Detox
Hello!
I have decided to do a lot of mellowing-out. I figure relaxing and de-stressing will help my current ms-related want-to-die feelings :)
Nope, I'm not complaining though :)
I actually think this is a good thing, the fact that the ms keeps me needing to be less-stressed. Stress is bad for all sorts of things, not just ms. So, in my want to not want to feel like dying or sleeping without end, it'll be good in the long run, huh?
What has me stressed you all ask?
I think it's work. The fact that my dad works so damn hard and it's just us, just family running this, it kills me when employees act like prissy bitches. Jeopardizing our customers. Making people call and tell me they will never come back because of how they were treated.
I know I can't save the world, but I don't ask a lot of these girls. I ask that they show up, on time, put donuts out, and take care of customers with a friendly smile on their Fing faces. Half of them can't smile. I'm tired of it. I'm about to go Robert Irvine on them.
Just watch me. I'm at that point again! Don't dare me. I'll do it. I'll do it.
Yes. I will.
So! How has my life been, you ask? Just dandy. Working, or attempting to work at least, make whatever money I can to put away to save up for a house. Working on upping my credit score above what it is now (740 or something close to that), thinking I might take out a loan for something to have some diversity in my credit history to up my score even more. Being with my family has been fun, though now that Jerry lives around here again, we have hardly seen him :(
Life is ultra good besides the small hick-ups in life. We are remodeling the bakery, time for a change :)
Working all week long, no breaks, but seeing the end results make me feel super good. My dad will never stop working, and I admire that so much.
Someone told me they saw Mike the other day. That bothered me. I still can't believe it's been.... however many years since I last saw him! Um. Wait. Let me figure this out. Yes, I will type what I am thinking. Okay, he was with his ex wife for a short while, him and I broke up before Christmas, but what year? 2010? What? Um. Wait. 2009. No. Wait.
Waaaaaait. Let me check something!
...................one moment please..................
End of 2010! Woooooooooah! Cool beans. I was thinking about all of that drama the other night, probably because I was texting with his ex wife (awkward.... ) and I honestly cannot recall what we did, besides camping, that made me happy. What else did we do? How did we occupy our time? I honestly, 100% can't figure it out. We camped in the summer. What the hell else did we do? I know he must have cheated on me, but, that couldn't have taken up THAT much time. It's interesting though. The people you meet, and the impact they each make on your life. The relationship that had the biggest impact was, of course, mike. Being lied to and deceived has this weird affect. Certainly lost my faith in long-term relationships because of him. I can never see myself getting married, trusting another man? HELL no. Maybe when I'm 40 I'll try for it.
But I have to say, this no boyfriend thing? AMAZING! It seriously has refreshed my soul in a way. I know who I am, what I want, what is important to me, and I can focus on that now. When I see couples together, even my brother and his girlfriend bickering and stuff, I know how much I don't miss that. I don't even miss the intimacy part, both physical or emotional. I guess I have detached myself quite effectively! Score one for Nom Nom!
It's not on my list of priorities anymore. Who needs someone else? For what purpose? My goals for the next five years are as follows: Save up $20,000 for a nice meaty down-payment on my house, GET my house, trade in my car for something newer, get a female german shepherd to guard my house, possibly take Goomba with me, or get a cute little black cat, female, so I can remember Little One :) And live happily ever after.
If a man happens to fit somewhere in there and can prove himself to me, let me see his phone, then perhaps!
I love my life :)
Love always,
Jaime Lee
11:11
I have decided to do a lot of mellowing-out. I figure relaxing and de-stressing will help my current ms-related want-to-die feelings :)
Nope, I'm not complaining though :)
I actually think this is a good thing, the fact that the ms keeps me needing to be less-stressed. Stress is bad for all sorts of things, not just ms. So, in my want to not want to feel like dying or sleeping without end, it'll be good in the long run, huh?
What has me stressed you all ask?
I think it's work. The fact that my dad works so damn hard and it's just us, just family running this, it kills me when employees act like prissy bitches. Jeopardizing our customers. Making people call and tell me they will never come back because of how they were treated.
I know I can't save the world, but I don't ask a lot of these girls. I ask that they show up, on time, put donuts out, and take care of customers with a friendly smile on their Fing faces. Half of them can't smile. I'm tired of it. I'm about to go Robert Irvine on them.
Just watch me. I'm at that point again! Don't dare me. I'll do it. I'll do it.
Yes. I will.
So! How has my life been, you ask? Just dandy. Working, or attempting to work at least, make whatever money I can to put away to save up for a house. Working on upping my credit score above what it is now (740 or something close to that), thinking I might take out a loan for something to have some diversity in my credit history to up my score even more. Being with my family has been fun, though now that Jerry lives around here again, we have hardly seen him :(
Life is ultra good besides the small hick-ups in life. We are remodeling the bakery, time for a change :)
Working all week long, no breaks, but seeing the end results make me feel super good. My dad will never stop working, and I admire that so much.
Someone told me they saw Mike the other day. That bothered me. I still can't believe it's been.... however many years since I last saw him! Um. Wait. Let me figure this out. Yes, I will type what I am thinking. Okay, he was with his ex wife for a short while, him and I broke up before Christmas, but what year? 2010? What? Um. Wait. 2009. No. Wait.
Waaaaaait. Let me check something!
...................one moment please..................
End of 2010! Woooooooooah! Cool beans. I was thinking about all of that drama the other night, probably because I was texting with his ex wife (awkward.... ) and I honestly cannot recall what we did, besides camping, that made me happy. What else did we do? How did we occupy our time? I honestly, 100% can't figure it out. We camped in the summer. What the hell else did we do? I know he must have cheated on me, but, that couldn't have taken up THAT much time. It's interesting though. The people you meet, and the impact they each make on your life. The relationship that had the biggest impact was, of course, mike. Being lied to and deceived has this weird affect. Certainly lost my faith in long-term relationships because of him. I can never see myself getting married, trusting another man? HELL no. Maybe when I'm 40 I'll try for it.
But I have to say, this no boyfriend thing? AMAZING! It seriously has refreshed my soul in a way. I know who I am, what I want, what is important to me, and I can focus on that now. When I see couples together, even my brother and his girlfriend bickering and stuff, I know how much I don't miss that. I don't even miss the intimacy part, both physical or emotional. I guess I have detached myself quite effectively! Score one for Nom Nom!
It's not on my list of priorities anymore. Who needs someone else? For what purpose? My goals for the next five years are as follows: Save up $20,000 for a nice meaty down-payment on my house, GET my house, trade in my car for something newer, get a female german shepherd to guard my house, possibly take Goomba with me, or get a cute little black cat, female, so I can remember Little One :) And live happily ever after.
If a man happens to fit somewhere in there and can prove himself to me, let me see his phone, then perhaps!
I love my life :)
Love always,
Jaime Lee
11:11
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