I woke him up!

Good morning everyone!

1:46 to be exact.

I had a blast with my meditation last night. I went further into deep alpha than ever before. I slept 13 hours afterwards, I hope that is not a side effect!

While I was visualizing, helping to heal mike, had my hand on his forehead again, he woke up! Scared the bajesus out of me, as I didn't know that could happen, but something happened in my brain! Super scary. His room is nice though, it was peaceful there. I saw his wife, she looked super cute lying next to him. Her hair is longer than before. She was on her stomach. But. It was so odd. It was all so real. I guess the reason this seems extraordinary, is because when he woke up 'in my head', I was pulled from the room super fast, like in a movie.

The mind is an interesting thing I tell ya. I probably sound like a nut job. I'm not really though. And I'm not just making these things up, these scenarios play out without my doing. Like when he showed up in my pleasant scene in nature. I tried so hard to get him out of there but he would not go. I misread it, as I was supposed to be helping him.

I hope I do some good as it's been feeling good to let go of some anger and not take what he did to me so personally. I think I've been misconstruing it as I'm a bad person, or a person that can't be loved. I was treating it like how I used to feel when people would make fun of me when I was young. I turned that into self-hate.

There is nothing remotely wrong with me. I'm a lovely person with morals, values, conviction, and trust me that is more than most people can say for themselves.

I'm Jaime :)

My friend told me yesterday that if he won the lottery, he would give me a million of it. That was super sweet. I find it refreshing that he sees me for who I am, as that takes people years to do with me usually. I swear I know him from somewhere though. He seems to know things about me that aren't possible. Hm.... Is that possible?

Perhaps. I was talking about soul mates to Todd and he believes in them. He asked me what I thought, and if I thought he got away. The question tore me, as I had always thought, despite what I saw happening to us in the future, that mike was my soul mate. I couldn't utter the phrase 'he got away', but I said he lied to me and then had to go away. hehe.

The world is interesting. I can't wait to find out what the journey of life is for. I can't wait to find out. But I know I have a purpose, something divine. I know it. I used to feel it when I was little actually. And I used to have the feeling that I was being watched. All the time. It was not scary to me but I felt it since I was little. I still have that feeling but I know it's a good thing. :)

I have to go meditate again and see where my brain takes me tonight. I'll try not to wake people up this time! Silly Jaime.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

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