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Hello!
I think through all the meditation and things I've been practicing, I've opened up something that I can't turn off.
I had an extremely vivid dream about me just yelling at mike and not letting him talk. He kept trying to be nice to me, but I kept screaming at him and yelling and cursing and telling him everything I had ever thought and still do think.
It was awesome! So perhaps through this meditation I've learned something about myself. I've learned that the wound is deep. Deeper than I ever wanted to admit to myself.
I never got to say what I needed to say.
Which, ironically enough, was a song that represents the beginning of his and my relationship. John Mayer song. Interesting. But the context of the song was very different than what it means to me now. I love the irony in life.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB946nScQLY&feature=related
Hum. So apparently I need to say what I need to say, huh?
I thought that by trying to make him better through healing, I'd feel better. Doesn't seem that way. Seems to make me angrier. I feel that my talent is better used on someone else less evil. Hrm.
Well. I'm going to stick with healing a little while longer. I'll try to be a nice person.
But. Something interesting did happen in the dream. After what seemed like hours of yelling and screaming at him for hurting me, we were in my house lighting candles together. This morning when I woke up, The X Files was on, and on the screen was a room lit with candles. Scarily enough, it was an episode about the Devil. ????? I freak myself out.
Let's see what candles represent:
Candle
To see a burning candle in your dream signifies that good luck and hope will be coming your way in small and steady amounts. You are in a comfortable stage in your life and may be seeking spiritual enlightenment.�Lit candles are also symbolic of intellect, enlightenment, awareness or the search for truth.
Hm. I guess that makes sense, enlightenment and awareness are certainly becoming a part of my life now and I will always search for the truth. And, oddly enough, what words show at the beginning of every X Files episode? "The truth is out there"
Love always,
Jaime Lee
11:11
I think through all the meditation and things I've been practicing, I've opened up something that I can't turn off.
I had an extremely vivid dream about me just yelling at mike and not letting him talk. He kept trying to be nice to me, but I kept screaming at him and yelling and cursing and telling him everything I had ever thought and still do think.
It was awesome! So perhaps through this meditation I've learned something about myself. I've learned that the wound is deep. Deeper than I ever wanted to admit to myself.
I never got to say what I needed to say.
Which, ironically enough, was a song that represents the beginning of his and my relationship. John Mayer song. Interesting. But the context of the song was very different than what it means to me now. I love the irony in life.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BB946nScQLY&feature=related
Hum. So apparently I need to say what I need to say, huh?
I thought that by trying to make him better through healing, I'd feel better. Doesn't seem that way. Seems to make me angrier. I feel that my talent is better used on someone else less evil. Hrm.
Well. I'm going to stick with healing a little while longer. I'll try to be a nice person.
But. Something interesting did happen in the dream. After what seemed like hours of yelling and screaming at him for hurting me, we were in my house lighting candles together. This morning when I woke up, The X Files was on, and on the screen was a room lit with candles. Scarily enough, it was an episode about the Devil. ????? I freak myself out.
Let's see what candles represent:
Candle
To see a burning candle in your dream signifies that good luck and hope will be coming your way in small and steady amounts. You are in a comfortable stage in your life and may be seeking spiritual enlightenment.�Lit candles are also symbolic of intellect, enlightenment, awareness or the search for truth.
Hm. I guess that makes sense, enlightenment and awareness are certainly becoming a part of my life now and I will always search for the truth. And, oddly enough, what words show at the beginning of every X Files episode? "The truth is out there"
Love always,
Jaime Lee
11:11
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