Back pain of doom...

Hello internet...

I have back pain that only gets worse as the days go on, I was hoping for the opposite... Although beggars can't be choosers..

I got the police report from my accident, and the guys statement is wrong!  He lied about how it happened, he made it seem a lot more innocent than what actually happened.  That bothers me.  :(

The more my spine feels like snapping, the angrier I get.  I understand people make mistakes, but at least he honest about what happened.  And oh, maybe apologize.  Yeah.  I'm still on that point.

😑

Ok, internet void, I must lay on my heating pad!!

Love,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Fail.

I'm failing.  I'm miserable.  I'm sad.

Goodnight, internet void.

Tysabri: Here I come!

Hello... My life is upside-down and I'm all confused, but, I'll live!

I need to remind myself of all I have, not what I don't have.

My back hurts massively, I had an MRI.  Funness.

My neurologist is going to switch me to a more agressive treatment, Tysabri.  I've blogged about this drug before and the scary aspects but I've reached a pivotal point where I know I have to be aggressive with this disease.  Ahhh....Good times.  It's a monthly infusion so I have to go to Cooperstown every month.  Merr.

I'm all overwhelmed lately, so much is changing in Jaime's world now.  I'm so tired :( I'm so tired that I wish I had no responsibilities, and it makes me remember how being single was easier, both physically and emotionally.  I know that sounds bad, but my neurologist understood me and my mom does too.  It sounds so bad.  I love my boyfriend so so much, I just feel like I can't keep up.  Even going out or going to his house is draining, then factor in personal issues with certain people and I just don't have the energy and emotional mindset for it sometimes.  I know I turn angry, I don't mean to be like that.  But I've recently learned I need to be somewhat selfish, I need to for ME.  I can't deal with bullshit anymore.  :/

I wonder if the internet void understands this.  Life is just getting harder.

Goodnight, internet void.

Jaime Lee
11:11