Super Happy Nom Nom. SHNN.

Hello!

I am super excited.  I got all of my yoga equipment, going the slow route to fit and firm.  Better than none at all, right?

Bought some new super cute clothes to make myself feel better and feel pretty.  They did that for sure.  Decided it's not worth buying cheap clothes at Wal-mart, that's exactly what they look like on you.  So, went the Macy's route, spend a few hundred and got super awesome stuff.  Quality.

Jaime=quality.

Yes.

The girls at work use the phrase nom nom and I love it.  I saw one girl's drawing on our menu out front.    Next to the word "muffins" she wrote "nom nom"

:D



teehee.

That makes me a super happy nom nom.

I keep wondering if mike knows what item I give to him in our healing sessions.  Hm... I wish I could find out.  Then I will have proof that I have powers.  I put it in my cell phone so if anyone ever questions it one day, I can prove it.  Can't wait.
I have to go eat a hot dog.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Smart Car. Dumb Car.

I went to Fly Creek!

I taste-tested lots of things.. I found this amazing buffalo bleu cheese... o. m. g.

teehee.

I was a happy girl today.  My mama wanted me to get away for a little while.. apparently I've been stressed?  Pfffffft.  :D

I can't wait to start doing yoga again.  I felt so much better while I was doing it before.  I keep a pair of jeans that I want to fit into in my closet.  I look at them a lot.  Sometimes makes me sad, but, I'll turn it into motivation.

Yes.

I wonder who reads this.

I wish I knew.  Or why.

OH!

What the hell is going on with these frickin mini cars all over the place?!?  OH MY GOD.  I can't take it anymore.  I laugh at them now, not caring what the person driving it thinks.  If they ran into a bicycle, they'd probably go through the windshield from the impact, and die.  There is no safety.  What are they, all of six feet long?  Pffft.  Not even.  Ridiculous.

Here.  Let's just hurt our eyes and look at it.

There.  Like that.  I see them everywhere now.

How do these people respect themselves?  I swear it's worse than the Honda Element and trust me, I NEVER thought I'd say that.  AND!

It's worse than that Scion box fucker too.

Woah.  Jaime is getting mad.

Let's talk about something else that makes me mad.  

Never mind... Imma tired.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Yoga Girl

Hello!

I will be a yoga girl.  Since I can't run or get sweaty or do ANYTHING I wish to to lose weight, I will do yoga.  As well as eat carrots and celery of course.  That's been going great.  It's super frustrating because all the foods I love are good for me.  I love chicken.  Pork.  Veggies.  Fruits.  Green beans!  oooo watermelon.  Oo!  And appers.  (That's apples, but it's how I say it... appers)

So.  I'm at a loss as to why I can't lose it.  I can lose an initial ten, but after that it's like "Oh wait, no!"

Pfft.  So.  That's why I started running, but then that didn't help and landed me in a hospital wearing a cute gown.

Yoga.  I will try that.  Slow, nice and easy.  No getting body temp up as per neurologist... I will prevail!  I need some carrots.  Oh!  Applesauce!  And once in a blue moon, hot chippeys.  Yes.

Imma hot chippey.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Profesh.

Hello!

I can't feel my legs today, but I think it's due to the long week.  But I will prevail!

I had the best argument with a customer on Saturday.  She said she pre-paid for the giant cake she was picking up.  I asked her details, since we don't accept pre payment.  I was asking her when, where, who, what.  She was like this six foot tall blonde thing that should have lived in California.  She had her hand on her hip the whole time.  I was trying to figure out what happened and was trying to get a piece of information.

She's trying to argue with me, but was texting the whole time.  I offered that the person that ordered the cake was 'all over the place' and was very confused when ordering, then another person came in about an hour later asking if she needed to place the order because she didn't know if the other person did or not.  This lady was just as confused also.  So I told the blonde girl this, offering maybe that's the confusion.

She says (hand on hip, sunglasses STILL on, by the way) "That's not very profesh, is it?"

Um.  I tried holding my tongue, but this sad display from something I regret calling a woman in front of me was being too awful and too GaGa'ish that I could not hold my sharp tongue any longer.

I reply: "Oh, do you mean to say professional?  Profesh? (with a pause)-- is not a word."

OH YES I DID!

She just stood there, mouth open, obviously not able to say anything because I was correct.  It was amazing.

So she says "I don't think you should editorialize things that I say!"

So I laughed.  And it went on from there.

Amazing day.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

What up what up...??

Hello again.

I decided I'd write more after my bitter post a few minutes ago.

I apologize, I'm just tired of getting stepped on by everyone in this world.  I'm a good person.  :(

Anyways.

I was getting gas the other day and I had my hand on my hip while doing so, and this car went by full of gangsta-like people and the one was hanging out of the window shouting "what up what up!" at me.  I don't know what to think of this.

So, apparently by my body language, I was all like, attitudey and confident.  So that means I want to be shouted at like an object?

No.  I don't like being treated like an object.  The only other time I felt like that was when I was with Chris.  I definitely felt like he was only interested in one thing.  And did not respect me.  I had to tell him no several times.  That should not have happened.  Nobody should ever have to be told no even once in that respect.  But three times?  Nah.  He was an idiot.

I had a dream about the love of my life though.  I have a feeling this person exists.  I know it's real.  He's extremely handsome.  Has a cross tattooed on his chest.  But, I figure, even though I don't like tattoos, a cross is a nice thing to have.  I think he was religious of sorts.

Some day my prince will come :)
woha

woah.  Lightening strike in my arm.

It's th ehet don

It's the heat, don't worry.  :)

I have to go now...

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

That's hot.

Hello.  It is too hot out.  I can't see.  :(

The medicaid lady won't call me back.  I tried again today and left anOTHER message.  No call back.  I had to call Medspar people to tell t hem I'm not ignoring the bill and to please not send it to collections.  She told me I have to contact my case worker.  I told her I've been trying my best.

Pft.

Just keep swimming :)

Good morrow.

Morrow?

I think I will go swimming today.  Keep my legs active.  My numbys are almost gone but now my eye is doing this twitchy seizure thing.

I got a couple of bills, totaling $5,000 from when I went to emergency.  Um.  I had insurance.  Somebody messed up.  But the Medicaid lady won't call me back.  I can't pay that.   :(  I wouldn't have gotten the MRI if I knew my insurance wouldn't cover it.  Pffft.

I gave the medicaid lady one more chance to call me back, then I'm writing a letter and sending it certified to make sure they get it.  Then if nobody gets back to me, I'll have to contact Governor Cuomo again.  I hate that I had to do that, but, I was out of options.  His office was very helpful to me though, I am very grateful.

I have to go swim and keep my legs working properly so perhaps I won't be completely disabled this year.  :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Hehehehe.

This was in my inbox today... hehehe

Greetings Jaime, as you requested, we are reminding you of a special occasion:
Daniel B.'s Anniversary
Event Date: Wednesday June 20th

Busy Weekend!

Hello!

This weekend has been crazy busy so far, the business has been thriving.  So many cakes!  yaaaay!

Our party is tomorrow, so excited.  Cook out for Jaime.  Well, actually for my dad and brother and my parents' anniversary.  But you know.

Cook out makes Jaime happy inside.  Chicken.  Sausage and peppers.  Macaroni salad.  Soda.  Beer.  Happiness everywhere.

My mom and I were talking about stuff, and I was talking about how my life changed when this one girl in high school said something mean to me, and I identified that as the defining moment in my life.  It changed everything for a long time.

Then I remembered Mike.  And how I stayed with him even though he was trying to keep me down, tried to keep me not talking and not asking questions and keep me overweight.  I did figure out why, as he was fixing my troubled high school image of myself.  He was thin and tattooed and I never thought I could get someone like that.  And then I did.  But I know his apparent love for me was not real.  He just wanted someone to bully.  I was it.  I hate that I let him bully me just like people in high school.  I can't be that way ever again.

No more.

New Jaime soon to come.

Wait and see...  ;)

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11
Cook-out nom nom.

Hero Mode Getting Harder.

Hello.

I have cramps.  My period came three days late again.  So I'm guessing I now have a 30 day cycle.  Age 27 officially changed my cycle.  Ah well.

I am doing Skyward Sword again and I died trying to beat this bastard.  I have to go try again.  I was just too flustered by being really scared.  I know it.  I'm a better gamer than that.

I can't wait for our party.  Cook out!  Yay!

Okay, I have to go try again.  And eat turkey and apples.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Rainy Day

Good morning everyone!  I wonder who reads this.  Hrm.

It's all rainy out today and it makes me want to go camping.  Isn't that weird?

I am really craving my sausage potato soup I made once, so I think I'll put that on the menu of things for the party next sunday.  This sunday?  It's a Father's Day, Anniversary, Jerry's birthday and Dad's birthday party all in one.  We will have so much fun I can't wait.  I love my family and my extended family.  :)  Couldn't ask for anything more out of life.

I am doing Skyward Sword on Hero mode, maybe I'll feel like a super hero if I beat it.  I just got done with the Ancient Cistern.  Fing place.  Pffft.

So, I am off to do the next part.  It's getting a little tough, as everything takes twice the damage now.  But I will prevail.  I am determined to be awesome.  Yes.

I have to go eat something.  An apple!  I like apples.  nom nom.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Halfmoons and numbys!

Hello everyone!

My numby got better, but then I went on a cleaning rampage and got super hot and numby came back... :(

I guess I can't frickin' do ANYTHING so I'll have to sit and read Holy Blood Holy Grail some more, and learn about Jebus.

Pffft.

But!  Graduation is soon, then maybe we'll go camping!  Yay!  Can't wait.  I have to set up my tent and see if it's still okay, since I haven't done anything with it in.  Um.  Long time.  ?  Eh?  How long?  I can't comprehend how long.  Hang on.  Let's figure this out.  Maybe two years?  Two and a half?  Eh.

My brother and I were making chinese food and he was looking for a non-stick pan.  He found one and I mentioned how that used to be Mike's.  He laughed and asked why I had it, and I said he got to keep my computer, so I got his pots and pans.  It was the least I could do.  Well.  Actually it was not intentional, but, I didn't go out of my way to get them back to him.  He was bad.

I put on my relation tapes for my mom and the guy got talking about healing people.  I mentioned how I was trying to heal Mike, since it's the only way I think I can be not so mad and bitter towards him.  She thought that was a great idea, she told me to just say a prayer for him and let it go.  I agree.  So I hope I'm helping him become a better person.  It still bothers me that he was so bad to me, but, it's in God's hands now.  He has to find his own way.  I still wonder if he knows what item I keep giving him in our healing sessions.  Hrm.  But.  I hope my advice to him in my alpha state will help.  After all, I'm not a bad person.    He's just a very confused man.  He keeps running from things.  Sooner or later he will have to figure out why and what he's running from.  I have the answer, but, he'll have to figure that out though hard work and soul searching.

I ate a halfmoon today.  I know it's bad, but, I needed chocolate.  Not my fault!

But no worries, my carrots are still here!

Nom nom.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Eating Light!

Hello!

I have been eating light and people have been saying my shape is changing drastically.  I apparently have a smaller shelf.  :D

Heheh.  They said I lose weight all over, which I guess is a good thing.

Check this out... I've been doing this for like over a week or two.  For lunch I have carrots and celery sticks and an apple and grapes.  Then if I'm more hungry I'll add in some kind of protein.  nom nom.

And I love vegetables.  So this isn't hard.  And I drink Propel Water.  Extra nom nom.

Then I usually eat a normal (but reasonably less) dinner.  I also do allow myself dark chocolate.  I love dark chocolate.  And anything spicy.  So.  We'll see if this helps.

And I'm sure it won't throw me into a relapse like running does.  Pfffft.

I made my brother finally play Skyward Sword. He's coming to the same conclusions as I did.  And he's trying to be very fair.  Yay.  I'm right.

I will be pretty.  I'll show anybody who has ever made fun of me or made me feel bad about myself.. I'll show them what Jaime is made of.  For all you Dawns and Mikes and Christinas out there who changed how I viewed myself.  I will show you.  I am awesome.  You'll see.

Yeah.

nom nom time.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Taco Paradise. TP.

I am in Taco Paradise.

TP

That is also the same abbreviations for Twilight Princess.

Which I played while eating tacos.

Wooooah what are the chaaaances?

:D

Taco Paradise=nom nom.

The picture says it all.  And I dripped hot sauce all over.

Yay for Taco Paradise.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11 nom nom

Twilight Princess=nom nom

Hello!

I am about to play Twilight Princess.  I have the house to myself.  I am in paradise.  No boyfriends to bother me.  No friend to nag me.  No nothing.  I love it.  Me, myself, and I.

I am about to do the water temple.  Or Lakebed Temple rather.  Tell me this isn't an awesome song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MztvE3njT7w

It is awesome.  Then I will look for a replacement for a girl at work.  I think she is running her own cake business through us.  Stealing our cake business.  I swear it.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Imma sad nom nom.

Good morrow!

My numby is a little better.

My neurologist called back and he told me that it's most likely the heat lately that is causing this.  So, once it cools off I should feel relief.  And if I don't, I have to call him if it ascends and he'll consider steroid treatment.  I hope I don't have to.  :(

Imma sad nom nom.

Hehehehheh.

I made myself giggle.

Then he told me it'll probably worsen once I get my period.  pffffft.  I don't want that either.

Anyways.  I think I have to go to bed.

Yes.

Nom nom has to go sleepy.  That is my new name.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Meteors?

I had a dream that a meteor landed right next to our house in the field... we almost died.

Oh noes.  Was it a meteor or an asteroid?  Hum.

What does that mean?!?

Asteroid 
To see an asteroid in your dream represents a spiritual message from above. You are about to be enlightened with some knowledge. Alternatively, it signifies a brainstorming of ideas and thoughts. If the asteroid hits the earth, then it indicates that your idealistic notions are deteriorating or being shattered apart.

Meteor 
To see a meteor in your dream suggests that you will experience success in a project. You are on your way toward realizing your goals and desires. Alternatively, the meteor refers to wishful thinking and idealistic thoughts.�

To see a meteor shower in your dream signifies romantic thoughts and idealistic notions.

Hrm.  

What was it?!?

I don't know.  It was huge.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Bakery Banter

Hello!

My foot is staying at its current annoying state.  Let's hope it does not get worse!  Imma good person!

We (the girls and I, teehee) were talking about boyfriends and liars and of course this  led to the topic of Mike again, and how he started bringing a girl to and from work and then told me he'd let her stay with him.  Hehehe.  I love the response from women whenever I tell that story.  It's amusing.

She told me that she is going to find me a good guy, since I only seem to find assholes.  hehe.  She said she'll find a good one at the zoo wine event.  Hehe.

But I realized that I am grateful for that relationship in that I learned how to tell what liars are and what they say.  I did learn a lot.

Once day my prince will come.  He'll be super sexy too.  And ride a bike.  And have dark hair.  And nice forearms.

Nah.  Can't be picky.  Silly Jaime!

I have baby carrots and I can't wait to munch-a-munch.

Teehee.

I also like Crunch N'Munch stuff.  But, I call it Crunchamunch.

:D

I have to go eat stuff!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11