Revelations from my Bed: Stop it brain!!

Hello...I am in my bed of course, one-finger typing.  I need to see a doctor about my extreme mood changes...I did some research and it sounds like PMDD.  eek.  It's awful, I say things I don't want to say, I hurt feelings, I'm mean and mad and gyah.

In my messed-up state of numby numb, I keep getting paranoid that my boyfriend is going to do something to hurt me, even though he never has :( he's an amazing and sweet man, but my brain gets weird during these times and it really scares me now.  Sometimes, I wish God would take me quietly from this Earth...And that's not me.

What is happening?  Help me please.  Doctor?

Love always,

Jaime Lee
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