arguing with medicaid for a week now. I sent them in four new paystubs, knowing I will qualify, but, my case worker does not know if she got them. I swear.

I explained the situation of how they cut my coverage off early and I couldn't get needles, which I need. I explained how I would have paid for them, except for the fact that they are $4200 per month. Something I wish I could afford. But can't. Which is why I'm on medicaid.

I want to be able to work more. I want it so bad. I want to not need 15 hours of sleep. I want to work 40 or more hours a week and make money and have to pay for health insurance and be okay with that. I can't do that. And I feel trapped.

It would take me four or so months of working to afford one month of medication. :(

I did side 3 of the Akashic Construct. I saw my library, my calendar, the lift, it's so pretty. I had to invite the person I am healing into there for healing. My celestial was there also but I could not make it out yet... but, I did see that mike was the person I am supposed to be healing. It was so cool. I'm loving this whole thing. I can do anything I want. And even BETTER is the fact that once I'm deep into the alpha state, things happen without my doing. It's an amazing feeling.

Before the end of my healing session it said I had to put them back into the lift and press #2 to send the elevator back down, out of my Akashic Library. I was very emotional this time, something I had not been before. This was more real than ever.

I will do this again tonight, and I'm hoping to get a name out of my celestial that was there with me.

I know I sound crazy, but, it's been very awesome.

I am reading a book about how positive words affect water crystals. It's so interesting. That ties into my theory that positive thinking can heal. Definitely can.

Maybe my relapse has to do with the anger I've been harboring for over a year. ??

I should be getting better.... but I'm not yet... until I can write correctly!

I have to go eat!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 Healer