Tee Hee!

Jaime Strikes Again!

2012-01-29T21:16:00.005-05:00

Hello!

So I had a good time on Date #2! Jon is very nice and I like him. He has a great laugh!

Everyone is confused on how I'm juggling. I'm not really, though. I just met two people. Justin said "don't end up like Phoebe!", like that episode of Friends where her two guys find out about each other...

But... I don't have guys... I just... know them...

I am highly attracted to Chris though.. I have to say... and I'm not being shallow, but, I could not stop touching him! He's one of those people who you just want to hug. All the time. But, he didn't seem to mind the touching ;)

But really. There was that instant 'I want to jump on you' thing. Which doesn't happen all the time, you know? Instant attraction. Whether it was just normal attraction or more sexual, either is fine by me. He's insanely nice, which I wasn't actually expecting. Not that I thought he was mean, but, his voice and his body seemed to point towards something else. So I was pleasantly surprised. But do you know what I mean? Muscles tend to go with idiots. Because men with great bodies seem to be more arrogant. But, thankfully he's not.

On my way to go out tonight, I had to stop to get gas. There stood the asian kid that likes me... he stayed in the doorway and made me hug him before going in!!! I was so surprised by this... so I was paying, and he said "You are such a nice lady... you have such a lovely smile... I like you... I really like you..."

!!!!!!! I was totally thrown off by this, but, I've noticed men DO like me when I dress up. Every single time! So, my confidence level is way up now... being in a verbally abusive relationship for so long had me doubting that anyone could find me attractive.

The answer? Yes, of course. I'm a good person.

Then, he went all the way around the counter to open the door for me, too!!! Ended with him saying '... lovely lady'

Awwwwwwwwwwwww.... so sweet.

So. Jaime is awesome. :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Pretty Lady

Side note...

2012-01-28T18:37:00.002-05:00

I just realized something! My 'Hooker boots' always bring me good luck on a first date... I love my boots..

I also realized something else! I think Kelly Clarkson had the same exact experiences as me. I've decided her songs are everything I'm feeling or have felt before.

I like her. I would like to be friends with her.

Aaahhhhhhh...... :)

2012-01-28T15:26:00.002-05:00

So HI!

Had a date last night.... went great....

He is yummy. And nice. And smart. And sweet. And ........has amazing arms.

I just think that's worth mentioning...just because... you know how much I like arms. They tell a lot about a person I think.

But the best part? He wants to see me again!! Yeah. I'm so awesome. He said he wants to take me to Bella Mia, and then maybe to his place to watch a movie! How super cute is that? Why is this important? Because it's been so long. So it feels so weird.

And! I actually have sort of a date tomorrow with someone else!

Hehe... silly Jaime! Look at me! I'm all like... dating people... and it's so fun!

I love getting to know different people. Very interesting!

Wish me luck :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Dating Person

Date! Friday Night!

2012-01-25T17:42:00.002-05:00

Hello! Guess who has a date Friday night?!?

I do I do!!!

His name is Chris... teehee.

Wish me luck. I don't know what will happen, but, we'll see!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Why isn't it mine?

2012-01-25T16:05:00.001-05:00

Ugh.

I was buying music on iTunes...and I was all, like, syncing my ipod, and, it says "Syncing Michael's iPod".

What the fuck.

Michael's iPod? Since when was MY iPod HIS iPod?

Why is it not my name anymore? Why? This is pissing me off. I want to see MY OWN GOD DAMN NAME!

Psht.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Skyward Sword=FINISHED!

2012-01-22T17:59:00.002-05:00

HELLO!

Well... I just beat Skyward Sword! I am awesome...

But I have to say, for the record, I was expecting something fantabulous and epic... I did not find that. I'm glad that they made Zelda this cute little girl with actual emotions. But other than that, I'm still missing something.

Where is it?

I will surely play it again on Hero Mode... but... I need to go online and hear other people's interpretations!

I remember back about 3 years ago, I had a dream that I knew would be significant in my life. I had a dream that the man I'm supposed to be with is in law enforcement. It was also a dream highly cluttered with 11's. I always remembered that dream. When I met Mike, he convinced me that the dream was pointing to him, because he was 'thinking' about being a correctional officer.

My dream was not about those people. I know it. I didn't want to make him feel bad, so I just agreed. But my gut instinct told me the dream pointed elsewhere.

So. I just got the phone number of a person who apparently is in the law enforcement field... maybe?

Wish me luck!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Skyward Sword Beater

Skyward Sword Update...

2012-01-21T20:50:00.002-05:00

I did it!!!! I got the Hylian Shield!!!

How awesome am I?!? I just

Totally freaked myself out trying to

beat all 8 bosses!

But... Jaime prevailed.

As I always do in the end.

Jaime always wins.

Yes. I do.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Awesome Skyward Sword Player

Puking up M&Ms

2012-01-21T17:00:00.003-05:00

Well good evening!

I just puked up M&Ms and that really bothers me... I think because they didn't taste like puke coming up, they tasted just as good as when I first ate them...

My period stopped. Is that weird? It came for a day and went away. Hell, I'd take a 1 day period, huh ladies? Yes ma'am.

The girls at work were discussing boyfriends, and bad boyfriends, and cheating. This of course led to the topic of Tribal, yet again. They asked what he did, and I told them the whole truthful story of how he decided to take a girl to work, then deciding to take her home too. The looks on their faces were of sheer hatred... the one says "Oh. My god! What a DICK!"

Then I got a 'douchebag', and they could not fathom how a man could make such an error in judgment. I laughed though, and said I had repressed a lot of this, but now It's making me angry again! Hey, at least I had a sense of humor.

They all agreed with me and said their boyfriends would never do anything like that and that is so bad to just agree to be carting around a single woman.

Uh huh. Tell me about it.

Then! The one girl says "Is that the one that used to come here to see you?"

And so I said "oh my god, I forgot you were here then! Yes"

So she said "ugh, he was ugly. I'm sorry, but, he was ugly"

And I said "Yeah, I know, he thought he was so hot though. He gets women confused because of the tattoos"

Hehe. So. This is where my blog was going. He's not a good-looking guy, but women just see his tattoos and automatically think he's a stud. This is an amazing thing I've witnessed with women. It's such an interesting phenomenon. Just like when men see a woman with an amazing body, they seem to interpret her face as gorgeous. Even though it's not.

Now. I have a pretty face. And I'm glad for that. Don't have the body, but hey, I can change that. You can't cure ugly!

Love always,

Jaime lee

Pretty 11:11 Midwayer

Just in case you needed a reminder...

Aww... so pretty ;) See what lip-gloss can do?

Kiss my ass, Ghirahim!

2012-01-20T18:40:00.002-05:00

Hehe.... hello everyone...

I totally just kicked Ghirahim's ass... I was scared, only because he turned into a scary, albeit kind of hot, monster thing... as you can see...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHtO9q7s66o

No, that's not me playing... but look at what a studly thing he turns into!! I was shaking, as I only had a few potions left... :( Imma sad face...

But I was kind of turned on by Link's heroic display! He was all like, Fo Shizzle!

I got my period today. I'm upset by that. I really didn't want it today. But at least the zits are accounted for now..

The girls and I were discussing our breast sizes today. Is that what girls do? Apparently... I think I need a guy to talk to about this stuff. I'm sure that'd be fun.

So. I am almost done with my game, and I'm so excited to see how it ends!!!! I'm not sure if I'll start a quest over when I beat it, or start Twilight Princess over. I think that sounds fun... I could go in between both games! Man.

Does anyone care about this stuff? Probably not. Why do I write it? Not quite sure. Something to do. Someone to talk to. My mama is sleeping so I can't discuss games with her now... :)

My brothers and I had an hour-long conversation about Skyward Sword and it was awesome. I'm finally at that age where they take my criticisms and critiques of games seriously! I'm not just their stupid sister! Aww.... But, it's become like a bonding thing with us. And I enjoy every minute of it.

Something is going on with the universe. I can feel it. That's such an odd thing to say isn't it? Yes. It really is. But something is happening. I am experiencing that tugging sensation again and I can't stand it. Makes my heart feel weird. Ack.

Anyway, I'm going to go drink orange juice, and maybe watch some Friends!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 approaches...

Justin's Awesomeness.

2012-01-19T18:48:00.002-05:00

Hello everyone!

I think the cat pee smell is gone! If it wasn't, I don't think I could keep him anymore... hehe. Just kidding. I wuv Goomba...

So, I was searching for things online and came across something that looked familiar to me... one of my ex boyfriends uploaded it and I remember that day vividly and it made me so happy! I forgot how friggin' funny my brother was that night!

We had rented a camp somewhere, and we all spent the weekend and it was super fun... and of course, spending time with Justin is always priceless, as he usually does something very random that is so awesome... (my other brother Jerry is the one in the chair laughing)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVZBNe5vwdo&list=UU74ZTbOH6AqGxD9xegOMBAw&index=12&feature=plcp

It was so unexpected... and I miss that! Aww... Hopefully he will stay home this weekend and we will play games together!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Cat Piss. What the F.

2012-01-18T14:49:00.003-05:00

Hello hello...

Well... I just went up to my room to play a nice round of Skyward Sword and hopefully collect some more dusk relics to upgrade my arrow thingy... and what do I find on my bed? A large puddle of cat piss.

What the F?!

So.... I just did a nice load of laundry.... ya know, if it were dog piss I could handle it better.. cat piss? Deadly. Ugh.

I wonder if that smell will ever totally be gone... so, I think my cat must be stressed about something, since he only ever did something like that once before when he was introduced to another outdoor cat... he also had a UTI when he did that before too...

So, instead of being pissed off (teehee PUN!), I will hope that my cat is alright... as that is not his normal behavior.

So. My dentist is going to be on WKTV at 5:45!!! I have to see him at the end of the month too.. I love him :) He's so kind. So awesome at what he does. Yay Dr. Burns! Why can't I seem to find a neurologist or primary as good as my dentist? Psht.

Ack. I need a shower.

Happy trails!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Preggo!

2012-01-17T09:06:00.003-05:00

Hello!

I had two dreams, two nights in a row... both involving mike and his wife. In the first dream, mike came to the bakery to talk to me, and was pregnant.. ??

Second dream, both he and his wife were at my house having dinner, and she was pregnant. I asked her if she was excited, and she said "...ehh..."

So. Why did I dream about the two of them being pregnant? Let us find out what preggo means in a dream... one moment please!

To dream that someone else is pregnant indicates that you are experiencing a closer connection to this person.

Um.... am I?!? Didn't know that one... now it scares me. Let's find another interpretation that suits it better... one moment!

What does it mean if I dream that someone else is pregnant when they aren't in real life?
"Sometimes, these dreams can be literal and the person indeed turns out to be pregnant," Mead says. "Usually, though, this is a sign that something has been left inside, unexpressed or undone. Something this person once deeply cared about is either coming to the surface for them on an emotional or physical level or is begging to be let out by his or her soul."

That one is better! So! Does that mean one of those idiots should apologize to me? Yes. Yes I do. That'd make sense. Someone owes me an apology.

Okay! I'll take that explanation. Or, what if I am psychic and she really IS preggo! How awesome would I be!! I could document it. Awesome.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Mike, Midna and Madness! Teehee.

2012-01-13T15:50:00.003-05:00

Hello everyone!

I think I've crossed the line into 'gamer chick'. I've finally experienced the painful hand syndrome. Ack. I can barely type because of it. I've been holding my nun chuck wayyyy too long.

It's snowing a lot and I'm super happy!

That damn Kelly Clarkson song, Mister Know It All,keeps playing on the radio. I like it, don't get me wrong, but, the only person I can think of when I hear it, is mike. No, his name is not worth capitalizing. In case you were wondering about my punctuation and grammar...

The girls and myself often talk about guys, boyfriends, ex boyfriends. They now refer to Bad Boyfriend #1 as Tribal. That's his nickname. As I've had millions of horrible stories involving him.

I get asked the same question at the end of my mini-series of horriblness... "Why did you date him again...?"

Honey. I wish I knew. But. I had a dream and I think that dream led to the answer as to why I stayed with him. Yes, dreams help you figure things out. Trust me.

Because he was thin. I was not. My whole high school career flashed before my eyes when I realized he wanted a second date. That's what it was. And how pathetic of me to not realize that. Imma sad face. I never thought a thin person would want to date me.

But. At least I realized something about myself. Which also means I still have an issue that I must deal with. My weight. Self-image.

So, in a weird way, I think that was my destiny with him. To realize this important thing about myself. And change it. Once and for all. We all know what that means.

So! I have a baby shower to go to! And my brother is coming up from Pittsburgh again! Super excited! I love seeing him.. :)

I also just realized what a super huge loser I am, in that I just read this entire article...

http://zelda.wikia.com/wiki/Midna

Problems? Afraid so...

But. I am thrilled to see that perhaps she could re-appear in another game... I would love that. I could die happily.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Lightworker 11:11

Twilight Realm

2012-01-11T15:18:00.004-05:00

I've decided I want to live in the Twilight Realm. I would be completely at peace if I got to hear this music all the time, being surrounded by the little black thingies...

Need an explanation?

I'm referring to Twilight Princess, of course...

But I've decided that's where I belong :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUwkjIXaHEI&feature=related

Okay, so listen to that song, and look at this place, and tell me you DON'T want to live here eternally?

Now come on. Look how beautiful.

I'll be here someday!

This will be a post purely about my gaming obsession. Particularly about The Legend of Zelda. I'm almost done with Skyward Sword. It has grown on me, to be honest. I was not sure how I was going to like it. But, I still miss my Twilight Princess.

I believe that will always be my favorite. As soon as I beat this game, I'm re-starting a quest in Twilight.

Loser? Afraid so.

But, a pretty loser, at least.

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

11:11 and my Ascension.

2012-01-09T20:52:00.004-05:00

Hello there.

Every time I need a sign that I'm on track, I get one...

I was musing about different things in my life the other day, while driving home, a route I don't always take.

That Andy Grammer song was on the radio, the one about keeping your head up... you know.

I didn't change the station.

Just as these lyrics came up,

I start to comprimiseMy life and the purpose.Is it all worth it
I happened to glance at the clock, and it was 11:11.
That was my sign. It is all worth it. I'm doing something right, I'm going in the direction I think I was meant to go. What I was specifically musing about, was if it's right of me to not want a boyfriend right now, at this point in my life.
So, I got my answer...

This happened at another critical juncture in my life, and it happened to be the only other time I lied to my ex (Mike), we had a huge fight and I ran into the field next to my house to try to get away from what I was feeling and how angry I was (as I always was, but chose to ignore the things I knew that were wrong), and he started following me out there. I was crying my eyes out, and as I was running, I asked, prayed, and begged God to give me a clear sign that I should not be with Mike anymore... as that is what I had been feeling the entire length of our relationship... it wasn't right. I looked down. There was a four-leaf clover. I picked it up. I cried more. Mike asked me what was wrong. I lied to him. I told him I asked God for a sign that we should be together.
I know it was wrong. But, I did indeed get a sign that my thought-process was right. I only lacked the power to make that relationship end when I should have.
I have that clover still, put it with the two others I've found in my lifetime.
I will always keep it. It means so much to me. It meant I was answered.
Since Mike, I have been not wanting to be with anyone, as many of my posts show... I felt something change inside of me since dealing with everything from that scarring relationship. Something changed.
I wanted to find out what, and today I found part of my answer as to what happened and what is happening...

10 Common signs and symtoms of the ascension and spiritual awakening of an individual.

Body aches and pains, especially in the neck, shoulder and back. This is the result of intense changes at your DNA level as the "Christ seed" awakens within. This too shall pass.
Feeling of deep inner sadness for no apparent reason.
Crying for no apparent reason
Withdrawal from family relationships.
Unusual sleep patterns.
Intense dreams. These might include war and battle dreams, chase dreams or monster dreamPhysical disorientation. At times you'll feel very ungrounded.
Increased "self talk." You'll find yourself talking to your Self more often
Feelings of loneliness, even when in the company of others. You may feel alone and removed from others. You may feel the desire to "flee" groups and crowds. As Lightworkers, you are walking a sacred and lonely path.
Loss of passion. You may feel totally dis-impassioned, with little or no desire to do anything.
A deep longing to go Home. This is perhaps the most challenging of the conditions. You may experience a deep and over-whelming desire to leave the planet and return to Home.
you have an inner remembrance of what it is like to be on the other side

Now... reading this stuff scared the baJESUS out of me, since all of them are what has been happening to me for a little over a year and a half.
The crying. The sleep patterns, as I hallucinate too, the intense dreams (the Zelda beast!!), wanting to be alone, do nothing.. yup yup and yup. And, the most damning of all, is the fact that every night, when I say my version of 'prayers', and I talk to myself about things going on and my family and things of that nature, I end with talking about how I don't belong in this time. I'm not meant to be here. I don't fit, nor have I ever felt like I fit with this time... I always say to myself, or whoever else is listening up in the heavens, that I feel that my journey is one I must walk alone. I feel it. I know it.
The fact that this checklist is talking about what I feel inside, scares me a lot....
Am I crazy?
Love always,
Jaime Lee11:11 approaches

Idiot Boy

2012-01-09T16:52:00.004-05:00

Ahhh, got rid of one guy!

Ugh. How do seemingly nice people turn into such morons? That Michael character is an idiot. Told him I don't think we should talk anymore.

I think all men are idiots now. His actions just verified it.

Meh, so I was right to be wary of a guy that calls me sexy.

So, where are these nice men? Where ARE they?

I am way too into Skyward Sword to want a boyfriend. My mom finds it funny that I have potential dates all the time, but turn them down because I'm having too much fun doing my own thing.

Hey, I would say "you go girl!!".

Girl power. Rock on.

But seriously. I'll meet someone one day. But I've lost all concern. It's so wonderful... so many women I know just have to have a boyfriend. They can't go two days without being with someone. It's sick. Where did this mentality come from initially?

Why not be in touch with who you are? Where you're going. If a true gentleman happens to come into your world, then yay! If not, then, okay...? Right?

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Lesbian?

2012-01-08T17:12:00.004-05:00

Hi everyone!

I just had the oddest experience of my life.

I was at McDonalds (ugh), and I was ordering. The young lady behind the counter started talking about how she was starving. So we got talking a bit. She was saying how since she gets up so early, she doesn't have time to eat and then it's so hard because she's around food all the time.

She said how happy food makes her, and it warms her soul. I laughed, and agreed with her. Then she said food is good for everything except for your waist line. I laughed again, and thusly agreed, as I know what she means.... We had this weird like, bonding. It was unlike anything else I've ever experienced with another woman. Then she said "I'm such a fatty!" and I chuckled and said "nooo you're not! You're beautiful!"

She blushed and said "awwwww! Thaaaank youuu!"

Was I flirting with a woman?

Is that normal? To tell a complete stranger, that I think she's beautiful?

But she was... her name is Meghan. She has dark hair. And she's pretty!

So why is saying she's beautiful after she just called herself a fatty, wrong?

Is it?

And she wasn't fat either. She was lovely. And sweet. And nice. And friendly.

I told the story to my brother, and I asked him if that's flirting and he laughed a lot and said ".... yeah... you were flirting."

ACK! But see. It's not fair to call it that, I am not a lesbian. I can just appreciate a nice young lady. Contrary to what ex boyfriends may think, I do NOT view all other good-looking women as evil or something. Just because I don't have a dream body, doesn't mean I look at other woman as evil for having something that I don't.

So. Was that weird? To say that?

But! She really liked that I said that! So it all works out... I made her happy...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

??

2012-01-07T20:25:00.001-05:00

Where is my post!?!

Sad face.

2012-01-07T15:00:00.002-05:00

Flying Mother Effer.

2012-01-04T20:36:00.004-05:00

Good evening!

I have a question that I know nobody will answer... but I will ask it just the same...

Is it weird to barely know someone, but they call you 'cutie' and 'sexy' and 'dear'?

I found it somewhat offensive.. but I'm really not sure if I am too sensitive about that...

I mean, sure I like to be called 'sexy', but usually after a substantial amount of time, you know?

But... he's a science teacher... so that's nice. Has a house. A truck. Two big dogs... sounds like a good match for Miss Jaime, right?

But there are just two downfalls... the 'cutie' remarks, and the fact that his name is Michael.

Ack. Why do I keep having this bloody bad luck with names?

Maybe I'll convince him to change his name. Yup. That's what I'll do.

I'm almost near the end of Skyward Sword. My whole vacation, this is what I've been doing... playing video games.

But hey, we all need time to unwind, right? Yes.

I started having heart palpitations when I was doing this one part... it's the thing I had nightmares about... I think I did better than this guy, but...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5BvAOq0vEz8

Ugh... is that not right or what?!

I can't believe I beat it, but, I will forever have nightmares about this thing. I can't get over it. It was terrifying. I was sweating while doing this...

When it started flying, I was like "WTF?!?"

My jaw was actually dropped.

Picture me, all alone, in my room, in my comfy chair, with gummi Lifesavers.... seeing this ugly mother fucker start to fly....

WHAT.

THE.

FUCK?!?

Exactly how I said it too...

But hey! I was awesome...

Now, I also fought this one round ball-on-fire in this game too.. I was so terrified that I stayed up at the top and refused to fight it until my nerves calmed down....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MzcwNBiZVKU

Problems?

I think so...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Scrapper!

2012-01-02T10:24:00.005-05:00

Good morning!

I was up until 1 am playing Skyward Sword, wanting to finish it to see what the story is! I am so so hoping it delivers. If not, I've spent over 53 hours playing a game with no story line.

I am currently at a part with Scrapper, and he's so adORABLE!

I have my voodoo doll resting on something that belonged to the person I want to get even with... YAY! That's what my dollys specialty is... 'getting even when all else fails'.

See, my brother knows me well :) What a nice Christmas gift!

I was thrilled to see this online and it made my heart happy:

Look how cute!!! If I had one wish, I would be her... Just have to loose some weight but look how awesome! She's yawning too!!!

I think I need to get out more..

But then! Would I rather be Midna in her true state?

That's awesome too...

She's so awesome!

But I think I'll take the short version because she's so adorable..

I have run out of thoughts for today... Hmph... rather pointless blog, wouldn'tcha say?

TEEHEE!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 approaches...

Happy New Year Horoscope.

2012-01-01T18:18:00.004-05:00

Happy first of January!

I was reading a Virgo horoscope today, projections for the year 2012.

I was happy to see this!

With Neptune moving back into your partnership sector in February, you'll settle for nothing less than your true soul mate; either that or you'll feel blissfully wedded to your spiritual nature ... or perhaps a little of both! In any case, this is the time of your life to realize how important it is to satisfy the longings of your soul. You've compromised, settled and rationalized trying to make the wrong relationship right for long enough. Now you're willing to wait for the real thing.

Now, this is awesome since I've been 'blissfully happy' being single and being in touch with who I am, instead of worrying about who I am with another man. So this rings true now... And my new year's resolution fits..

I agree also, in that I have compromised and settled, and tried my damn hardest to rationalize trying to make a very wrong relationship right (Mike). So true, right?! After him, my thought process was to wait for the right person, even if that means being single for a while.

So, I am content. And my horoscope says the same. It's okay to be single. Since when has it become a world full of people who can't be without someone? I think about the fact that people rush into getting married and pushing relationships forward, and I don't envy that. Life is too short to do something that major. ugh.

I was intrigued by the next part, only in that it's exactly what happened...

You're slowly becoming accustomed to Pluto's ongoing death-and-rebirth experiences in the realms of love and creative self-expression. You've already shed many selves over the past few years, and Pluto has been gutting out your love life in order to create space for greater levels of passion and intimacy. You may have learned - or you may still be learning - the hard way that the more you let go, the more you receive.

Anybody that knows me, knows this is 100% true to me. And I'm happy to know that what I'm doing is the right thing now.

I'm happy :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 approaches...

Silly Promises!

2012-01-01T00:51:00.003-05:00

I was just going through my phone, deleting old photos...

Came across this one and I laughed out loud...

If you can't read this, it says: "Hi! I love you forever!"

Since I have a photographic memory and can't NOT remember where I was when a certain someone wrote this on the car, I'm forced to always know details.

We were at Adult World (Don't ask). In Syracuse. Hehe. And it's funny, the things we promise on car windshields in snow, isn't it?

Ahhh... silly boy. Don't write it in snow if you can't keep that promise... you can't erase snow!..... oh......

HEHE.

Silly snow-writer...

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Sandship!

2011-12-31T17:08:00.001-05:00

Okay!

I will update my review on Skyward Sword...

It's getting interesting, as I am not on the Sandship. I was fairly quick at bombing the invisible ship in the sea. Alas, here I am.

I am still missing some kind of story line here. I hope it all comes together, because I can see it happening.

I still miss my Twilight like a mother F#cker. I really do. I think I will go play it a while.

Happy almost New Year!

My resolution? Be single, have fun, meet new people, have more fun, work lots, make money, buy a house, not live with a man, get a dog, work more, be happy.

Yup. There it is!

Everything I want. I am glad to see the back-end of 2011 though. It's been tough with the bakery and the buy-out and the robberies and the new freezer.

But we did it! We are family... :)

Will write more on SS when I finish this Ship place!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

I DID IT!

2011-12-28T20:27:00.003-05:00

I beat the Cistern place!!! I almost died.. had to use both my heart potions... but I DID IT! And I didn't even have to ask Justin for help!

How awesome am I?

Super awesome.

I got a Voodoo doll for Christmas... I think I may put this to good use, as I hear they can really work...

I was asked who I would use this on if I had the opportunity...

My answer didn't shock them. So YAY! Let's see if I can do it... beware... don't piss me off.

I think I may have a date for this weekend... I threw caution to the wind.. felt good.

But I don't want anything to go too fast. I don't like rushing. No more!

So... wish me luck!

God I miss this game..

Look how cute Midna is! I mean come on! Look at her! Awesomeness.. pair this picture with this song...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUwkjIXaHEI&feature=related

You've got yourself an awesome game... that you don't want to stop playing.

Okay..

Will write more tomorrow!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Skyward Sword funness?

2011-12-28T14:07:00.003-05:00

So. Hi!

I'm on the fourth dungeon of Skyward Sword. Well, almost done with it actually. Had to return to the sky to get more heart potion before I beat that scary-ass boss. Ugh. I died.. :(

So. Want my review? Probably not, but, here it is anyway.

I honestly still like Twilight Princess better. The music is better. The dark feeling is better.

I like SS for its gameplay with the Wii Motion Plus. Very awesome. But you know what? To me, it's still lacking a good captivating story. I miss the eeriness. I'm so sad :( I think maybe later I'll pop it in to make myself feel better.

So far, I'm seeing so many references to Twilight Princess but so far I don't think they're connected. Or supposed to be. If there is supposed to be no connection, I'm going to be gravely disappointed. If there IS then I'm more happy.

I had a bad dream about that one big freaking scary thing... I woke up sweating!

yes. This thing.

I hear I have to fight it a few more times, too. Not looking forward to that.

But yes, so far, I miss awesome Twilight music. I miss remembering dungeon boss battles. So far, I can't remember what I fought! :(

Well, I'm off to go fight crazy axe wielding thingy in the Cistern place... :(

Wish me luck!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Size Matters?

2011-12-27T16:24:00.002-05:00

Hi!

I am looking forward to the four day vacation!

I was asked out to get drinks the other night... I'm conflicted on whether or not I want to do this, because I like being single. Not that getting a drink with a man makes me not single, but, I don't know how to tell someone I'm not looking for a long term relationship. How do I do that without sounding weird?

Know what I mean though? It sounds bad.. makes it sound like I'm looking for a casual thing... eek.

I got an email that said "she loves it bigger and longer".

I laughed. I said "yes please" in my head. Teehee.

I suppose I shouldn't complain considering who I dated last, but, still. You want to keep those types of people for longer than three months! Hehehe...

I was discussing how awful it is how men are obsessed with their sizes. Why does this matter so much? I mean, you'd think there are more important things in life than size. I do feel bad, because I was asked by one idiot boyfriend if my exes was bigger... I lied and said no. The only lie I ever told him. Always felt bad, but, I don't think he would have wanted the truth, you know?

I mean, I don't lie. Except for that one instance. I didn't want him to feel bad! Is that not good? Probably not. My one bad thing ever. But come on. That's like asking if some other girl has a nicer body than mine. Hehe. I don't necessarily want the cold hard truth. So why ask it?

Psht.

I'm all spunky today. Can you tell?

I have to go make dinner and play Skyward Sword some more. YAAAAY!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Blessed :)

2011-12-27T12:59:00.003-05:00

Hi!

I had a wonderful Christmas with my family. Just wanted to say I'm so so thankful to have the close family unit. I am sorry that some people just don't have what I have.

It's not fair.

But I'm certainly blessed.

Merry Christmas :)

Love,

Jaime Lee

Christmas Time!!!

2011-12-20T17:31:00.003-05:00

Hi everyone!

Christmas is coming and I am so excited!!!

We weren't supposed to do presents this year, due to the fact that we all don't have money and the cost of the freezer at work and being robbed twice...

But now there are PRESENTS UNDER THE TREE! It's all okay... we can always make more money... I am super excited about Christmas this year... I'm not sure why, but, the world seems to be aligning itself better for me... everything is coming together. Slowly but surely.

I was remembering last Christmas, with the ex cheating on me and all that happy stuff, and I could not believe it's been a year! A whole year! I was really happy about it. Being so happy right now reminded me of how unhappy I was.

You have to have the bad so the good stands out :)

I have my family. I have my job. I have my independence, which is what I always wanted.

People keep asking me why I don't go out with these men I talk to. Why? I like being single. Do what I want. For now, at least. I am loving it actually, and was super ecstatic when I realized I wouldn't have to have a boyfriend over for dinner this Christmas. I like getting to know these people, but for now, I want it to stay casual. (not in the bad way)

I watch Friends on TV every day now. I haven't seen it in forever, I had forgotten what a good show it actually is! Then that King of Queens show comes on and my brains start falling out of my ears.

Can't stand that. But that's the difference... I have the right kind of sense of humor. Others do not. They suck.

Okay, Friends is coming back on and I have hot cocoa waiting for me! And my mamma is coming home with a rotisserie chicken and mac and cheese and I made instant potatoes! Haha... nice stress-free meals.

Will write more later!

Love,

Jaime Lee

Christmas 2011 Enthusiast!

Skyward Sword

2011-12-16T19:23:00.004-05:00

Hi everyone!

I've been playing Skyward Sword for the past week. My brother surprised me with it!

So far, I can see the greatness of it, especially with the awesome ultra-sensitive controls now. The sword slashing is so engaging, nothing like any other Zelda game.

The characters are so in-depth, a thing that Zelda games have lacked... no character development. So, I am liking the quirkiness of Zelda in the beginning, the facial expressions of Link, the emotions of the bazaar people...

The only negative that I can see is the music... not up to Zelda standards in my opinion. They do not match, they don't give that 'feeling' like so many other Zelda games do.

For instance, so you can see what I'm talking about, the Water Temple in Ocarina of Time was done so masterfully... you feel the water. You feel a little cold even. Despair. Listen:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gg_F-pvGB6w

Now, the Lakebed Temple in Twilight Princess:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MztvE3njT7w

Or, take for instance, the Forest Temple in Ocarina of Time:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=322V5rD6ko4

That song is so epic. The first time I played, I was in the Zelda zone... mesmerized by this song.. you felt like you were alone in the deep woods... right?

Now, take Twilight Princess (my favorite thus far!!!), Snowpeak Ruins:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ahxjPcuuHWg

Don't you feel cold? Mysterious?

Now... Skyward Sword examples, the first temple...

Skyview Temple:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fV17aNKHXw

See the difference? For me, it does not fit. If you try playing it, I think you'll see what I mean...

The only one I've really liked in the game so far, is this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvCgyfcfs24

This is also where I am at the moment... died about five thousand times, which is another thing I like about this game... much easier to die.. more realistic.

And the fact that Link is so damn cute. I am in love with him. Link and Chef Michael Symon.

Yup. I could take both of them. I'll aim for that goal...

Those are my men...

I can sleep soundly now...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

X-Rated

2011-12-14T14:16:00.002-05:00

Hi!

I just went shopping... got a few more things for christmas.. spent a lot of time in Pier 1. Was told my $100 and $200 gift card was de-activated. I almost had a heart attack. I started blaming someone in my head, thinking they used my card. Then she fixed it for me. I lived!

I went to the liquor store... asked the insanely handsome clerk where this X stuff was... couldn't remember the name... started flirting... asked for 'triple x? something with an x?"

He smiled and laughed... gave it a shot that I meant X Rated... we laughed some more. I wanted to take him home with me...

Alas. I could not.

Better posts to come...

Love,

Jaime Lee

XXX

Rumor!!!

2011-12-11T17:31:00.003-05:00

Hi!

I head a rumor...

That a Wyndam is going to be going in the Utica Business Park...

Oh....

My...

GOD!!!!!

Is that true?!? IS THIS TRUE?!

Man. I have to get a boyfriend PRONTO so I can enjoy this... holy bajeezum!

I love dating...

It's been fun.

It's always fun.

I never want to get married now.

Marriage is the death of fun I think. People get all serious. Start having babies. Nah. Not for me. Not yet.

It'll take a pretty special guy to make me want to walk down the aisle. Trust me. BEFORE all the drama and trauma, it was going to take a pretty special guy... but NOW he has to be even MORE special.

Wonder if there is such a guy!

I'm all into hats now. And feather earrings. And tight shirts. No, not bad ones, just ones that actually fit and show my actual shape.

As I mentioned before, this is a totally new concept. I wish I had adopted this years ago. Saved me a lot of trouble.

I actually looked in the mirror and liked what I saw. Imagine such a thing?

It was fanTASTIC!

I said "Hell yeah!!!"

Imagine THAT? Jaime seeing herself in a mirror and saying 'hell yeah!"?

New Jaime.

Dating Jaime.

Woot!

I believe I am getting a tattoo soon too. Don't judge me yet. I have a fanTABULOUS idea. I was inspired by someone at work who showed me hers.

Also. I believe I will be getting my nose pierced finally.

Imagine this new improved Jaime?

I can :)

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11 forever

Voices?

2011-12-07T16:29:00.002-05:00

Hi!!

So... I was in deep alpha again... I heard a man's voice that made me sit straight up in bed. I have no idea what he said, but it was definitely something...

I started sweating I was so scared.

So. This hypnosis type thingy is freaking me out now. I will try it again tonight...

Perhaps it's my own fault for asking my celestial guarding to prove he or she is with me.

I got the answer and it's a man.

I hopefully will have a date soon. I decided I am refusing to let a past relationship keep me from trusting another man. If I do that, then he wins. Can't let that happen.

OH! For this date, I will have awesome feather earrings...

And I bought a highly expensive South Pole shirt. Oh yeah. Fo shizzle. I tried it on and realized why these shirts are so expensive... the fit was fabulous. It actually contoured to my body, which is something I am not familiar with, as I usually hide behind my clothing... it was pointed out how small my waist actually is and if I lost a little weight, I'd apparently have a Dolly Parton shape...

I'd take that... I like my boobs :)

So. In summary. Not letting past idiotic fake relationship screw me up.

Will be dating again.

Will be going places and hopefully going to the Wyndham ;)

Will be wearing awesome clothes.

Will have awesome 6" feather earrings.

Will be happy.

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

In my Construct, Part 2...

2011-12-02T18:38:00.004-05:00

Sorry, I just found something online that I think explains what happened!

When you allow yourself to enter the alpha state as I described, suppressed feelings will spontaneously begin to jump into your awareness as the subconscious cleanses. Just sitting still gives the subconscious the opportunity to bring its suppressed contents to consciousness for healing and clearing.

Since my ex jumped into this scene without my wanting, could this mean I still have not dealt with my feelings of anger and resentment? Could my mind be telling me I need to tell him exactly what I think?

Will I find peace this way?

We'll see what my alpha state does tonight..

I'll keep you updated...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

In my Construct...

2011-12-02T18:24:00.003-05:00

Hi everyone...

I've been doing these meditation exercises, specifically using the Akashic Construct CD (you can google this to find out what I'm talking about).

I've been going right along with practicing daily and getting really into it...

Well... I am onto using the second track, the one used to reach deep alpha and hopefully make contact with my celestial guardian...

So, in this track, after going through some awesome exercises to get deeply relaxed (I've done it a lot and now it totally makes me feel like I'm somewhere else. Amazing.), you then are told to put yourself in a pleasant scene in nature... I've been working on where that is, what I see, the sounds I hear, all the small details... since starting this, it's like this whole world goes on without me, like it's a real thing...

So. Yesterday, I was in deep alpha, in my pleasant scene in nature, and the big tree and the creek and the blue sky and all that stuff I came up with, and who shows up from behind a tree? Not by my doing?

An ex. An ex who I did not want nor intended on seeing there. I yelled at him. Told him to get out of my scene. He kept coming closer....

I swear. I did not want him there. This was, by far, the most bizarre thing I've ever experienced in my entire life. On the CD, he talks about how if you want to be a healer, people will begin showing up in my construct to be healed.. perhaps this was part of it?

I have no idea. But I did not want him there. I was getting nervous. I wanted to open my eyes, but I could not. It wasn't time.

So. I have to do it again tonight, and I'm scared. Because these things are happening in my head without my doing so.

Help.

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Gas Station Man!

2011-12-01T20:37:00.002-05:00

Hi everyone!

My mom and I stopped at the gas station today. That kid that asked me out was just walking in to work. My mom says "Is that the guy that asked you out?! Now HE'S cute". With the 'he's' italicized.

Hehehe, made me laugh, as I know the boyfriends I pick are never great looking. But this one is. AND he's thin. I think that's worth mentioning. He is cute... very very handsome and has a smile that melts me.

Now. Why on EARTH did I not agree to go out with him? Why do I keep insisting on resorting to online meet-ups?

Because the Jaime from high school is still with me. The same insecure, picked on Jaime. I have to get rid of her. I can't take this anymore.

A perfectly handsome, sweet man was interested in me. I was told that it's obvious he wants to know me, based on how he looks at me whenever we talk. Apparently it's that 'I need you' look. Which is always nice to know. Made me feel good :)

So. High school Jaime has to die and has to die soon. I think maybe I'll stop for gas tomorrow... and maybe just might be all dressed up. With my newly cut hair! And new make-up style that apparently works. Woot!

Okay... I have to go. And ponder how to kill high school Jaime.

Wish me luck :)

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11 forever

Single and Ready to Mingle? That is the question.

2011-11-29T15:45:00.002-05:00

Hi!

I'm watching Meet Joe Black. I love this movie.

I keep crying though, and it's rather embarrassing. I just love the parts where they are together as a family. And how Susan's father looks out for her best interests. It's so sweet. Imagine families that don't have that? It makes me feel even better, to know that that's exactly what I have here. I have brothers that would always defend me, a father who would do anything and does things out of love and is only concerned with what is best for me, and a mom who is my best friend. Absolutely. What more could I ask for?

Nothing. I have three pets. I love them all. Goomba, Duncan and Reno. Yaaaaay!

I've been trying to figure out why I'm not enthusiastic about moving any prospective relationship forward. I came to the harsh realization that I don't want to get hurt. So what is the best way to not get hurt? Stay away from men. This bothers me a lot, because as one idiot ex boyfriend once said, 'what is a life without your heart at risk?'

Ugh. He happened to be right, but, it's rather ironic that he said that to me.

But how is life worth living if I'm not willing to take a risk? Where is my entrepreneurial mind-set? Where is that spirit?

I also came to realize that I don't exactly like having to care for someone... I don't like having to answer to someone. I don't like being made to do things if I don't want to do them. Boyfriends are the death of me doing what I want.

Could this be some laziness? Sure. But I find with each time I get my heart trampled on, I get more bitter. And anyone who knows me, knows I could use less bitterness.

Imagine where I would be in twenty years? Oh dear!

So in summary, I'm keeping my heart protected. And I like it. :) I do like dating though... I absolutely love the beginnings of things. It's when people claim they want to marry me is when things die. Why aren't men capable of keeping things simple and slow? I love meeting new people. Those feelings of 'firsts', the anticipation of what will happen. Ahh... that's all I want right now. Is that too much to ask for?

I'll go find me some of that!

Yeah! Go Jaime!

Here I go.

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11 forever

Happy Thanksgiving :)

2011-11-27T13:22:00.002-05:00

Hi everyone!

Today my family and I are celebrating Thanksgiving... we always do holidays a few days later so we can all be together for the whole day :)

I'd like to say that I am eternally grateful for my family... I do not know where I would be or who I would be without them. I have been blessed with a loving family. I don't know what I did to deserve this family and the love that comes with them.

Thank you..

SMILE!

Jaime Lee

11:11

I'm awesome.

2011-11-21T20:48:00.002-05:00

hehehe....

I know everyone is wondering why I keep posting "hehehehehe".

Hehe, I can't say it yet. Ha!

Imagine having an ugly girlfriend? That would suck ass.

Isn't that rather random? Sure is. Probably because I was thinking of a person at work. Who is ugly. And has a boyfriend. Psht.

My cat is trying to climb up the wall right now... that bothers me a little...

I just spent 13 hours at work and I am very sleepy! So I will go and write more tomorrow, and perhaps unveil why I keep laughing so much!

Love,

Jaime Lee

*awesome*

Ha!

2011-11-19T17:37:00.001-05:00

Muwahahahahahah.....

AAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....

teehee...

Muwaha....HA!

Heheheheheheh.....HEHEHEHEHEHE!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

.................heh heh..........

Dum dum dum dum dum...

2011-11-18T10:18:00.002-05:00

Hi everyone!

Hehehehehehhe.... muwaHAHAHAHAH...

I read something yesterday that made me laugh out loud, and I actually could not stop for about six minutes... I will share what that was at a later date... hehehehehhehehehehe.....buWAHAHA...

Anyways... I love meeting new people. I like Jon more and more. He's very funny. And I met another person too! (Imagine? Jaime with TWO men?!)

His name is... unfortunately.... *cough* Michael.

I hate that part. Ugh. Why do I have to find another person, who is interesting (as well as a senior software engineer, high five!!!), whose name is an ex-douche bag's name. Psht.

Perhaps I'll just call this one Mike. Not Michael. Woot!!!

So. I got my mom watching South Park now... she laughed the hardest at the Mormon episode...

"aaaand, that's how the Book of Mormon was written, dum dum dum dum dummmm!"

Teehee...

Tonight I will be at the shopping center for the holiday stroll! Hopefully pouring lots of coffee and hot cocoa!!

OKay, I have to go get ready! Starts at 6!!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

heheheheh....

MuwahaHAHAHAHAHA....

South Park is right!

2011-11-15T16:23:00.000-05:00

So true!

Stan:	Butters?
Butters:	Oh [sniff, wipes away his tears] Uh hey, hey Stan.
Stan:	What's the matter with you?
Butters:	[sobbing] Well, mu mu mu girlfriend broke up with me.
Henrietta:	Did she step on your heart with stiletto heels?
Butters:	Yeah. [sniff] It sure does hurt.
Goth 2:	That's cool. I guess you can join up with us if you want.
Goth 1:	Yeah. We're gonna go to the graveyard and write poems about death and how pointless life is.
Butters:	Uh, uhm no thanks. I I love life.
Stan:	Huh? But you just got dumped
Butters:	Wuh-ell yeah, and I'm sad, but at the same time I'm really happy that somethin' could make me feel that sad. It's like, ih ih, ih it makes me feel alive, you know? It makes me feel human. And the only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt somethin' really good before. So I have to take the bad with the good, so I guess what I'm feelin' is like a, beautiful sadness. I guess that sounds stupid...
Goth 1:	Yeah.
Stan:	No. No, Butters, that doesn't sound stupid at all.
Butters:	Well, thanks for offerin' to let me in your clique, guys, uh but, to be honest, I'd rather be a cryin' little pussy than a faggy Goth kid. Well see ya, Stan. [walks off]
Stan:	He's right. I don't even know who I am anymore. I like liking life a whole lot more than hating it. Screw you guys, I'm goin' home. [walks off]

Facebook Battle Concludes: Jaime Wins by a Landslide!

2011-11-15T13:02:00.004-05:00

Hi again!

I've been battling this moron on Facebook.

She's one of those liberal-ish hippie morons... I know RIGHT? Those are the worst...

Want a summary of what she is saying and how it all got started? Because trust me, I don't necessarily enjoy battling on Facebook. I really don't. I'm just super smart and super awesome, so it may look as if I enjoy showing off how awesome I am... ;)

My brother posted "Get a job hippies", in regards to the Occupy Wall Street Protestors.

I agree. Seriously. Go get a job hippies.

So. One of his friends starts spouting off in a non-sensicle manner that made me want to pull my brains out through my nose using tweezers.

Seriously.

Then I had to interject, as the subject matter was important to me. She starts saying how it's not fair that a pregnant woman in this country has to be out in the cold because she can't afford a home.

Um. Fuck?

Seriously. Let's think about this one... let's use our brains for a minute. Why would you get pregnant if you don't even have a home to provide that child with shelter?

Okay. So you'd think she'd reconsider her idiotic statement. Much to my disgrace she did not.

This whole baby issue irritates the shit out of me, as you have a duty if you decide to have a child, to at LEAST provide shelter for that precious baby. Right?

So. I simply state how people need to stop having kids if they lack the mental capacity to have that child or cannot afford a HOUSE. Right?

She says it's every woman's right to have a child. So in turn, every woman should have the right to have free housing and all this other bullshit.

Then. She says that it's not normal for women to NOT have kids, because every woman that does not have a child, gets ovarian cancer.

?!?

W.T.F.

Right?!? I asked her for statistics on that one, but she could not produce them, and after about 20 posts back and forth, she gave up... MUWAHAHAHH.

Jaime always wins.

You can't argue with common sense.

Well, you can try, but I will always win in the end. :D

Jon sent me a text the other morning that said "good morning sunshine!"

I love it. I love nice men. He's so nice.

Why has it taken so god damn long to find a nice man? Psht. Silly fates!

I will write more laters!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Ah. Sauquoit strikes again!

2011-11-14T16:03:00.002-05:00

I know this may seem weird. And make no sense to most people.

Reason for this? I had an ex that used to insinuate that I was stupid because I went to Sauquoit. Used to call me 'dumb sauquoit bitch', 'dumb sauquoitian', things like that. (why did I date him again??)

Anyways.

He went to Mt. Markham. And did not graduate. So I like seeing things like this when I used to explain that I'm sure my schooling was better than his... he used to say no it wasn't...

Business First has rated the academic performances of 37 public school districts in the Utica-Rome Area, based on four years of test data from the New York State Education Department. (Click here to learn how the rankings were calculated.)

The Utica-Rome Area consists of school districts in Herkimer, Oneida and Otsego counties.

The following list contains the regional standings from top to bottom.

Click here to see the regional rankings in a sortable database.

Below are the 37 Utica-Rome Area school districts in order of academic rank. Each is followed by the name of its county:

• 1. New Hartford (Oneida County)

• 2. Clinton (Oneida County)

• 3. Town of Webb (Herkimer County)

• 4. Whitesboro (Oneida County)

• 5. Westmoreland (Oneida County)

• 6. Sherrill (Oneida County)

• 7. New York Mills (Oneida County)

• 8. West Canada Valley (Herkimer County)

• 9. Sauquoit Valley (Oneida County)

• 10. Oneonta (Otsego County)

• 11. Oriskany (Oneida County)

• 12. Holland Patent (Oneida County)

• 13. Waterville (Oneida County)

• 14. Milford (Otsego County)

• 15. Worcester (Otsego County)

• 16. Cooperstown (Otsego County)

• 17. Gilbertsville-Mount Upton (Otsego County)

• 18. Poland (Herkimer County)

• 19. Adirondack (Oneida County)

• 20. Morris (Otsego County)

• 21. Unatego (Otsego County)

• 22. Camden (Oneida County)

• 23. Little Falls (Herkimer County)

• 24. Laurens (Otsego County)

• 25. Edmeston (Otsego County)

• 26. Frankfort-Schuyler (Herkimer County)

• 27. Mohawk (Herkimer County)

• 28. Richfield Springs (Otsego County)

• 29. Schenevus (Otsego County)

• 30. Cherry Valley-Springfield (Otsego County)

• 31. Mount Markham (Herkimer County) awww... way down there...

• 32. Dolgeville (Herkimer County)

Love,

Jaime lee

11:11

Happy 11/11/11

2011-11-11T14:55:00.001-05:00

Hi everyone! Happy 11/11/11!

Guess how many views I've had today? 11!!!!

No way!

Coolers!

Happy Eleven Eleven Eleven!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Interesting...

2011-11-10T09:53:00.002-05:00

It's interesting...

Interesting how certain people know certain other people... small world.

It's an interesting web we weave... isn't it?

I will get you.

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

How nice am I?

2011-11-07T14:03:00.005-05:00

I was musing about something earlier... yes, something that is of no interest to anyone who would read this... but I was musing just the same...

When my ex and I broke up, I wrote a nice letter to his mom, thanking her for everything she has done (no idea what I was referring to, but oh well, was the thought that counted), and said I was sorry for what happened between her son and I and I wished her well.

Isn't that a sweet thing to do? Yes. I got nothing back. No response. His sister contacted me and joined me in the 'bash mike fest' and sided with me and told me how disgusted she was that her brother would do this to me, and also told me some things she knew about his new girl that was less than flattering, involving her reputation. His own sister ratted him out on a lot of things and said she'd always been disgusted with Mike and his lies and stories. She also told me that right before we broke up, Mike was apparently discussing the story of how he started bringing another girl to and from work to 'be a nice guy'. His sister told me she knew something was off with his story as to how 'innocent' it was, because his bottom lip was really tight when telling this story... that was always my telltale sign when he was lying. His bottom lip would be tight.

So. His sister and brother-in-law invited me to a few things, including a party and what not.

I was confused, as I was okay with them siding with him, as that's how it goes. But. They didn't.

Does this mean there was a lot more to the story than I ever knew? Was he doing things behind my back the entire time?

Then I saw that the mother and her abusive ex husband are friends or something. This is the ex-husband that apparently beat both Mike and his sister.

Now. I was thinking. Is that not highly inappropriate? I can't imagine if I had been beat for a lot of my childhood by a parent. They break up eventually. Then rekindle their 'love' years later. I'd be so offended. Be like "um... mom? He used to hurt me... a lot.... he put my sister in a cast.... how can you be with him?"

Right?!?

Bad Mom Award goes to this mother. Or sad excuse for a mother, rather.

And thusly, I realize how lucky I am, once AGAIN, to not be with him. If his own family takes my side, then there must have been something more to the story that I didn't know about...

But. Onto another subject!!!

I like Jon. Jon likes me. He lives in Rome and is near Wyndham and Casino.... and Delta Lake. Three places I like. Jon was talking to people in Singapore and made fun of the Asians. That's a funny sense of humor. I said "silly Asians! Harro prease!"

He found that funny. Good sign? Yes. He is 31. Better than 27!

I have to go play Mario now!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Nothingness?

2011-11-04T15:09:00.005-05:00

Hi everyone :)

I think I am doing better. Yay!

Listening to Sick Puppies: Rip Tide.

Neat song.

These Occupy Wall Street fuckers are making me sick. I can almost picture the type of people who are at these things.

I was watching Dr. Phil today... had this whole program on abusive mothers. One mom glued her daughter's hands to the wall and beat her. Put her in a coma. Another one made her son beat his pet gerbil. And another mother sold her child for $15,000.

?!?

Now I'm listening to Stereo Hearts. Why? No idea.

Okay. So. These abusive mothers. Of course they go and make more babies. One mother's kids were beat by her live-in boyfriend.

That's the key word: Live-in boyfriend. Probably only knew her for a short time. One of those loser single moms who can't be without someone. Found some loser guy and moved them in. Bad parenting? Yes. No question right? You fucking don't move in a boyfriend. At least know them for a year or more I would think. Right?

Right.

Oops. I just realized that's what my idiot ex's girlfriend did. They were living together two weeks after we broke up. She has three kids.

How does that make sense? Something mentally wrong with that right? Or at least something neglectful about that. You don't trust people around your children. Ever.

Right?

Yes. I am right. But hey, at least now I know what I was dealing with being in that relationship. Someone as idiotic to move in with a woman after two weeks with kids? Yup. I had a retard as a boyfriend.

But hey, live and learn, right? I'm apparently an equal opportunity dater.

Katy Perry bothers me. A lot. I've been trying to figure her out for a while now. Why you ask? No idea. Just for something to do. I'm going to guess that she was not very popular in high school. That seems to be the disease she has. Now she's just an idiot that thinks she'll sing about being a 'teenage dream' and she wants to see someone's 'peacock'.

Idiot. Man.. it's just too bad she doesn't have a good voice! She could at least be good at SOMETHING.

Um. I think it'd be better if you could cut her face out and replace it with something better. Other than that, yes, she has a nice body.

But... why does anybody do these pictures? Something to prove. Yeah, I had a bad high school experience. Made fun of. But. If I had a perfect body I would not have to show it off. Who am I proving something to?

Psht. But. I know some people just have to prove something. Like a lot of people I know.

Okay. I have to go. I want to watch Judge Judy!

Love,

Jaime Lee

AKA Cupcake Lady (teehee!)

New Lead!

2011-11-03T14:07:00.003-05:00

Hi everyone! I have a new lead... it makes sense! It all makes sense as to who, where, how, and why!

It fits all those criteria!

I think I should call the investigator... I'm going to do it!!!

Crimes are rarely elementary, but always evidentiary! Hrm...

I'm going to go ponder! I will figure this out for my family. Yes! I can!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Idiots!

2011-11-02T14:51:00.002-05:00

I'm a little better now...

We got robbed again. I can't believe this. Who the fuck has that much god damn nerve to do it twice in a matter of eight days?!?

It's okay though, the police seem very interested anyways... so maybe they'll come up with something. I have no idea who they are thinking of or what. All I know is they wanted a very complete list of anyone who has worked for us for a year. ??

Maybe they have a weird feeling it's an inside job?

I found a muddy kick-print on the door. Apparently they got very frustrated because they could not get the door open... Psht.

Plus there's a nice handy hand print where they got in. So. Who knows. God damn idiots.

But, a customer saw something on Monday that was suspicious and points to a certain area... so that was helpful.

I'm going to figure this out. My family did not deserve that. Twice. Nope.

Okay! Onto happier subjects!

I like my new friend Jon. He works a lot, but, he seems to hold a positive attitude. And he's funny with a sense of humor I can relate to. That's always handy...

It's so weird when your date has no humor... I went on a date last year with an idiot. He did not laugh at my table drawings at Symeons. That told me he's a dud...

I mean really though! I drew a triangle and labeled it 'triangle'. Then I drew a square a labeled it 'square'. THEN I drew a rectangle and labeled it 'not square'.

Hehehehehehhehe.. He just looked at it and said 'oh boy...'

Psht. Go fuck yourself.

But I recently found him on facebook. Not on purpose. He was recommended as a friend. Thomas Pryputnewicz. It didn't click when I saw the name. Then I was like 'hm.... wait! That last name sounds familiar!" So I clicked on it and he looked familiar... Then I was like "oooooh yeeeahh.... idiot!"

Yes yes. But I suppose everybody has bad dates.... I sure have had my fill of them.

Time for Jaime to find a real man? I think so.

Okay... I have to go now...

Will write more about something interesting tomorrow I swear.

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Watch out.

2011-11-01T16:48:00.002-05:00

I hate people.

Something bad happened again. Go figure, on 11/1/11.

I can't go into detail because I'm so pissed off. But. I hate people.

This is personal.

Watch out.

Update!

2011-10-30T16:35:00.003-05:00

I feel much better now, as I've been drinking lots of water!

I pee almost normal, so I think what I was feeling was almost a fluke! But yay for me!

I've been thinking of my future a lot lately. And I'm trying to picture my work life without my family in it. I can't imagine being at the bakery without them.. :(

But I know I could do it some day. If that opportunity ever came about to where my dad made me a partner or gave the business to me, I know I could rise to the challenge.

I've been watching carefully with a critical eye for eleven years now. And I really think I could do it myself. I know it'd be hard, but, I'm smart.

The officer called me and was very curious about the woman I have that drives from Cobleskill.

I know, right?! Who drives that far for a minimum wage job??? Like sixty something miles? Hrm... I will go ponder that one for a while.

My brain keeps realizing things about an ex boyfriend. It's getting crazy. But. All the lies are finally being realized in my subconscious and making me think about things.

I realized today that when I went to open up an email in his inbox that said it was from some girl on Facebook, he shoved me in the chest and made me fall over so I couldn't read it... He claimed it was because he was afraid it was spam..

Is that any reason to push me over? Nope. So. My brain realized today that it's because it was from the other girl. Psht.

And THEN my brain came up with this one! How he used to just disappear and say he was driving to some far off place to go buy something from someone on Craig's list, but, he never came home with the product.

So. I realized TODAY that he had most likely been with some other woman. And man! Must have been for a long ass time!

Poor Jaime!

HAPPY ALMOST HALLOWEEN!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! I was supposed to have a party, but, I got too busy!

Know what bothers me? These idiot protestors on Wall Street.

What. The FUCK.

What the hell is wrong with people making a profit? What is wrong with people making money? Or millions?

Why should millionaires pay more taxes? How is that American? You can make as much money as you want! Good for you!

These idiot people, lots of which have quit their jobs to go PROTEST the idea of making money? Really?

What. The FUCK. I can't take these hippie ideals anymore. My god! It's hard enough owning a small business! With unemployment taxes and everything else you have to pay, it's hardly working!

I can't say I am sympathetic to people who 'can't find work'. Bullshit. I've been looking for a person to hire for three months! Nobody wants a job. Nobody! Why? Too easy on unemployment! Want to protest something that matters? Go protest what Obama is doing! Say "OBAMA! Quit giving out so much god damn money and extending benefits!"

That might MAKE people get a job, which in turn would allow companies to HIRE MORE, which will help the UNEMPLOYMENT NUMBERS FALL, which would allow companies to INVEST and PURCHASE more, so companies will make more money, spend more money and economy improves!

Is this a hard thing to grasp in people's minds?

I've been hacking hours like crazy to try to save as much money as I can! I finally hired someone because I realized we can't do the holiday without one more person! But trust me, once the holiday is over, a few more people can go!

Awwwww...

Okay, I'll stop...

Will write more tomorrow, so come check me out! Teehee...

Oops, wait, input picture to add interest!

Woah. Thin Jaime. And mad Jaime! Watch out!!! She attacks randomly...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Urinary Tract Infections and Ex Boyfriends.

2011-10-28T15:26:00.002-05:00

Okay...

I bet you think those are weird combinations, huh?

Well they are.

I just sat down and realized I have another UTI. First rule for a UTI? Stuff yourself with water. Then! Put vagisil on our hoo hoo. Then? Heating pad on abdomen.

Please believe me. Especially drowning yourself in water. The first time I ever had one, I stopped drinking because it would hurt when I peed! But! That only makes it worse!! Drink often, and pee lots. You'll be happy I told you this.

Now, I downed two orange pills and drank like twenty galloons of water. I just puked up on myself because apparently that was too much water at once...

I'm all better now.

ONTO THE NEXT SUBJECT!

Ex boyfriends. I was just realizing that I realized how much better I am than him. And how I feel sorry for him. Not David, Mike I'm referring to here.

David is just a wack job, but, Mike is messed up.

Why was I thinking this again? Great question.

Because YESTERDAY I was thinking of how I deserve a true gentleman. And so TODAY I was thinking that I haven't had that yet. And the one boyfriend that tried to convince me he was all that and a bag of chips, was actually the worst one ever.

He lied. About everything. His family. His father. His getting beaten up. His girlfriends. His ex fiance. His job. His applying to Bassett. Everything.

And I was getting sad that I was that stupid to not see it.

So. How do I resolve how I feel stupid?

Well. I sit back and think.... I'm Jaime. And I'm awesome. What the FUCK was I doing with some ugly bastard that lied to me. Right? I lowered my standards by a ton there, and I could not figure out why I would have done that.

But I think I know why now.

I met him during my relapse. So I was vulnerable. He knew this. He preyed on this. He made me think that he was the only man that would be with me in such a condition.

So, that's why I'm better than him. I can't imagine using someone that way and being that manipulative.

But I suppose the Devil is real, right? Hehe. I found him!

I dated the devil. Woot woot.

Okay. My fingers are ice cold and I can't type.

Let me find a picture to put in here, as I like pictures.

Hang on.

Yup. I like that one.

Okay. I am done now. Will write more tomorrow! And coming soon! Updates on my UTI!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Urinary Tract Infections and Ex Boyfriends.

2011-10-28T15:26:00.000-05:00

Randomness.

2011-10-27T16:16:00.002-05:00

Hi again.

Fingerprinting underway! The girls didn't seem to like being inconvenienced. But the policeman was very nice to me on the phone. I'm glad they are being kind... last time we were robbed they didn't seem to care at all :(

Do I have any ideas? Yes. And I hear through the grapevine that some other people have suspicions too. INteresting. I will be a detective and get to the bottom of it. My family did not deserve that. We all work too damn hard to make a living and we do not need people taking our hard-earned money. And equipment! Turns out they took some of the mixer bowls. What?

Like seriously. Cash was not good enough for you? Really?

Bothers me. But those types of people will eventually come to justice I believe.

I like this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bUwkjIXaHEI&feature=related

Makes me relax and get sleepy.

It's snowing out. And it's so so pretty! Makes me want Christmas to be here soon.

Freezer is probably going to be put in and all set up hopefully within a week. Yay!

I need winter boots!!! I just looked outside and it's coming down in white fluffy buckets! OH no.

Is it obvious that I have no ideas for a blog in my head? Nope. So, I apologize to whomever reads this.

I was thinking today, while listening to a song... That I deserve to be with a man (someday) that worships the ground I walk in, that will hold me high on a pedestal. A woman at work once told me that... and I believe it's true now. I do deserve the very best. Someone who will love me. For real.

Anyone that has ever claimed to love me was not truthful. It can't be love if you call me a fat bitch. No. :(

So. Someday! Watch out world, here I come!!!!

Okay, those are all the thoughts now... will write more!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Don't mess with the GBS.

2011-10-25T12:48:00.002-05:00

Hi!

I've had an interesting week...

The bakery got robbed on Sunday... They took lots of money and I'm so pissed off I could kill someone.

The police took lots of fingerprints and found lots of good ones. Apparently the person stole a soda before leaving and left the frickin' cooler door open all night. Fucker.

The person ransacked the office. I would have thought they could have at least taken some of the bills and paid them for us. You know, as a good gesture.

So, they are fingerprinting all the girls and us to rule people out.

I don't get it. Work. Make money. Be happy.

Don't work? Steal money? How do you live with yourself?

But, I suppose things could be worse... could have been there at that time and maybe they could be dangerous. But. I will be thankful that I at least brought all the money from the drawers home on Sunday. Imagine if I had left it there? I'd never be able to live with myself. :(

Okay... I have to blog about Linday Lohan and her Playboy thing later...

But for now I have to go eat something.

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

I want a big fat greek wedding.

2011-10-23T18:55:00.008-05:00

I just watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding. It made me cry the entire time. Why? Assuming I was feeling sorry for myself in that men keep lying to me and cheating on me and breaking my heart. But I hate feeling sorry for myself. It was just a temporary thing, I swear!

What cheered me up? A text message from Jon that said "You are awesome. Just thought you should know that!"

Best text message ever. It made everything better... the fact that a man sees the good things I am and appreciates them.. :) But I am being super careful with this one, taking things uber slow. Can't mess it up, since I'm really excited about him.

Know what is pissing me off something horrible?

This whole Paranormal Activity craze that has hit the nation. What. The FUCK.

It's not scary. It's not creative. It's not real. But oh! Let's make a movie that LOOKS like we are video taping it ourselves because we have ghost activity! Yeaaah! Maybe we'll be millionaires!

Who knew. But I swear, any idiot FuckTard who likes those movies loses my respect.

I saw the first one and could not keep my mouth shut during the whole thing. The person I was watching it with was all excited and scared. Dumb fuck.

Know what bothers me also?

Those damn cube cars. What the hell. It bothers me more than those OTHER boxy cars I used to blog about. Honda! Element!

Nope. Winner now goes to Scion cube-looking cars. Or whatever the hell it is. Here, look at this disgrace:

It looks like hearse for modern times. I can't stand it anymore. Just when you think things can't get any worse!

But... then they do...

So. Now I'm all torn. Which one is worse? Who gets the award?

What's so wrong with buying something that looks NICE? Aesthetically pleasing? You know how people try to find the best looking mate? Why can't humans do the same things with their cars? This defies all the laws!

Now. Take my car...

hehe... I chose this one because it's super cute with the girl! But really! My car looks good with an attractive women next to it!

You can't pull that off with one of those other cars...

See? I googled Scion cars, and this came up as one of the results...

See what I mean?

And he's trying so hard! But he can't do it! Because he knows he's not as good!

Nope. Not as good as a nice Chevy car, truck, or suv.

Okay.. I am done for now, will write more laters!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

I'm going to Pratt?

2011-10-22T14:57:00.003-05:00

Hi everyone!!!

I got an email from Pratt about financial aid and exit interviews and stuff... and it was addressed to all graduating students...

Do I go there...?

I WISH I went there. But hey. Can't have everything you want. But. They want to talk about my student loans or something... hmph.

I was at Hannaford today (go figure), saw by Eric guy (woot woot), and it was like WELFARE CITY today.

Know how many adults I saw in pajamas? At least five fuckers walking around in either pink or light blue (what's that about?) pajama bottoms.

I felt dirty inside to have been there at the same time as these idiots.

Then. I was finally free! Went outside but heard tons of bass, and much to my disgrace, realized someone had Rhianna blasting from their car... and even MORE upsetting was the fact that is was Rude Boy.

I was picturing this person to either be a man in his twenties that thinks he's cool and wears his pants half off his ass, OR some ghetto-ish type girl with way too tight jeans on and one of those short black puffy jackets with a hood with fur on it. Know what I mean?

Know what stepped out?

One of those idiot middle aged blonde ugly fuckers that wear their jeans way too high with her shirt tucked into her too high jeans, with a big wide black belt with those silver holes all around it.

God.

Who DOES that?!? New Hartford idiots. That's who.

Anyways. I had a disturbing dream last night... I was getting beaten up by some older man. It hurt.

Then. I had a dream that I went to a party to warn my exes girlfriend about him and how he's a liar and a cheat... and he caught me and pulled a gun on me, but then decided he should only kill himself because of what an asshole he has been to both of us.

Hm. Think I have anger issues? Yes. I do.

I have to go play Twilight Princess now... relaxxxxx...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

God is messing with me...

2011-10-21T15:55:00.002-05:00

Hi everyone!

Why is that picture there...? Jeeze.

Know what bothers me? When I am being haunted by people who have to do with an ex boyfriend. I just realized a girl that applied for a job about a week ago is related to my ex somehow... I found someone else for the position, but then the name kept bothering me so I went on a hunch and sure enough.. found her on my exes facebook, exes sister's facebook, exes father's facebook, and exes mother's facebook.

I suppose that was a good thing I found someone else...?

Then. Someone else wants a job that works at the place my exes current girlfriend works. Eek. What if they know each other? That would be weird. But she sounds like a doll so I'm stuck in this weird position. Also in need of another person at work... Hmph. And don't worry... I did not stalk her Facebook, I only know she works there because I had to find her when I suspected my ex of cheating on me... so. Found out where she works since it's on her Facebook. I swear.

So. God is continually toying with me. I can't get a break. There are signs everywhere. And why I have no idea. And these aren't things that I can control, or that are coming from my head. Ugh.

I got on the subject of this particular ex at lunch today. Why? (because trust me, I hate thinking about it). I had a weird dream about two ex boyfriends and one friend. Had a dream that the most recent one's son died by getting hit by a bus and it was horrible. Then had a dream I was in my OTHER exes car, but he would not look at me and all I could see was the back of his head. I think I'll look that up to see what it means... one moment please!

Okay. Can't find anything. But I'm sure it has something to do with deception.

But anyways. I think God has to cut it out. Unless he wants to TELL me why he is sending these weird things to me to make me think of something that I don't want to think about because it PISSES ME OFF so GOD DAMN MUCH. Oops... sorry God!

Well. Maybe he's telling me I need stop being angry or something. OR to not let that relationship ruin my future, since I recently vowed never to trust another man ever again.

Jeepers.

Okay, I will write more tomorrow!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Republican Debate

2011-10-19T13:39:00.002-05:00

Hi everyone!

I just watched the Western Republican Debate.

I know most people reading this won't give two shits about what I have to say in regards to politics, since I've haven't found anyone who is interested...

But here are my thoughts, in case you were wondering.

The winner? Newt Gingrich by far.

Let me tell you why I find him intriguing.. He has the simplest answers. Very smart. To the point. No bullshit. No attacking other candidates (at least minimally). He's a smart man and I would trust him to run this country. I suppose anyone over President Obama. When asked a question, he actually answered the question. Santorum and Perry seemed to dodge questions which I do not trust. And Herman Cain actually had a lot of interesting answers himself, but I understand why people might be hesitant with him and his 9 9 9 plan. Although, I'm off to research this plan more thoroughly to get more in-depth with it and make some sense out of it.

Main problem that I saw? Governor Rick Perry. His attack on Romney in regards to illegals was uncalled for and out of place. I was all set to hear Perry's answer on the healthcare question, and he turned into a vicious pit bull and jumped on Romney for illegal. Had nothing to do with healthcare. I was bummed.

But, my intrigue? Romney can hold his own. And I can respect someone who can keep up with attacks and fight back.

I need a boyfriend like that. Find me one.

Bachman, Ron Paul and Santorum seemed to be the under dogs. But I believe my vote will be with Gingrich.

I only wish they had more questions and answers about the economy and how it relates to small businesses. That intrigues me. How nobody understand that lowering taxes on small businesses will increase jobs as well as spending, is beyond me. Am I the only one?

I'll have to see more of him to make my final vote.

Anyways.

Now that everyone has skipped over this part, I'll start my usual stuff...

I was actually happy at work today... everything clicked. I finally found a young girl who can ice halfmoons in a timely fashion, and she does what I tell her to do. Everything flowed. It was a wonderful day. I did my pile of cakes all before 11 am. I was happy. Giving out orders. Doing my job. Happy day for Jaime.

I realized why I have such a struggle with most employees... when they aren't of normal mental capability like I would expect, it gets tense. I almost feel bad giving orders to people of lower intelligence, so I say nothing. Which is a stupid managerial position to take, I know.

But I am learning. :D

Anyways...

I have to go now, maybe find chocolate!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Part 1?

2011-10-17T19:40:00.003-05:00

Hi again!

Well, the new gigantic freezer is in our possession now! So excited. This will able us to produce more to meet demands... make more money... and hopefully see my parents one day buy a lake front cottage like they always wanted. I hope to see that dream come true for them.

Life is interesting. It intrigues me every day. And lately I've been reflective because certain things keep coming up that insist on reminding me of the heartache I had to go through because of the cowardly acts of an ex boyfriend.

Now, I do realize I seem to touch on this subject a lot. No, I am not obsessed. The world is insisting on reminding me of it for some reason and it's been bothering me. I'm trying to figure out why things are coming together synchronistically for me, but have to include memories of someone I don't want memories of because it angers me. But I suppose there are reasons, right?

My brother moved back into the house (yay!) and he is re-doing his room in an asian style. Doing all blacks, grays, and reds. He is into the whole asian art thing and he showed me a simple painting of a bamboo tree that he loves. Then it hit me (don't know why) that this ex boyfriend gave me a chinese brush painting kit a month before he turned into a douche bag and started doing things with another woman.... cough.

Anways! So I showed my brother and told him to pick out a picture and I'd do it for him and frame it for his room. He asked me where my ex got it, and I told him. Nobody believed it and asked "who do you think he ripped this off from?"

I laughed, as I now have to question everything he had ever done for me.

I'm constantly reminded that I was naive. And stupid.

I only worry because I'm having a hard time wanting to trust another man. And this isn't going to bode well for my new man friend. If I lack the ability to trust people, where will that leave me?

I only trust my immediate family. And perhaps that's the way it should be. They've always been there for me. :)

Exes not so much. I once asked an ex to get my car inspected for me, as he was just hanging around the bakery doing nothing. He said "do it yourself". Ah... but that was right around the time that he started doing things with someone else... so I suppose it all makes sense now :D

Okay. Enough with how stupid I was!

Onto how COOL I am!

Wait I have to go to bed instead.

Will write part 2 tomorrow!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

I see spiders!

2011-10-16T15:50:00.002-05:00

Hi again!

I had another hallucination! This time the spider was even bigger than the ones I saw before! He was about 12 inches long! (hehe)

I find it extremely interesting. I mean how you think while you're hallucinating. I'd like to research it further. I think it's cool how I don't get scared, even though it's extremely real to me. He was just crawling on my ceiling again... silly thing. I call him Howard now. I hope he visits me again!

I'm hoping to have that date really soon, he keeps asking me out on days that I can't go out! Ugh.... I hope he doesn't think I'm not interested anymore... :( Because boy... I am :)

My parents are in Pittsburgh picking up the ginormous freezer for the bakery! I am so excited about this that I can barely contain myself!

Know what band I like a lot? Sick Puppies. I like that song. And that other one! One reminds me of my ex so I'm trying to not like it anymore. And the other one reminds me of him too, because he should be apologizing to me and feel bad for what he did. Hm. That could mean both exes. Man. I need to pick better men, huh...

What is this post about?

I think I'm going to order a pizza! And maybe dress real nice for the delivery man!

I did that when I went to the grocery store! Wore my boots (yeehaw), and got all cute and slightly sexy! And wore perfume I haven't worn in 9 months! And I turned some heads! Believe it or not! And I made sure to make eye contact and keep eye contact with these really cute men that work there... I even smiled at them! And guess WHAT! They smiled back at me!!! See? I can do it! Teehee....

Okay... since I totally forgot why I went on here, I guess I'll go until it hits me.

I'm sure it was to bitch about Lady GaGa or that other slut or that OTHER slut Ke$sha. Bitch.

Okay, bye for now...

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Angle Cake? Fuck.

2011-10-14T15:47:00.003-05:00

Hi again!!

I was on Facebook. Don't know why. It's worthless. But. Can't not go on it to see what my brother is up to :)

So. Anyways. I was on Facebook. And I keep scrolling down and see how all these people I went to high school with are getting married.

All of these people I am referring to are really.... not too good looking (not to be mean).

And. I look at me. I have a decent face, right? Why can't I find the person I'm meant to be with. Get married.

Maybe it's just really not meant to be. I suppose that is possible, right? I just wonder sometimes, how awful people and bad personality-people and not-so-good-looking people can find someone to love them... but I can't.

Is it my standards? Are they too high?

Do I expect too much from people?

Do I not allow for faults?

I should figure those things out. But I must say, I'm hesitant to get to know people more, because I'm having a lovely time being single. I realized today, I don't need anyone. I like being independent. And I suppose there is nothing wrong with that... is there?

Oh!

Look at this:

This is a note an employee left me the other day:

This bothers me and is in part why I feel the human race is doomed for all eternity.

First, she spelled my name wrong. My name is Jaime.

Second, she spelled the customer's name wrong... Christeena. No. No.

Third, the number 2 was used for the word 'to'. This bothers me.

Fourth, the letter 'u' was used for the word 'you'.

Fifth, she used the word Angle for Angel. This bothers me a lot more than the third thing that was wrong. Angle cake? Go fuck yourself.

Sixth, she spelled Theme wrong. Little Miss Idiot Fucker spelled it Theame.

Jamie. Christeena. 2. u. Angle. Theame.

Maybe these misspelled words are trying to tell me something! Like from God!

Jaime: Christeena. Christ!!

Jaime and Christ!

2 u. To you!

Jaime and Christ to you!

Angle Theame.

Angel Theme?

Jaime! Christ wants you to do an angel theme?

Jaime does mean Angel of God. Hmmmmmm....

Huh. That is interesting.

I think I'll spend the rest of my day coming up with other things this could mean. I'll let you all know what I come up with!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Again?!?

2011-10-13T15:42:00.003-05:00

No.

I can't take it anymore.

CHEEK PIERCINGS! Can't deal with it.

It's spreading!!!! It's like some kind of disease in New Hartford is spreading at a rate unprecedented!

Nope. Can't deal with this. I don't get it. I will never get it and I don't want to get it.

Subject closed.

Only until it irritates the shit out of me again, give it a few weeks.

On a happier note!

I like my new man friend every more each day! Smart... funny... nice... has a job... works hard... lives in Rome so I would be close to two things I love: Wyndham and Delta Lake....

Oh.

My.

God.

Yay Jaime!

I am going to make home-made macaroni and cheese now, so I have to go..

Will write more for some reason. Who the hell would read my blog? :D

Love,

Jaime Lee

South Park=crying

2011-10-08T15:41:00.002-05:00

I think I've realized I may have some repressed emotions and issues coming to the surface... I think I have to deal with them soon.

I was watching South Park again, and I started crying during the Facebook episode.

Is that normal?

....he didn't have any Facebook friends..... :(

I'll try to cheer up, we are having a cookout today... I need meat.

Love,

Jaime Lee

Eat, Pray, Queef? TeeHEE!

2011-10-07T16:40:00.003-05:00

Heheheheheheheh.......

Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe.....!!!

I was just watching South Park, the episode titled: Eat, Pray, Queef...

I just choked on my chex mix!!!!

Hehehehehhe....

When the girl queefed on Butters I almost died.... And nobody is home!

Could have choked to death...

Okay, that is all!

hehehehehehehhe.......

Nothingness! Watch out.

2011-10-05T16:47:00.003-05:00

Hi!

So! My insurance decided that they will pay $3500/month so I can continue taking my Copaxone!

Oh happy day! This really excites me, as I was not looking forward to getting sick all the time!

I am really excited about my potential date. I could use a date right about now. Yes indeed. Know how long it's been since I've been on a date? Few months! OH my god. Jaime needs a man to talk to! And he's smart! And handsome! And likes math! And has a really good job! And is super sweet to me and texts me every morning to say good morning and texts me as soon as he gets out of work to ask how my day was!

Can you imagine that? That makes me super happy!

AND he seems trustworthy! I don't think I've dated someone who was trustworthy yet. Nope. So my day has come!

YAY FOR JAIME!

I think maybe I'll get my hair cut and dyed first! Awww.... I'll be so cute.

Anyways. I found this AMAZING Chex Mix!!!! It's like that reindeer track stuff that exists somewhere. Can't remember what that is from.

But! It's chex mix with peanut butter and like, powdered sugar!!!! I am so happy!

Jaime has her period and needs chocolate. So I found some.

Anyways.

What is this blog about anyways?

Nothingness. But it's okay, nothingness can be alright.

I was walking around Price Chopper today, and went by the meat section. My mom was getting stuff, and afterwards told me that "That guy was checking you ooooouuuuut!"

It's nice to hear once in a while. Made me feel good for a few minutes. But THEN I walked by the ribs in a bucket and got really mad, since it reminded me of my ex. And how he betrayed me. And made me think he wanted a future with me. And how he claimed to love me. And how he wanted to marry me. And then how he cheated on me and ripped my heart out. And all the feelings of ANGER came back.

Totally ruined the high I was on from the meat counter guy.

But hey, that's life for ya, huh?

Well, I have to go now, so I will write more later!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Randomness and cheek piercings!

2011-10-04T19:05:00.003-05:00

Hi!

I went to the neurologists today! He was very upset about the problems with my insurance company... He said he will do everything he can to keep me on Copaxone. But if need be, he suggests Avonex. He also warned me to take it on the night before a day when I don't have to work, as I will be in pain, and feel extremely sick. He said there is a small chance it won't happen, but, most likely will.

That made me not happy. But. We'll see what happens with the insurance.

Want to know what bothers me? Those stupid face piercings. Those ones like, in the cheek area. What the fuck is that about?

I was discussing piercings with my family, and my father says tattoos and piercings disgust him, and that people with tattoos most likely aren't entirely right. I laughed, as I wondered how long he had been waiting to say that, given mike had some. But, I did stand up for ear piercings. He is okay with those. And I did mention how I would like to get my nose pierced. But like this:

Isn't that darling? Simple and pretty. Plus it helps if you have a pretty face, such as this woman. So, I'd be fine, right? :D

So. That will be my new thing.

But I detest any other piercings now. I don't get it. I don't want to get it.

Okay. Take this, for example:

Now. Yes, she has a nice body. But, why would you ruin that with getting piercings in your fucking cheeks? Did that enhance her beauty? No, it marred it in fact. Now, I know of only one man that would disagree, given that she has dark hair and nice abs, and my ex was all into that, but, he's the exception. The middle finger does not help this young lady's appearance either, but, hey, it goes with the cheek piercing.

Does she has a gun in her panties?

Anyways. Moving on. OH! So, I decided that what would be tasteful is a small teeny tiny minuscule nose dot. Hehe. Nose dot.

I will be breaking out my 'hooker boots' pretty soon, for a date hopefully. And I seem to have good luck when I wear those boots. No, they are not tramp-ish. They are just black boots. Trust me. But it seems to offer me good luck on dates! I could use some of that. :) I've been a good person!

I was pondering today about life. And how I am extremely blessed. I have a family. We all get along. We all respect each-other. We, for the most part, have good health. And I was thinking that it's really all I want out of life. And I felt good when the neurologist did all his tests, and pricking me and poking me, that he said I'm doing well, and it's almost rare. And I was thinking that maybe it's attributed to my positive thinking. I hope so :)

I have to go to sleep now, will write more about things that bother me!

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Selling a ring! Who wants it?!?

2011-10-02T16:36:00.004-05:00

Hi! I am currently having a family get-together! So much fun.

You may be wondering why I'm on the computer blogging....

I didn't fit into any of the current conversations!

One about baseball, one about Rum, one about The Matrix...

Jaime fits nowhere!

Hehe.

I was showing everyone my room, and people are all like "woooah!" "what an awesome room!" "Oh can I buy one of your paintings?!" (hell yeah), stuff like that...

My brother spotted a few items and was like "Woah, you have one?".... and I reply "Nope. It's Mikes!" And he laughed and said "niiice". And I was all like "oh yeaaaah".

So, he is going to help me sell some stuff. And since Mike was evil and sold my computer, I will not feel bad about trying to make money off of something that was left during a relationship. Do unto others as you would... have done... unto... thou.... something... Hehe....

Then he came across something else, and my reply was the same. And it made me feel like perhaps this is the kiddie Jaime version of revenge! Right? He got to keep my stuff and sell it. Now all I need to do is find out how much I can sell the ring for! Probably cost him all of $5.00 now that I think about it. But hey, I can use five bucks.

I love my family. I love Sundays with my family. This is all I want out of life, right here. A family. Close unit. Love.

I don't ask for much... this is all I ever need out of life. Right here :)

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11

Interferon? Sad face...

2011-09-30T16:35:00.002-05:00

I'm better now...

I decided I can't be angry... it will only make me worse :)

So I have a few options:

beta interferon 1a (Avonex)
beta interferon 1a (Rebif)
beta interferon 1b (Betaferon)
glatiramer acetate (Copaxone) NOPE.

Since the launch of the Risk-sharing Scheme in 2002, further disease modifying drugs have been licensed.

natalizumab (Tysabri) - licensed in 2006, this drug is approved for people with rapidly evolving severe relapsing remitting multiple sclerosis but is not part of the Risk-sharing Scheme

So. In summary... my only option NOW is interferons... Why did I not choose interferon treatment before? Because of this:

Interferon (cont.)

Flu-like symptoms following each injection (fever, chills, headache, muscle aches and pains, malaise) occur with all of the interferons. These symptoms vary from mild to severe and occur in up to half of all patients. The symptoms tend to diminish with repeated injections and may be managed with analgesics such as acetaminophen (Tylenol) and antihistamines such as diphenhydramine (Benadryl).

Tissue damage at the site of injection occurs with all of the interferons but more commonly with interferon beta-1b and pegylated interferon alfa-2b.

Depression and suicide have been reported among patients receiving interferons; however, it is unclear whether depression and suicidal thoughts are caused by the diseases being treated or the interferons themselves. Therefore, all patients receiving treatment with an interferon should be observed for the development of depression and suicidal thoughts.

Other side effects that may occur with all interferons and which may be caused by higher doses are:

fatigue,
diarrhea,
nausea,
vomiting,
abdominal pain,
joint aches,
back pain, and
dizziness.

Anorexia, congestion, increased heart rate, confusion, low white blood cell count, low platelet count (thrombocytopenia), low red blood cell count, an increase in liver enzymes, an increase in triglycerides, skin rashes, mild hair loss or hair thinning, swelling (edema), cough, or difficulty breathing have been reported.

Um. I don't know about this.

Or hey! What about... Tysabri, like my Neurologist suggested last year?

Tysabri increases your chances of developing PML.

Progressive multifocal leukoencephalopathy (PML) is a disease of the white matter of the brain, caused by a virus infection that targets cells that make myelin--the material that insulates nerve cells (neurons). Polyomavirus JC (often called JC virus) is carried by a majority of people and is harmless except among those with lowered immune defenses. The disease is rare and occurs in patients undergoing chronic corticosteroid or immunosuppressive therapy for organ transplant, or individuals with cancer (such as Hodgkin’s disease or lymphoma). Individuals with autoimmune conditions such as multiple sclerosis, rheumatoid arthritis, and systemic lupus erythematosis -- some of whom are treated with biological therapies that allow JC virus reactivation -- are at risk for PML as well.

Oh happy day.

Which death-trap should I go with? Help me please :)

Love,

Jaime Lee

Angry Fucking Post

2011-09-29T17:47:00.003-05:00

I am angry today. Right now. My head is going to explode. Oops. THERE IT GOES! HEAD JUST EXPLODED ALL OVER THE PLACE.

Why you ask?!? BECAUSE I can't take my MS Medication anymore because my INSURANCE won't PAY for it anymore because of fucking OBAMA and now I have no options! Nothing. And OH! I KNOW WHAT YOU ALL ARE THINKING! PAY FOR IT YOURSELF!

Want to know how much it would cost me per month? $3500.00. FUCK IT!

FUCK!

CAN JAIME AFFORD THAT MUCH MONEY PER MONTH? JAIME DOESN'T EVEN MAKE THAT FUCKING MUCH A MONTH! And WHY YOU ASK?! Because Jaime has this thing called MULTIPLE FUCKING SCLEROSIS that makes it so GOD DAMNED HARD to fucking get out of BED EVERY FUCKING MORNING to even GO TO WORK. So in TURN, Jaime has to be on MEDICAID!

JAIME WANTED A DRUG TO HELP HER FATIGUE BUT MEDICAID WOULD NOT PAY FOR IT! So the FUCKING DRUG THAT WOULD POTENTIALLY ENABLE ME TO WORK EVEN 40 HOURS PER WEEK AND LET BE ABLE TO PAY FOR MY OWN FUCKING INSURANCE, IS NOT AN OPTION!

JAIME WANTS TO KILL SOMEONE.

So. I have to start working on letters to senators and fucking OBAMA to say: What do I do now, asshole?

Love,

Jaime Lee

Happy 111th post to me!

2011-09-23T15:21:00.006-05:00

Happy 111th post to me!!!

Go me. Ah, so many things to say, but where to start.

I am having a Halloween Room Party... Does that sound strange? I am going to decorate my room with spider webs and pumpkins. I even bought candy corn hand soap and a pumpkin towel for the bathroom! This will be the most exciting party ever... I am going to have green punch! And finger foods! And there will be scary music playing!!! I know what most of you are thinking, but yes, my room is big enough. It's too big, as maybe one of you may know. My room is bigger in square footage than my grandma's house... is that sad or what? :D

I have never been so excited about anything in my entire life.

I'm also happy today... I'm happy that people can put aside their differences and come to an agreement or understanding. I'm glad people as a whole are capable of doing so. It makes me happy and also makes me think that maybe humankind is not completely lost in its ways.

I will ponder that for a while.

I've been trying to figure out how I could be a part of Eastern Star or something close to it. But I'd have to have a relative who is in it to be able to join. I might know, but, I don't really talk to those people much and it seems like a weird thing to bring up out of the blue. If anyone has advice, let me know :)

Since this is my 111th post, I will commemorate this by talking a little about 11 as it relates to my life and how I perceive things.

First I will give background for anyone who is interested:

11 came to my life about 11 years ago (woah!) and I didn't understand. Every time I would look at the time, it would also be on eleven, or four eleven, or six eleven. I barely paid attention to it. Then it started happening more and more, to where it was annoying. Finally, one day when I was sitting at my art desk painting, I looked at the time again, it was four eleven. That was the last straw so I went down stairs and went online to see what the number may mean.

I came to realize I was not the only person this happens to. Thousands. Millions perhaps experience this. There are so many theories out there, none of which I am sure about. But I do know this: Someone is trying to tell me something. I will listen more.

Also, though researching 11:11, I've been drawn to the idea that people can change their surroundings just by thought... When I was little I seemed to be able to do this a lot. I just passed it off as mere coincidence or a fluke. Until one day I experimented with my mental ability. What I came to find out has changed my life.

I had my Ipod on shuffle. I wanted a certain song (Bless the Broke Road, by Rascall Flatts). So, I decided to concentrate and 'make' the song come up as the number I thought of. I concentrated. Really hard. Then I hit 'next' to go to that number song, and sure enough, there it was. Wow, what a weird coincidence!

Little did I know that I would be able to do this five more times. All in a row. All different numbers. Coincidence? Not any more. It exceeded the realm of a mere coincidence. I wrote down those numbers so I would never forget how many times I could do it.

Besides being a little scared and miffed, I decided I would look more into this.

I saw a show featuring Morgan Freeman which explored this and I was so thrilled. What I had done was being researched actually... the very same concept.

http://www.damninteresting.com/random-event-generators-predict-the-future/

I've come to accept that I have the power to change things. And for that, I am grateful. It all started with the number 11. It's led me to so many awesome things and I am truly grateful. Even if nobody believes me at all... it's okay because I know the truth. :)

Will write more... until then....

~Jaime Lee

11:11

Cartman as Gordon Ramsay....

2011-09-14T12:01:00.001-05:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KrIFfYib8pE

Hehehehe.....heheheheheheheh.....

Hehehehehehehhe....

As above, so below.

2011-09-13T12:04:00.001-05:00

As above, so below.

"The old testament tells that the tablets were written on stone (petra), and on both sides- the side of the Templars and the side of the common people. The law is indeed written into living stone, which includes mankind. The new testament too tells that the Church is build on "Peter" (Petra, Greek for stone). What has never been explained before is that the true law is basically very simple. The old testament, the law that Moses brought from The Mountain, was written into both sides of the tablets which Moses smashed. One side contained the 10 Roman numbers, and the other the Hebrew Alphabet. The law carved into the stone tablets can only be understood now, as we enter the millennium of the age of Aquarius, the 11th astrological sign.

Let me then show to you how the ten number figure on the tablets. Five of the roman numbers were written from top to bottom and the other 5 from bottom to top, the same as the holy testaments of which one is written from the bottom to the top, and from back to front. While the new testament is written top to bottom and from front to back.

1 + 10 = 11
2 + 9 = 11
3 + 8 = 11
4 + 7 = 11
5 + 6 = 11

The Law symbolizes the power from above and the power from below

On earth, as it is in heaven.

11:11

Peeing too much or too little? That is the question.

2011-09-08T14:43:00.005-05:00

DENTIST!

Hehe. I went to the dentist today... I got my crown fitted and a FILLING! EEK.

But, my crown doesn't feel good so I have to go back tomorrow! I love my dentist. He is the sweetest man I've ever known! So hard to find in the medical field, right? Right.

On the upside, I can't pee again. Wait, that's an upside?

No. That is a huge downside.

Jaime=pain

But, there are far worse things in life I suppose. So the fact that I have to drown myself in water, use Vagisil on my my pee pee to numb it to make the bad feelings go away, take Azo and drink cranberry juice until it is coming out of my ears, and take super hot showers to ALSO numb the area until it's scarred, is a minor drop in the bucket.

Really though. I just realized that people are much more capable of withstanding pain than what we might think. And as you get older, you learn that things could be worse.

So in the five years I've battled not peeing, peeing too much, peeing when I shouldn't, not walking, not seeing, not feeling, and so on, I've learned to cope and be okay with the little things.

My neuro suggested a drug that would make me pee less often. I said I'd take peeing too often than not peeing at all, trust me.

For anyone that wants to know, always choose to pee often.... please trust me.

But as I told the bitch customer yesterday, Life is not that bad. Try to smile. Things work out. I promise :)

I know people are curious about this customer I keep referring to...

Yesterday, a lady came in for her 18 cupcakes. The order was for 12:00. My dad did not like the way the chocolate ones came out, so he had enough time to re-do them, since he is a perfectionist. :) I tried calling the woman to just let her know what was going on, and that they might be five minutes later than 12.

Tried calling the lady: her cell phone rings once and disconnects.

Cupcakes come out of the oven at 11:30. Put them in freezer to start the cooling process.

11:50 Lady comes in to get her cupcakes.

Jaime goes out front to ask the lady if she could wait just a few more minutes for them to cool properly so I could ice them.

Fucking Bitch C*nt drops her pen, throws up her arms and says: "NO I cannot WAIT! ARE YOU KIDDING?!?"

Jaime replies: "I'm sorry ma'am, the baker did not like the way they came out, so he did them over for you, and they just came out of the oven, and are in the freezer cooling"

Woman Bitch C*nt: "are you KIDDING?! they JUST came out of the OVEN?! How are you going to ice them?!?! THEY WILL BE TOO HOT!" <---- screaming like a mad fucker

Jaime: ".......yes. That's why I JUST said they are in the FREEZER cooling down. Just need a few minutes. Two, three minutes."

WomanBitch of Alkatraz: "THREE MINUTES?!? ok...."

Jaime goes to get the cupcakes out of the freezer, and WOMANBITCH OF ALKATRAZ interrupts again and says :

"Are you going to deliver them to my house?!"

Jaime turns around and says: "NO I'm not going to deliver them, ma'am. Seriously, three minutes. Okay?"

Woman: "Alright!"

Jaime gets them out, ices them, all under three minutes.

Brings them out to woman pacing back and forth.

Jaime says : "Here you are ma'am, they're all set for you"

Little Miss Bitch Face: "12:10 is NOT 12:00, JUST so you know!!!!" <----yells like a bleeding bitch

Jaime hesitates. Wants to say something. OK! Jaime decides she can't let them disrespectful rude arrogant disgrace walk away with treating me like that. Or treating any other human being like that....

Jaime: ".........how do you wake up in the morning?!?"

Bitch Face turns around, astonished by what I just said.... says "exCUSE me!! You have an ATTITUDE!"

***well, duh....***

Jaime: "ma'am, my god, life is not that bad! These are cupcakes!"

Woman Bitch: "YES! Life IS that bad for me! It is!"

Now, I was expecting a profound answer here for why her life is just that bad, that she made an ordeal out of cupcakes being a mere ten minutes (if that) late. I figured she would say she has cancer, her child has cancer, she's dying, her daughter was murdered, something of that sort, that would make me feel bad about asking just why her life is that bad. I was hoping for a decent answer so maybe I could understand this woman's behavior.... much to my disgrace, she said:

"My life IS that bad! Because I have PEOPLE coming over!!!!" <----shrieking

Oh well fuck me then. You have PEOPLE coming over!!! Well alert everybody! You win the Fucked-up Poor Woman of the Year Award! Howdy partner. You have PEOPLE coming over!

So, as she continued shrieking and swearing at me, I told her to go fuck herself, and she fled.

Good riddance. Imaging a more sad pathetic thing, than having a conniption over a few cupcakes, and being held back by not even ten minutes, because someone wanted to do you a favor? Where in life do you not encounter having to wait a few minutes?

I wanted to ask this poor excuse for a woman, how she is when she has a doctor's appointment for three, and does not see the doctor until 3:30. How does she handle that? Is she so spoiled that she can't deal with these things and she lashes out like that?

And imagine people with real problems... people who have children who have an illness. Children who are dying. Imagine the strength and fortitude of these parents to deal with this, and to make sure their child has everything and is comfortable, and the sheer guts it takes to withstand every day, now knowing what is going to happen. But most face it with a grace and dignity that I so so admire.

And here's a woman shrieking over a cupcake. Lord help her.

Decided I want to do this again... start running. It was so fun, I would turn the WiiFit game on, set up the free run thingy, take my wiimote down stairs, run on the treadmill and then see what it came up with! It was almost accurate to the actual miles I ran, minus just a few.

I miss this. My goal for the rest of the year: Be able to run again without relapsing.

Wish me luck!!!

Love,

Jaime lee

11:11

Somewhere with you...

2011-09-07T17:26:00.004-05:00

HI EVERYONE!

It's very wet. And very cold. I am very tired. And!

I told a customer to go fuck herself. She did not like that.

Do not incur Jaime's wrath.

Jaime can get very upset and start spewing word vomit everywhere. Jaime can hurt people's feelings. YAY ME!

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow. I think I am getting the crown put on. I've realized how nice it would have been if I had dental insurance. Or at least not medicaid. I've spent over $3,000. But you know what? Good dental work is all worth it.

I was thinking today (after I had the "battle of the bitches" at work, about David. And I was wondering why someone has not offered to get him help. I mean, if he's conducted himself like this only in the five or so months I knew him, then other people must sure know he's psychotic. Or. Something. And as angry as he made me, I now just feel sorry for him. He's really messed up and I hope someone helps him. I don't think he's fit to be around people, let alone kids. It worries me.

I mean really though. I'm not trying to come off sarcastic or bitchy. I mean it.

On the upswing, my new male friend Jon called me SUNSHINE!!! Teehee. I loved it. What a cute name for me!

Imma sunshine... :)

That was me last year with the same cute flowery head thingy! Aww.... I will wear that every year on my birthday. Yes I will.

Now I will start singing a song I like but hate at the same time, for personal reasons... Song that makes me reflect and usually makes me sad. One of those damn songs that's haunting me now.

Goodnight everyone...

If you're going out with someone new
I'm going out with someone too
I won't feel sorry for me, I'm getting drunk
But I'd much rather be somewhere with you

Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah
Driving around on a Saturday night
You made fun of me for singing my song
Got a hotel room just to turn you on

You said pick me up at three a.m.
You're fighting with your mom again
And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go somewhere with you

I won't sit outside your house
And wait for the lights to go out
Call up an ex to rescue me, climb in their bed
When I'd much rather sleep somewhere with you

Like we did on the beach last summer
When the rain came down and we took cover
Down in your car, out by the pier
You laid me down, whispered in my ear

I hate my life, hold on to me
Ah, if you ever decide to leave
Then I'll go, I'll go, I'll go

I can go out every night of the week
Can go home with anybody I meet
But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes
I'm somewhere with you, somewhere with you

If you see me out on the town
And it looks like I'm burning it down
You won't ask and I won't say
But in my heart I'm always somewhere with you

Laughing loud on a carnival ride, yeah
Driving around on a Saturday night
You made fun of me for singing my song
Got a hotel room just to turn you on

You said pick me up at three a.m.
You're fighting with your mom again
And I'd go, I'd go, I'd go

I can go out every night of the week
Can go home with anybody I meet
But it's just a temporary high 'cause when I close my eyes
I'm somewhere with you, somewhere with you

Somewhere with you
I'm somewhere with you
I'm somewhere with you
Somewhere with you
Somewhere with you.................................

11:11

YAY BIRTHDAY PARTY!

2011-09-04T13:50:00.000-05:00

Yay birthday party....

YAY ME!

Part 2... RED PILLOWS!

2011-09-01T19:07:00.002-05:00

LOOKEY!

Teehee....

Yay for me!

2011-09-01T15:21:00.002-05:00

Guess who just bought bright red pillows for her bed? Jaime did!

Guess who bought all new bathroom accessories? Jaime did!

Guess who spent money on Mario candy? Jaime did!

Guess who is having a birthday soon and is expecting a really awesome present? Jaime is!!

Guess who did this cake? Jaime did!!

Yay Jaime...