Numby and Zoo! Numby Zoo?

http://www.yourepeat.com/watch/?v=q6xEWboEls8&feature=youtube_gdata

Always need background music to reading blogs,  huh?

Hello!

I might be going to that zoo and wine thing on Sunday.  My brother might go too.  And apparently a few girls from work are going too, so, that'd be super fun.

Numby is still here.  Pffffft.

I am super excited for the summer, I think we might go camping!!

I miss camping!  I yearn for camping.  Help me!

Um.  I forgot what I was planning on writing about.  It was going to be good, I swear.

I have about five friend requests on Facebook just sitting there.  I can't press confirm.  Maybe if I ignore them they might go away?

Ugh.  I have about 50 more friends than I wanted anyways.  These people just exist on Facebook.  They don't mean anything to me.  Maybe I'll delete my Facebook.  No reason to have it other than to harass my family :)

These FRICKIN' Facebook photos drive me insane.  I have a friend, or "Friend" who is maybe like 14 and she takes like a million of those 'bathroom mirror cell phone' pictures, I can't take it anymore!  I have to delete her too.  And her father.  I have no idea why they are on there anyways.  Pfffffft.

My older brother is coming out here again in a few weeks.  I love seeing him.  We all have such a good time.  Maybe him and I can help my younger brother get past his emotions from a past relationship.  I tried telling him that he'll get over it.  I had to use Mike as an example, you have to feel it in its rawest form, cry, get mad, get angry, go through all the emotions, then you'll be over it.  But you can't just not feel it.  He gets really mad when people mention her name... that's not a good thing.  There would be something wrong if I got mad whenever people mention Mike (and they do often, but it's funny now), I can laugh about it.  It's been like a year aaaaaand... wait.  I have to think.  Hold on please.  A year and a half now.  I'm over it, no emotion, kind of a dead emotion really.  And after that long it's how it should be.  He's just something that I used to know.

Like that song.  I do think of him when I hear that song, because it reminds me of us.  And all the times he screwed me over.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8UVNT4wvIGY

Weird video.

But yes.

I have to go eat now!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Numby Returns with Avengence

http://www.yourepeat.com/watch?v=b8pzr1jdBeA

Hello :)

Numby is getting worse... now it has reached the dreaded stage where it feels like there is a balled up sock taped to the bottom of my foot. 

I suppose I have to call the neurologist now... it has exceeded just a daily exacerbations.  I think I'm either in Relapse Stage 2 or another whole Relapse.  That'd be bad.  I thought I was doing better :(

Think positively!  My seizure-like symptoms have returned too...Imma sad face.

Perhaps people will have to be visiting me in the hospital.  Pfffft.  Well.  Maybe I'll get some kick-ass hospital food.  Yeehaw.

I need to get better before graduations... I can't not work then.  That is when I have the most work to do.  :(

There was quarter size hail today.. my cat liked watching it bounce all over.  It amused me for a good ten minutes.

I have nothing to say now except for it is lightening again so I have to go..

Love always, 

Jaime Lee

11:11

Propel Water = nom nom

Hello!

Start out by listening to this in the background... and look at this picture of me, it seems to fit.

http://www.yourepeat.com/watch?v=q6xEWboEls8

Okay.  I've been eating celery and carrot sticks.  I love lunches like that.  Oh.  And turkey or ham.  No bread.  I hope this makes a difference.  And bottled water.  Yum yum.  I think I have blueberry pomegranate water and kiwi strawberry Propel water.

nom nom.


And little mini bell peppers.  Red and orange and yellow.  It makes me happy inside.

Okay, because of this song playing, I have to go play Twilight Princess and finish the Forest Temple and hear what cute things Midna has to say to me..

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Numby Numby Little Star #2

Hello!

My numby is still here.  But I think I figured out what caused it.  Last sunday was the picnic and I got a mad sunburn from being in the sun and heat.  Bad strike #1.  Then, I've been working more because I thought I could do it, thus overexerting myself.  Bad strike #2.  Then, I can't pee or empty my bladder, which means a UTI.  Bad strike #3.

So.  The fix for numby?  Antibiotics and lots of sleep.

Ah.  Just in time for graduations, pfffffft.

The police stopped by the bakery to drop off some papers last week.  I wonder if they know who robbed us yet.  I read the police report.  They had a suspect but they blocked it out so we could not see.  I tried reading it... INteresting.  Hm....

I have to go lay down so numby goes away.  I do not like him.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Numby Numby Little Star...

Remember all who have fought for this country... God bless America.  There's only one...

Numby is still there, and now I have that feeling that a tight band is around my foot.  Pfft.

I think I have a UTI which is causing all this.

Doctor!

Stupid pee problems.  I need a beer to help this.

I don't know why I'm awake.  Something made me get up.  My mom just told me that a person with the initials AL is in the paper again... Interesting family that I have my eye on for a certain reason... people who know people who know people who have things to do with ex employee who used to rob places, who also knows ex boyfriend's wife, and who also happened to blame ex boyfriend for taking money from bakery before...  INteresting.  POLICE!!

I have to go now...

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Numby Numby

Good morning :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fN1vFESbfZk&lcor=1&lc=FgmP-Y63pnigLYCT1grHHO-MWHKGVKgjSEUjcK-3UFk&lch=email_reply&feature=em-comment_reply_received

The numby feeling did not ascend to my middle section, so thank you to anyone who prayed for me :)

My toes are still numb, but, nothing else as far as I can tell.

I've been battling with people on YouTube about Skyward Sword.  All I said was the game was missing that 'feeling' for me.  This one kid got so angry and said I was full of bullshit!  He said I can't say that because it's not true...

I showed him.  Using my stealth-like wit and punctuation and spelling correctness, I ruled.  And then other people started agreeing with me!  Yay for Jaime!

I always win.

Maybe people who read this who have played SS will agree.  Something wasn't there... made me sad.  I beat the game and waited for the 'epic', but alas, it did not come.  I was so sad.  Imma sad face.

I'm about half-way through Windwaker and I love it.  Way more epic already than SS.  I love Link.

I have to go lay down again, so I will write more!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11 Approaches

More problems

Hello again...

Today, while I was decorating my cakes, my leg fell asleep.  It would not come back.  I went home because I was so scared.  I had to sit down for a few hours.  It's doing what it did like 3 years ago during my last relapse.  I hope this is just because I was in the heat last Sunday and got over heated.

Pray for me :)

Justine and I were talking about tattoos again, and losers, and losers with tattoos, and all those subjects again as we often do.  I had to mention how tribal's mom had a tat of a mosquito smoking pot.  She laughed so hard, it was hilarious.  She said "wow, it's a good thing you got out of that relationship, huh?!?"

Hehehe.  I said "yeah, I can't get over dumb-ass tattoos like that!"

And I was thinking about that after.  How I immediately judge people based on stuff like that.  I didn't like his mom, well, mainly for the drug problem resulting in almost killing her son, and her stripper activity, and allowing a man to beat her children.  Ha.

But really.  Was I wrong for judging her?  Or the whole fucked-up family?  No.  I have high standards.  She agreed with me.

Then I told the story of how first boyfriend's mom was showing me all her tattoos the first time we met.  I was so disturbed by this also.  I don't know if it tops a pot-smoking mosquito, but, it's still up there on the Fucked-Up Meter.

Yes.  That is a real thing.  FUM.

Jaime's FUM.

Man.  Once I'm thin, I'll find normal boyfriends.  None of these tattoo having, druggy background, stripper-mom type of boyfriends.  A nice guy.  A truthful man.  One with minimal tattoos if he must.  One with a mom that makes me feel comfortable.  Preferably a man with only brothers and not sisters.  Those are the worst.  Pffft.  And a man that rides bicycles I think.  They look nice.  Yum yum.

Anyways.

I am off to sleep and hope that the feeling in my leg comes back and does not keep ascending to my crotch again.  Cross your fingers :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Cupcakes and What Not

Hello!

I have been watching X-Files for the past three hours.  I am loving them.  Interesting how I never watched  shows when they were actually on.  Usually takes ten years for me to catch on.  Pfffft.

It's going to be memorial day!  That means more picnic fun for me!  Hot diggity.

I am addicted to listening to this when I'm online.  I think I have a problem.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6xEWboEls8

It's so beautiful.  As well as being from the best game ever... of course.

I was icing my cakes today and listening to 98.7, like always.  It was about 9:00 when I told Justine that I bet they will play that depressing Adele song.  Sure enough, they did.  She said "wow, how are you able to predict the future?!?"

My reply was "I've been known to do that from time to time..."


Ahh.  How true.  Either I can predict the future or I influence it.  I've learned, from talking with a shamanic healer guy, that I have the power to influence things to happen.  Much like my iPod incident.  It's not that I knew what number the songs would come up as, but that I made it happen.

OOooooOoOooo...

I should use this power for good.  Not evil.

oh my god.  This song is awesome.

I was at the best part...  3:33 and on.  Awesome.  I want to dance.

I have to go watch more X Files.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11 Approaches...

Stout

Just sitting here, sipping a Black Chocolate Stout.

Ahhhh...

No, I don't drink, but I needed beer so I can pee.  :)

Lovely day.  Can't wait to go camping.  Life is good.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

My Philip Phillips

I am so excited.  I love that Philip won American Idol.  He is so wonderfully different.  You can feel his passion when he is playing.  You can see it on his face.  You can't help but smile when he's singing...

I want to hug him.  Then marry him.  That may be a bit extreme.

I love him.  I wanted to marry him when I first saw him... I knew there was something special in his eyes.

I have to trust someone's eyes.  After all, they are windows to the soul...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XKNoljoX4nM&feature=related

Amazing, right?  He deserved to win.  I want to just talk with him.  I want to know everything about him. And  am so proud that his personality drove him to win.  People fell in love with his good  nature.  Something I thought was dying out in this country, for sure.

Perhaps there is hope. :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11 approaches...

Picnic=Success!

Good morning :)

I had a great time with the fam!

Know the best part?  Me, Jerry and Justin played catch!!!  Imagine such a thing?  Aww... I miss being with my bros :)

Then Jerry threw the ball at me and it hit my neck.  It hurts!  :D

Then we sat around a fire.  I, of course, had to sit in my chair from camp and I was slightly agitated by that.  But, nonetheless, I had fun.

Got to sit and talk with Vinny's fiance a little.  Got to talk to her little boy.  He's crazy... but was entertaining.  See, the great thing is that kids are good for a little while, but then they get to go home.  That is the beauty of not having kids.  You get to leave when you want to!

Vicki and I were discussing that.  She said the same thing.  We all came to the conclusion that neither myself nor my brothers will have kids.  That's fine with me right now.  We all have that same mindset that people just pop out kids for something to do and for the wrong reasons.  I can't stand it anymore.  Then all they do is bitch about them.  But honestly, I can't picture us having kids.  I told my dad he'll have to settle for dogs and not grandkids :)

We were discussing tattoos and that was a funny topic.  My brother went on a rant about all the idiot people who just get tribal and have no idea what it means.  I just gave my brother that funny smile I give him and he knew what I was smiling about.  He knew I was smiling because mike had tribal.  And it means nothing.  And it wasn't done nicely.  I could have done better tattoos.  But seriously!  Like he said, what the hell does it mean?!?  You just get it because it's tribal?  Screw that.

Why not use half a brain and get something significant to you? pfffft.

I will get my 11:11 done on my neck.  I'm just hoping my brother's friend Phil can do it.  He's amazing.

I had chicken and a hotdog and macaroni salad and fruit salad!  Super excited.  I ate light.  :)

But really.  I hate very little of each.  I tried  paying attention to when I was full.  Must lose weight.  Must be awesome.

So.  Family get-together equals success.

I am looking forward to the next one :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Picnic 10 Hours and Counting!

Good morning!

I think I'm being followed.

Flattering, but, rather creepy.  Help me.

My dad put in my air conditioner so I don't die!  Super excited about this.

I was at work earlier, or yesterday, whatever day that was, they all mesh... anyways.

Um.

OH!

So I was at work, and me and my one of my fellow co-workers were talking about that lemonade/iced tea drink... with that dudes picture on it.  She started to say "nobody else thinks that it"  and I jumped in and said "Looks like George Bush!"

She got so excited and said 'YES!  See?  This is why I love you!"

Hahaha.  It's true though, nobody else seems to think so.  I swear they just took a pic of George and put if on there.  I swear it.  At least I'm not the only one who thinks so...

We were all talking about ex boyfriends today.  We were talking about what our men like or liked.  I had to mention mike and his ab obsession.  So the one says "EW.  I HATE that.  Girls should NOT have like, those lines!  It's not pretty!"

I laughed and said "That's exactly how he said it too.  He likes the lines"

Haahahaha.  Then they always ask when I'm talking about exes if this is 'Tribal'.  It usually is, as I have millions of stories about him still.

My answer is either Tribal for Mike, First Boyfriend for Dan,  Weight Lifter/Great Body for Chris, or Psycho for David.  When I sum them up like that I feel stupid for having dumb boyfriends.  Pffffft.

Help me!

I must be thin first.  Then I can start finding normal people to date.  Don't worry.  Medicaid might pay for me to be thin.  Cross your fingers!

Although.  Chris wasn't really a boyfriend, just, ya know.  Someone.  With an insanely great body.  I had never been so attracted to somebody that much.  It was pure hormone.  Well.  I guess you need that at least once in your life, huh?  I deserve it don't I?!?

ooh...

His arms.  Oh.  My.  God.  They were like this, my favorite kind:

Yes.  I could not stop staring at him.  I guess I love when the sleeves of the shirt is obviously too tight... and they just... can't be contained.  Woah.

Yes.  I like that.  But I'm not shallow!

 He's the only person I've gone out with who had an amazing body.  So.  I had to soak it up.  Yup.  Lucky Jaime...

I remember how flustered I was when I realized what his shirt said, too...

I couldn't not pay attention to it, so I told him I loved his shirt.  Hehehe...he seemed rather embarassed, rightfully so, but, it was a conversation piece to say that least.

Ah.  Silly dating experiences.  I have a million.  I should write a book.

I will go do that.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Picnic and Phun!

Hello!

We are having a giant family picnic tomorrow!  I think 11 or 12 people will be there!  How exciting.  I want food.  On a grill.  Stat.

I want chicken.

Jerry is bringing ribs.

I want hotdogs.

And hamburgers.

And macaroni salad.

And anything else.

Oh!  And we made a tiramisu cake for Vicki's birthday!  And!  Fresh fruit... cantaloupe and strawberries and kiwi and blueberries and yum yum.

Can't forget the yum yum.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Philip and Pittsburg

Good morning!

My seizure-like things are doing away a little finally.  It only happens a few times a day now.  I am thankful for that.  Makes typing a lot easier :)

I watched American Idol last night and my Philip is still on!!!!  I love the fact that he keeps wearing grey shirts even though people tried to tell him differently.  I admire that.  Someone who isn't bedazzled by the Hollywood thing and fashion.  He is who he is.  :)  I will marry that man.

I will be going to Pittsburg in two weeks with my brother!  We are going to see my older brother and see a ball game!  And go to the bars!  I am so excited!  I will get to see where he lives!  Aww... I love my family.

You know how I had a dream and I posted the meanings?  And one was significant of my struggling with being able to assert myself?  Well.  I'm glad I had that dream.  I had been needing to talk to a girl at work about her behavior and attitude towards customers, but I kept getting all weird about it and putting it off.  Once I realized what that dream was telling me, it gave me all the confidence I needed and I did it!  I pulled her aside, she was very defensive at first but then when I gave her my own history and my personal story of when I first started, her hand came off her hip and her eyes got all dilated like a kitty!  I took a personal approach and it worked!  yay me!

When I went to work early this morning, I got out of my truck and all I could smell was camp.  It hit a memory sensory thing for me, which was camping years ago and it made me sad for a second.  I hate memory smells.  Ugh.

But hey, life goes on :)

I have to go eat cereal now, so I will write more laters!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Period Troubles

Hello!

It is 4:30 am.  I can't sleep.  Sounds weird for me, huh?  Trust me, once I do sleep I'll be out for 15 hours.

I got my period today.  That bothers me.

On the other hand, being my right hand, it's nice to know the bloating and acne are accounted for.

Okay.  I have a serious question.  Rihanna (rhianna?  rianna?) is ugly, is she not?  I've never seen a face that f'ing ugly in a long time.  I can't stand how ridiculously awful she looks.

My eye starts twitching whenever I see a picture of her.  I think perhaps I should see my doctor about that.

He would most likely say I have a case of Rihanna Exposure Trauma.  RET.

I have the RET.  My doctor's advice to me will be to never look directly at her.

She has to put on so much makeup to look presentable.  That bothers me.

You know what?  I wouldn't comment on her facial features if it weren't for her stupidity.  She complains about that dude beating her, gets tons of sympathy, then writes a wrong with Eminem saying how she loves to be abused, and then forgives the ugly fuck who beat her.

*twitch*

I have no sympathy.  I swear to God.  If someone ever hit me?  Oh man.  They'd be going DOWN.  Yup.  No forgiving that act, trust me. pfffffft.

I have much more important things to worry about though.  My family :)

And I've been playing WindWaker as per my brother and I LOVE it!  Ten times better than frickin' Skyward Sword.

Pft.

Anyways.  I think those are all my thoughts so far, and I just saw something on my screen move when it wasn't supposed to, so I guess I'm getting tired, and I will find something fun to write about tomorrow!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Subconscious=open

Hello!

I think through all the meditation and things I've been practicing, I've opened up something that I can't turn off.

I had an extremely vivid dream about me just yelling at mike and not letting him talk.  He kept trying to be nice to me, but I kept screaming at him and yelling and cursing and telling him everything I had ever thought and still do think.

It was awesome!  So perhaps through this meditation I've learned something about myself.  I've learned that the wound is deep.  Deeper than I ever wanted to admit to myself.

I never got to say what I needed to say.

Which, ironically enough, was a song that represents the beginning of his and my relationship.   John Mayer song.  Interesting.  But the context of the song was very different than what it means to me now.  I love the irony in life.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB946nScQLY&feature=related

Hum.  So apparently I need to say what I need to say, huh?

I thought that by trying to make him better through healing, I'd feel better.  Doesn't seem that way.  Seems to make me angrier.  I feel that my talent is better used on someone else less evil.  Hrm.

Well.  I'm going to stick with healing a little while longer.  I'll try to be a nice person.

But.  Something interesting did happen in the dream.  After what seemed like hours of yelling and screaming at him for hurting me, we were in my house lighting candles together.  This morning when I woke up, The X Files was on, and on the screen was a room lit with candles.  Scarily enough, it was an episode about the Devil.  ?????  I freak myself out.

Let's see what candles represent:

Candle 
To see a burning candle in your dream signifies that good luck and hope will be coming your way in small and steady amounts. You are in a comfortable stage in your life and may be seeking spiritual enlightenment.�Lit candles are also symbolic of intellect, enlightenment, awareness or the search for truth.


Hm.  I guess that makes sense, enlightenment and awareness are certainly becoming a part of my life now and I will always search for the truth.   And, oddly enough, what words show at the beginning of every X Files episode?   "The truth is out there"


Love always,


Jaime Lee
11:11

Dreams everywhere!

Hello!

It is 4:09 am!  I just woke up at 7:30 pm.  What's wrong with me?

Hehe.  Silly question.

I had a weird dream.  Involved luggage, being forced to go camping with Mike and not wanting to, and once we got there there was a house starting to be built but not finished.  Like just the foundation was there.  and a limo.  And I apparently weighed 280 pounds.  Woah.

Hehe.  Let's see what these things mean...

Luggage:

The size or weight of the luggage parallels the demands you are facing. You need to reduce your desires and problems in order to alleviate the pressure you are putting on yourself. Perhaps you feel that you are being held back by past emotions or issues. Alternatively, luggage symbolizes your identity and sense of security.�

INteresting.  Being that the luggage part was right before being FORCED to go camping with an ex, that could have to do with being held back by past emotions.  Ahh.  Silly subconscious!


Camping 

To dream that you are camping indicates a need for relaxation and a long-deserved break.You need to be more in touch with nature and go back to a more basic and simpler life. Alternatively, it refers to your social circle and support group. You are looking for a sense of belonging, but at the same time be self-sufficient and independent.�

Hrm.  I have no social circle.  Maybe that's the problem in my brain?  Nah.  I don't want friends.  Or boyfriends.  In general, I want nothing to do with people that can hurt me.  


Obese 

To dream that you are obese denotes overindulgence. You feel helplessness in expressing your power and authority. By dreaming that you are obese, you are trying to insulate yourself from your surroundings and protect yourself from involvement in the situation. Alternatively, the dream may just be a reflection of your waking weight or dieting issues. You have an skewed perception of your own image which may stem from low self-esteem.

Foundation 

To see the foundation of a building represents your belief system. You are well-prepared for any situation before you.

 Limousine 

To see a limousine in your dream indicates that you have an exaggerated sense of self-worth and self-importance. You may also feel the need to show off and impress others. Furthermore, if the limousine is black, then it suggests that your are unwilling to make any changes or yield to others. Alternatively, it may symbolize prestige, wealth, and power.

Ahhh.  INteresting.  So this was purely a dream of my own head problems, huh?

I need to show off?  Psht.  Well.  I do think I'm pretty awesome.  Ah.  Imma limo!!


Fun times.  I think the reason mike was in there is that he represents how my views changed after being with him.  He represents lies to me now, and the feeling of being un-loved I think.  


Not that he matters a hill of beans to me, but, I still feel bad that he made me think he loved me when he did not.


I love dreams!!  


I have to go have more dreams!!


Wish me luck!


Love always,


Jaime Lee
11:11

How awesome am I? Let me count the ways...

Good morning!

It is 5:46 am!  Woah.

I just found all my drawings of Ocarina of Time's characters that I did long long time ago.  I will scan and put them on here.

Why?

To show the world how awesome I am.  People will be saddened that they do not know me and my awesomeness.

They will say "Aww... I wish I knew Jaime and her awesomeness".

And I will be all like "Aww... that's too bad isn't it?  Try harder next time"

I have to go to bed!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
Awesome

Aww.. Locke!  Handsome too.  I'll take one also.  With a large order of chicken fingers.  Oooo!  And honey-mustard sauce.  And!  Barbecue!  With fries.  And!  A chocolate cake for dessert.

Thank you!

Good morning!

Hello!

I just got home from work... it is 8:12 am.  I worked too many hours.  The last thing I remember was watching American Idol.  It's been a blur.  I need sleep!

So.  My Philip is still on American Idol!  yaaaaay.  He's so cute.  I will adopt him also.

I have to buy some crystal.  I need to meditate with this stuff.

If anyone has a crystal skull for sale, I will take it!!

Input random picture for added interest here:

Ahh... My Squall drawing I did in 1997.  Isn't he handsome?  I will take one please.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11 tired girl

Gun Powder and Lead

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=smADBcfh9o4

I love this song.

I love this girl.

I want to take her home and play dolls with her.

I also want to go hunting.

I'll show you what little girls are made of.

That's right.

Dream

Hello!

It is 4:30 pm and I just woke up but I don't think I'll stay up.  I slept 13 hours!

OH no.

I had a weird dream.  Okay.  First, I've been doing my healing sessions and I hope they are doing some good.  But.  My dream about about Mike and it was extremely vivid.  I'm still disturbed by how it felt so real.  He was here and we were just talking like friends.  I knew in the dream I had not seen him in years, but, it was nice to catch up.  He told me, with tears in his eyes, that he was moving somewhere for a corporate job.  I asked him why he was sad over it.  He didn't answer me but said he was moving to be closer to "Laney".  ?  I asked him who Laney was, and he said "come on, you remember Laney!"

I got mad and said "Mike!  You "didn't have any female friends" when we were going out!"

I did the air quotes thing and a girl from my high school, Joy Dunn was on my bed with me and she laughed at that one.  Mike forgot that I didn't know any of what he was doing behind my back and all of a sudden he was far away on a silo across Sauquoit, I think at Dunrovin Farms on 12.  He had to talk to me from there now.  There were three crows surrounding him.

I'm wondering what the Dun significance is.  Joy Dunn.  Dunrovin.

Hm.... So, he was really sad though.  I felt terrible for him because he obviously didn't want to leave for this job.

Okay.  I'll look up Crows and three.  One moment.

Three 
Three signifies life, vitality, inner strength, completion, imagination, creativity, energy, self-exploration and experience. Three stands for a trilogy, as in the past, present, and future or father, mother, and child or body, mind, and soul, etc.��Dream of the number three may be telling you that the third time is the charm.


Crow 
To see a crow in your dream represents death and the darker aspects of your character. The dream could also be pointing out your annoying habits. Alternatively, the crow may be conveying a message from your subconscious.�


Hmmmmm.  The crow part fits, as my worst habit is jumping to conclusions or being really mean for no reason.  As I did with Mike a lot.  


The three I don't know.  Could have to do with my healing sessions.   I've been very specific with the kind of healing I want for him... but I won't reveal too much about those sessions, as they are between, in a weird way, him and I.  


But it says it could be conveying a message from my subconscious.  That could be part of my  tapes....  George Barnard said I will be more hyper-aware!  Oooo....


Hehehe.  I told my mom about my healing, and she didn't get why I would chose to do something nice for him.  I said I had to let go of some anger and realize that what he did does not reflect on me and I am not a bad person.  She got it.  


I also made her listen to my Akashic Construct tapes and she loved it!  First she got weirded out and couldn't do it anymore, but I made her and she felt so great!  She told me that she felt like she could travel out of her body!!


I was so excited, as that's almost exactly what's supposed to happen.  


I keep giving Mike an object at the end of the session.  I wonder if he knows what it is.


Well.


More to come!


Love always,


Jaime Lee
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GOOMBA!

This is Goomba all grown up!!

Most handsome cat ever.

And Goomba when we first found him...

And Goomba wreaking havoc on my mom's expensive antique rocker...

!!!!!!!

 HI GOOMBA!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Oh!  I cried watching American Idol!  My Skylar is gone... but!  It seems that the people that are voted "American Idol" aren't as good as the people that went home first.

So.  I expect big things for her.  I want to adopt her.  My mom said no.

?

"I see nothing in your eyes, and the more I see the less I like.

Is it over yet, in my head?

I know nothing of your kind, and I won't reveal your evil mind.

Is it over yet? I can't win.

So sacrifice yourself, and let me have what's left.
I know that I can find the fire in your eyes.
I'm going all the way, get away, please.  


You take the breath right out of me.
You left a hole where my heart should be.
You got to fight just to make it through,
'cause I will be the death of you."

Awwww...

Hi!

Aww... I love this picture.  This is me, with my arms around my brother Justin, and my other brother Jerry being all stoic (much like today) at Christmas!

Aww....

I love my family :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee
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