Gyah

One-finger typing again as usual!  Go me!!

SO!  I am quickly declining in terms of the MS again...I just realized I can't get a break...last year I thought I would start out with a bang and have a better year, since its been several years just waiting for a break.

But...I decided God is really testing my limits as of late.  Everything is going wrong at work, my disease progression is getting ridiculous, my mental health has been very fucked up, I'm so tired that I wish I could just die in my sleep so I don't have to be tired anymore.  

Now, I know this thinking is not like me.  Where is the positive Jaime?  She's being tested, try back later!

Pffft.  But I'm trying, I really am.  I'm just slowly realizing I have to be the squeaky wheel, because I deserve some help or answers.  

Easter is over and I'm so glad.  I need a break from life and adulting... My hands are still numb and weak, since August.  Ten months and its not getting better, it's worse!  Wtf.  My hands and arms are freezing cold now, I can't warm up.  Really?  Hm.  

I know life could be worse.  I really do.  But I need help please :(

I'm gunna hire a new person next week, I think this will make me feel better.  One of my girls is learning decorating!  

Yay.  My family is good, Jerry is getting married this year, so yay!

I have to go, my finger is numb!  

Love always,  

Jaime Lee

11:11