Nom Nom Tries Her Best :)

Hello!  My last post was downer-ish.  I'm sorry :(

I worked 4 hours today and I feel like dying.  My eyesight went again, everything is fuzzy, I fall asleep sitting up, and I feel sad :(

But!  I am trying to be pro-active.  I am saving roughly $700/year with Republic Wireless, thank the LORD I found them.  I got an app to earn me some money every time I turn on my phone.  It says most people make about $10/month.  I figure that will help.  I paid rent for the first time in nine months.  I feel like a sad nom nom.

But I am still hoping for the best!  I have my vision set on a house one day.  With a well.  And.  Maybe a dog.  Can I afford a dog?

Stay positive and be happy!  That is my new regiment.  That and yoga again.  Since I tried WiiFit again and got dizzy after five minutes.  Which then made me sad.  Since I used to spend an hour and a half with the Wii Fit.  Funness.  And running.  And yoging.

I will prevail, yes I can!!!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Sad Face

Hello....

My steroids are wearing off :)  But I'm still tired and the wall came at me.  What do I mean by this, you ask?  I was standing in front of a wall, and it looked like it was coming towards me really fast, so I fell backwards.  It was not coming towards me.

:(  I am tired.  Steroids didn't help my tired.  I got all of eight hours last week.  Yes.  I will have my little home in no time now... :(

Ha.  Well.  The inevitable might have to happen.  I might have to ask for help.  I don't want to.  I don't like it.

But!  Maybe my house will have to be smaller than I thought.  But!  Hm.  I'll need to heat this house.  How?  I can't make money.  Lady at work thought I was crazy when I said I sleep for 15 hours at a time if I'm not dragged out of bed.  And the answer I get from neurologists?  A shrug.

Ah yes.  The shrug.  I've gotten that one for ten years now.  When the ONLY thing I consistently complain about is fatigue, I get a shrug.  Yes, I could be moaning about a lot of things, especially now, but I DON'T.  I don't like to complain, I think having a positive attitude can get me through it, and there are always people out there worse off than me.  But I only ask for help with this one thing, since it's a major factor in my money going bye-bye.

Okay, I have to go now...

Tomorrow will be a better day...

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Coming down off the steroid train once more...

hllo!

No.  Hello.

I hate steroids.  They make me feel like dying.  :(  Nom nom no likey.  My heart rate was 48.  Woah.

But!  I hope to get back to work, since I had a whole week off, spent it wanting to die.  Need to go back to work :(

I will input pictures.  Prehaps!  Know?  As a wary old.

 Um.  Yes.  Look at yummy cake.  OoooOooooo yummy caaaake.

 I have been eating everything.  I ordered a 12 pack of spaghettios because I just realized how yummy I think they are.  Those cute mushy little meatballs of love.  Yup.

I have no other thoughts in my brain.

My mama got me him in the hospital!  :)  I love him.  His name will be Pengowl.  Because we first thought he was a penguin.  But.  He's not.  He's a white owl.  He is Pengowl.  Of the Pengowlian Tribe of South Africa.  Yup.

Riding the Steroid Train Once More!

Hello!

I got my MRI results back, and I have a new lesion :(  BUT!  It's all okay, I'll be okay... I still sleep a lot and my eyesight is a little blurry and my fingertips are numby, but, I have my family :)

I have to go to an infusion center again, but they aren't letting me go to the one ten minutes from here, they are making me go to Bassett.  Don't want to.  Too far away to drive to three days in a row.  But.  Ya know.  Pfffft.  The only good thing, is I like Cooperstown a lot.  Very pretty.  So I suppose if I have to sit there and get pumped full of steroids, I might as well be in a nice environment.

I am tired.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11