Tee Hee!: July 2014

Back on Copaxone!

Hello!

My neuro put me back on Copaxone! Because he LISTENED to me! He said Copaxone is just as good in the trials as the other ones! WOOHOO! No more side effects...

He did tell me that the reason he sent me to Albany Specialty Man was because I did have new lesions that he was worried about... and even if I don't have glaring symptoms, it isn't good. So he said I'll have an MRI in October and see how Copaxone is doing... I am happy though. And I think if I focus my energy, I'll get rid of those lesions all on my own. I have the power :)

My neuro wanted to have some blood-work done to make sure my liver is okay before starting my med, and so I went downstairs and apparently flirted with the cute blood-taker man. He had a pony tail. I got some info. He's a farmer. And he cuts meat. And that is why he is not bothered by sticking people with needles. Yes, we had a nice conversation. He asked me where I work. He was nice. And nice eyes. And a good all--around nice blood-taker man. I like friendly people. I have this uncanny ability to read people instantly. He is a good person! Yes, I really do know this.

I love Cooperstown. I want to be there all the time. There or Otter Lake. Or Delta Lake. Or. Somewhere with a lake. Yes. That is my hope.

But for now, I will focus on feeling better! YAAAAY!

I think I will play Mario.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Starseed Soul

Hello again!

I hired three people this week. I am exhausted. Oh my god.

They are all normal looking. And nice. And friendly. Jebus. That only took TEN YEARS. Pffft.

So, this process apparently took too much out of me (which is quite sad), because my eye is all blurry again and I'm super tired.

I got all excited today, thinking now my summer can start, only to quickly realize it's almost over. :( Sad face. But.. I suppose I'll go camping NEXT YEAR. Holy hell. I keep saying that. It's been so long :( Wonder if my tent is still alright! Hrm. Someone needs to help me with the math in figuring out how long it's been since mike and I broke up, so I can figure out how long the tent has been in my cellar. Why can't I figure it out? Okay. 2011? 2012? No. What? Hold on. What year is it? 2014. Okay. Hold on. I need to go back in my archives. Jebus.

Okay! December of 2010! Holy Lord! See also: http://www.iusedtobeanalligator.blogspot.com/2010_12_01_archive.html

Okay, so that tent is like, three or more years old! Is it dead? Noooooo! Okay, next option then, I am going to focus on a house again. How do I do that with no money? Excellent question. I do not have an answer to that one. But I have been reading a lot on how water has memories. And you can affect water through your words. Which I totally believe. You need to stay positive!

Okay, so my birthday is coming up innnnn two months. YES! I will be the big 3-0. I realized most of the people I went to high school with are on their third and fourth children. And I also realized how I do not envy them. I love my life, despite the health issues. Even though my world is smaller than I thought it would be, I still have my family. I am grateful for that :) I do like my own company. I know that sounds bad. But I do, and I always have since I was young. I realize my quest on this earth is to be okay with who I truly am. Since I was young, I always felt different and special in some way. I knew I did not fit in. But now I'm realizing there is a divine purpose to it all, and I'm okay with myself now, more than ever. Content in mind and body. My weight does not bother me like it used to. It's almost a non-issue. I came across a powerful video and it made me cry, realizing that I cannot change who I was destined to be, and who I always knew I was. I get it now. And I'm happy :)

All of these are me, Imma starseed.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xlg9J-MLy1E

Yeah, that's me alright. And I'm happy :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Copaxone... I miss you!

Hello.

I see my neurologist on Thursday! No, not the one in Albany, but my favorite one at Bassett. I need to inform him I stopped taking Aubagio. I am tired of losing my hair and feeling nauseous and itching my arms and making them bleeds. :(

SO. I want to go back on Copaxone. Yes I know. It's an injection again. But I miss it now :( AND! I just found out!!!! They have approved a three times a week higher dose!!!!!!

Yay me.

Maybe I'll go to a seminar! August 13th! Holiday Inn! Dr. Daniel Bandari! hrm. Maybe he's nicer than Harvard Doc.

What else?

mmmm.... OH! I love playing Jurassic Park Builder on my phone. I am officially obsessed. Oh my god. I made dinosaurs!!!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Wedding! Cakes!

Bar area.

Hello!

The bar area with a sliding glass door too... oh my god. The guy that owns this is redoing this area, so it will be awesome next year... when we come back... and I will kayak. Or own one by then.

I need someone to go camping with. Oh my god.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Ducks and fire pits.

Hello!

First, you HAVE to play this while reading:

You have to: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DdgEIRBsTaU

I just had the best time. We rented a camp. I love it. This will be our official camp every year. Oh my god. I am so happy. There were two decks. One up, one down. Down there was a bar area. And kayaks. And a fire pit. Oh my god. A brand new kitchen. Pretty bedrooms. Big TV. Keurig (yuck). We had hamburgers. And steak. And pizza and grilled chicken wings, and yum. And ice cream. And staying up until 3 am playing Mario Kart.

Oh my god. I love it.

I am happy. The end.

Jaime Lee
11:11

Puke Logs

Well Ello Ello!

I was doing laundry. And somehow.... bad boyfriend's bathing suit shorts got there again. So. Why do I keep washing them? I know Justin will wear them. But. It's weird! They keep making an appearance every few months somehow. Straaaange.

I started taking my medication again. And I want to throw up. Again. And my left eye is starting to get blurry. Again.

I don't want steroids again. Again...

I saw a little black kitty in the yard tonight...heheheheh! Little One Incarnate!!! It looked exactly like her! I want to keep her! She will be mine! I will hold her and squeeze her!!!!

I got an email from match. But I have to pay to read it. Nope. I don't care that much, sorry. Dun dun DUN.

OH! I thought of something in regards to the last post. In reference to mike. How I used to get frustrated that I could not help him. I thought of a way to express how I felt:

Start at 2:30 and wait for Phoebe.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n-r7XX5jugY

Yup. *head explodes*

Hahahahaha. I'm funny. So is Phoebe. I love her :)

I have to go see if Goomba puked piles all over my rug again. You should have seen him. He puked out a log about 12 inches long. All cat food. Undigested. With a titch of white globs.

Why??

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Suspicious!

Hello!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0NIIRGPuTx8 You must listen to the music I put on here. You just have to!

When I ordered my pizza, I had already paid online with a credit card. When he delivered, he asked if I had my credit card so he could verify the last four digits... then he used a paper thing and scratch-copied some of the numbers.. he said it's how he's supposed to do it. Now, what if someone else ordered it? I think I should check my account ASAP. Hrm.

Pictures!

Mmmmm pretty cupppies! Look at the pretty balls.

Ok, I got a 'wink' from a guy on Match. He is cute. But, I don't want a boyfriend. So why do I care if he's cute or not? But. He is. :)

Ok, is this strange: I got a 'thank you' for the wedding cake from a bride whose wedding has not happened yet. It will in two weeks. ?????? I say DERP. It bothers me. A lot.

Someone said the other day that I should contact mike and see if he's changed, because it'd be interesting to know how different he is. To that I said:

What, ahhhh what?!? Ha. Long story as to why he was brought up. But they bring up an interesting topic. I have always said I believe that people can change. I suppose in my good-natured way, it would be nice to hear that he's changed from a deceptive liar to a nice person. Yeah, I guess that would make me happy. And I always wanted to 'save' him while we dated. I really did. And perhaps that was wrong, but, I wanted to be the change in his life. I like helping people. So I think that is was disappointed me the most, is that I couldn't save him.

I remember having a timeline in my head, after we broke up and after he popped back in five months later (which was waaaay too early as the wound was still raw, bad timing on his part), that I'd actually like to know how he is at about a 3-year mark. Hm. How long has it been? Jebus, I can't recall.

And I suppose that's a good thing, the fact that I eventually realized I forgave him and don't think harshly of him anymore, after all, he is the victim of his circumstances. Wow, I've grown!

Hooray nom nom!

Contemplating? Prehaps! Does anyone wonder why I keep saying prehaps? Okay, I'll show you why.

http://www.homestarrunner.com/sbemail43.html

Love it!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Pictures? Prehaps! Know?

Hello again. Yes, it is 1:46 am. No, I don't like it. Yes, I like pizza from Dominoes. Does that make me a bad person? Yes. As a matter of fact it does. Good job.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qKotEx8TWZc

Ok, it's ONLY because it's easy to order from my GeniusPhone Miss MotoX. I don't have to talk to anybody and it gives me this fun status bar of when it's in the oven and when it's on its way. I love it. It takes all of 20 minutes to get pizza. AND since I've been working nights, they are the only pizza place open at 12 or 1am.

That is a cupcake I did. Ha. I did not DO the cupcake. I iced and decorated said cupcake.

I will be calling Bassett to schedule an appointment and tell him I stopped talking my medication because I got tired of throwing up and being nauseous all the time. And I'm tired of losing chunks of hair every morning. I can see my scalp. I don't like it. I don't know if I should go back to good ol' Copaxone or if he'll try another one. I know he's mentioned Tysabri before. That is a once a month infusion. Ugh. I don't wanna go to an infusion center every month. Pfffft. But. I have to do what I have to do.

I am still waiting for summer to start. Seems as if it is having trouble. Especially with all the storms. Now don't get me wrong, I love storms. But I want good camping weather. SOMEONE had better go camping with me at least ONCE this year. I swear. Do I have to pay someone to go camping? Jebus. Hell, I'll call mike, I swear. I'm getting so desperate. WATCH OUT!

That is Tom and Jerry. I almost wrote Ben and Jerry. That freaking thing took like an hour. All the little colors and little details. It was on a 1/4 sheet cake so it was super tricky. But I did it!

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Match?

Hello!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUwkjIXaHEI
Listen to this TP song. Love it. Epic. Want to live in a world where this is playing all the time. Creepy yet comfortable and mysterious.

Yes. I just woke up. Yes. It is 3:59pm. Yes, I went to bed at 2:49am. No, I don't like it. Yes, I like cats.

So. I decided to try to find a friend on Match. I put it very simply that I want a friend. I like camping. And an occasional (teehee) video game. I just want a friend. Who do I get a wink from? A 45 year old man who needs a woman who is very active. Whaaaaaat?

hehe. I'd be a huge disappointment. Not that I'm not awesome. But. Yeah.

If you ever have a chance to eat a Happy Hippo do it. Just. Do it. So. I liked them so much that I ordered a whole case. ?????

Should I tell the Match guy that one?! Hahahahahaha....

Just looking at single people again made me uncomfortable. I can't explain why. It just did. It's not actually something I want. And these people are...scary...eeeeeh....meh.

That leads to the topic of bad boyfriend. While I was so hurt about everything that happened, I can't help remember how we connected, it was seriously other-worldly. I did, at the time, think he must be my soul mate for real. Something I never believed in before, but once we talked on the phone, then met. I was convinced.

So that leads to the topic of soul mates. Is there such a thing? Have you ever met someone that was an instant click, like you had known them, possibly in another world or lifetime? It's interesting to wonder if we all just keep reincarnating or starting over until we get it right.

That leads to the topic of cats. I know that's a stretch, since it doesn't actually lead to the topic of cats, but just go with it. At our house, two black cats always seem to find their way into our garage every five-8 years or so. Always one female, one male, and obviously brother/sister. There was Furball and Shyguy when I was little, and now Goomba and Little One. I do have to say, Furball was exactly like Little One. They had this attitude like 'yeah that's right! uh huh!', and Goomba and Shyguy had a laid-back 'whateeeeever' quality. And Shyguy had 7 toes. And Goomba has an extraordinarily long tail. So, could they be reincarnates? I was so sad when Furball and Shyguy got lost... So in a way, they came back to me :) Now that Little One is gone, I've been hoping she finds her way back to me, too. I miss her. Come back, Little One.

I think I belong in Twilight. Would suit me perfectly don't you think? Yes.

I think Prehaps! I should go play Twilight Princess now. Yes.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Calling all Starseeds...

Hello...

I know I will sound insane, but the past year I've been highly intrigued with the whole 11:11 thing again, that passion seemed to go away for a while. Not go away, but, I think my health took over more-so. So, I've done research and realized that within the 11:11 realm, I think I'm a Starseed.

Yes, it sounds insane but wow is this stuff accurate.

So I took a test. Check THIS out. For those of you who know me, you know this stuff is so true about me...

Your Sacred EARTH Element is Potentially Excessive

If your Sacred Earth element is POTENTIALLY EXCESSIVE, you have a strong desire to bring about big change in the world but how you are going to do or be that is not known to you. You have not found a way to form the grand projects that you are prepared to manifest. Your ideas may seem too far away or too hard to complete. You often feel overwhelmed and your excitement and motivation are prone to lower or die quickly. By the time you are manifesting your project in the real world you have likely either decided that the idea will not work or have become bored with trying to bring the idea into a level of perfection beyond your needs, means and reality.

A person with excessive Earth Element must watch his or her weight, eating habits and sleep schedule. You may find that you are often lethargic. Food can be a great comfort for you and obesity, while not an absolute, is possible with a person with excessive Earth. Meditation usually comes easy to a person heavy in the Sacred Element of Earth. However, a much more beneficial spiritual practice would be a hatha form of yoga or any other standard form of exercise. Family can sometimes be overly important and you may sacrifice true service and the path to reach your highest potential due to attachments to beliefs about family and friends.

You all know I have a tendency to always want to do the right thing...maybe too much for some people's taste. And! It says I must watch my weight... no duh. hehe. And I love yoga. Family is important to me.

Ok, this one too:

You have a fine taste for art and could be an artist. You can see the art in all of life and the dance that is the creation process is something you push yourself to learn more about.

Uh huh. And this one:

You can meditate on specific ideas, events or experiences and plan out with good direction how to go about manifesting them. You have healthy sexual energy with no over need for sexual action. If you are in a relationship, your sex will be powerful and good. You would not likely be one to go about having sex outside of an established relationship. Because you can stabilize your thoughts and keep your attention focused on single projects until there is a positive outcome, you will develop a strong physical body through the conservation of energy of the neurological system to be used in the neurological communications between immune cells, muscular cells and reproductive cells among a few.

Uh huh. Uh huh. And uh huh. And oddly enough, not having a boyfriend for going on two years now, I still don't have the need or desire for sex. Nope. Other things to worry about :)

So, the only thing I'm apparently unbalanced about is Earth.

I need to change it.

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11 Starseed Child

I'm back to talk about Link. Yes, really.

Hello again!

I've decided to write my own opinions on the new Legend of Zelda: Wii U trailer that was just released. Because I am that bored right now. And! People should hear my opinions because I do know what I'm talking about.

So. First off, love love LOVE the art style. It's between the realism/darkness of Twilight Princess (my favorite) and the colors-ish of Skyward Sword (my least favorite). I love it though, they found the sweet spot with an art style. I wonder if they will stick with this. Here, I'll input a picture:

Look at that beautiful land, it already feels so massive in comparison to any of the previous installments, and ten TIMES larger than Skyward Sword. This is a plus for me, as everyone knows my main problem was the linearity of SS, descending into each land from above separated it even more than ever. Anouma stated that everything pictured here would be actually reachable, if you care to travel the distance.

Next is the town (apparently), given all the houses and the workers and goats. It seems as if a town will not be 'treed' in this time, it's just a town not separated by walls of fake tree and stone. Loving it.

Next is the path Link takes on horseback. This looks oddly familiar to Twilight Princess... which excites me. The statuettes look so Mayan and ancient, I'm loving it.

And of course, there is Link himself, which some people are swearing is a girl. I do not see it, nor is it true, as that theory was debunked. Yes, he has a small stature and a ponytail. But that is Link and he is all man. Yes. He is. Look at that expression! Look at his expression! Almost gritting his teeth, you can sense his passion and fury like never before. Their art direction and facial expressions is fantastic. As an artistic person, THIS is what I've been waiting for. A Link with true emotion... true grit.

I also love the fact that he has a bow, not a sword. I hated that it seemed so obvious that Skyward Sword's story was built around a mechanic. I could care less about the motion control of the sword. A game is about the story, and if I have to mash a B button to swing a sword I'll do it.

And then: After he fires his special arrow...

Just look at that face. Look at those EYES! I'm big on eyes, as I personally think you can tell everything from someone's eyes. Look at that fury!! Oh gosh.

I know this will sound bizarre, but I'm almost certain this will become my favorite game, even OVER Twilight Princess. Tall order, huh? But I can tell this open-world, non linear Zelda title will become my obsession in the Holiday of 2015. I will be in my room. Playing this game. Exploring a huge open world. Being a hero. And being in love with Link.

But of course, this is still my favorite song in Twilight Princess, always has been, always will be... aahhh Twilight. I could live in a world with this music playing at all times.... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUwkjIXaHEI

What do you think?

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Link is not a girl!! Stop it! Get it awaaaaay!!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O0np8WU2Znw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cbwq8ev-EXA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=weT8_6nqaCE

Hello! (pick a song, they are all good, although they are both from the dreaded Skyward Sword)

SO. I've been watching and listening people's opinions of the new Zelda: Wii U. I can still BARELY contain my excitement. I'm such an idiot for that, but, it's me :)

I have, however, realized how behind my 'age' I really am in one respect, but not in others. No, I still don't want kids. No, I will don't want a husband. No, I still don't want a boyfriend. Yes, the only 'almost 30' thing I want is my own home with a dog and a cat. That's it!

Everything else? I want to veg out with a new Zelda game, and waiting for it is going to allllmost kill me. Probably since I have less amount of life than ever and sleep all day and feel dead when I am awake, video games are all I have. :) BUT! I am still happy in my own weird way. Yes, I realize how much life has changed in two years in how I feel on a daily basis and I feel like I'm in a nightmare and wish I could wake up and have energy and actually LIVE. But hey. I have my life, and I have my family :) I'll still not complain.

What was my point?

Yes. That how much change occurs in five-year increments. The difference from age 15 to 20. Amazing. Your world is so limiting and you can't see the forest through the trees. Then at 20, you can see past the freaking forest and into that little shack on the other side of the river, with the dog inside. Then 20 to 25? 25 you think you've found yourself finally and think "I can't believe I acted that way when I was 20! What an idiot I was". Brace yourself, there's still room for non-improvement, trust me.
Then 25-30. Holy can of worms everywhere. I've been quite nostalgic lately, realizing I will be 30. Thirty!!! Ten years I'll be 40... boy is that an eye opener. I'm looking back at my life and thoughts and views the past five years. Boy oh boy is it strange. I do feel as though my thirties will be surprisingly greater than any point in my twenties. I feel as though I've grown a lot and even other people notice this. Even strangers seem to appreciate the things I've noticed in the past five years about me. :)

Case in point. I was at the endodontic associate people. I checked in, all nicey nice, they asked if I had dental insurance and I gave a hesitation with a cute sad face and slowly said "nooooo..." They laughed and I sat down. Then I was called in to discuss my Tooth of Despair situation. He first walks in and said "ok, I have to tell you something first.." ?!? Scared me quite a bit, as nobody wants to hear that as they sit in a chair surrounded by sharp pointy tools. Then he said "I was listening to you as you were checking in, and YOU ARE SO SWEET! I was so taken with how polite you were, and the fact that you're in severe pain and at the DENTIST no less!"

Yup, it made my day. I suggested more people take a course on how to treat others, and he said "THAT'S WHAT I WAS JUST SAYING!!!"

So. I am a nice person. um. What was my point?

Hold on.

So! The past five years, wowza! Even though I can't believe five years has gone by... what did I do in those five years? Let's see.... it would be 2009? Wow. That was after Dan, so I think that might have been the age of Mike. When I think back on it, it seems so ancient to me now! Freaky! I think I forgot (or have finally let go) almost everything about that point. Almost like I have forgiven?

Jaime? Forgive? WOW, almost seems impossible. But hey, I said five year increments are amazing, huh? Yup. I would have to agree with my own assessment, I'm completely different now than I was in 2009.

Come on, thirty, I'm waiting! Oh, and Link is a boy. Can't fool me, all these people saying it could be a girl. THAT is not a girl. That is Link. My Link. Forever more.