Motor skills down again...

Good morning...

5:43 to be exact.

I had 7 more attacks of the motor skill thing... I don't know what to say.

First I get this buzzy feeling in my head where I get super dizzy, then I can't write or use my left arm. That's not fun...

I think I have to call the neuro and tell him that unfortunately I have a second symptom. woah hteher is is

woah. I meant: woah, there it is. I couldn't type it. Lasted all of 5 seconds, but it's like a mini stroke, and I'm scared :(

It almost seems like it's on a timer. I will keep writing to see when it happens again. That was at 5:45. Let's see.

I have to do my meditation tonight but I have to sleep. I need to have a normal sleep cycle again. I feel useless though. I absolutely need at least 15 hours of sleep, which again, my neuro said is absolutely normal for an exacerbation, but it sucks. I don't want people to think that I'm just lazy.

Psht. Easter is almost here and I am excited about this coming weekend. Jerry and Vicki are coming over. Jerry called today and we talked on the phone for at least 20 minutes about video games, tuna noodle casserole, my insurance situation, and stupid people. It was nice! I'm glad I am close with my family. I wouldn't want it any other way. I feel so sorry for people that don't have that in their life. It's not fair.

Kind of like with mike. I pity his life in that he didn't have that connection. Crack whore stripper mom and abusive druggy dad. So not fair. Children should not be born into this world and given those circumstances. Not fair at all.

But, I think the world will be heading in a new direction soon. With this mayan calendar thing and the booming noises all over the world (of which I've heard three times now), I think the earth is changing. I can't wait for it. I know something is coming. I am very excited to see it though.

Todd concerned me the other night... he was all sad and said it's because he's so lonely and has nobody.... I told him I could not relate, as I don't, nor have I ever, needed someone (obviously). It's just kind of sad when people can't be without someone else by their side. Why not focus on you?

I decided that I don't want to get married, no kids yet, until I'm all settled. Yes. I need to focus on me now. I never got to when I was younger.

It's my time now.

I have to go to bed now... hopefully get up at a decent hour! The medicaid lady is supposed to call me this morning. Think that will happen? :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 Healer