Single and Ready to Mingle? That is the question.

Hi!

I'm watching Meet Joe Black. I love this movie.

I keep crying though, and it's rather embarrassing. I just love the parts where they are together as a family. And how Susan's father looks out for her best interests. It's so sweet. Imagine families that don't have that? It makes me feel even better, to know that that's exactly what I have here. I have brothers that would always defend me, a father who would do anything and does things out of love and is only concerned with what is best for me, and a mom who is my best friend. Absolutely. What more could I ask for?

Nothing. I have three pets. I love them all. Goomba, Duncan and Reno. Yaaaaay!

I've been trying to figure out why I'm not enthusiastic about moving any prospective relationship forward. I came to the harsh realization that I don't want to get hurt. So what is the best way to not get hurt? Stay away from men. This bothers me a lot, because as one idiot ex boyfriend once said, 'what is a life without your heart at risk?'

Ugh. He happened to be right, but, it's rather ironic that he said that to me.

But how is life worth living if I'm not willing to take a risk? Where is my entrepreneurial mind-set? Where is that spirit?

I also came to realize that I don't exactly like having to care for someone... I don't like having to answer to someone. I don't like being made to do things if I don't want to do them. Boyfriends are the death of me doing what I want.

Could this be some laziness? Sure. But I find with each time I get my heart trampled on, I get more bitter. And anyone who knows me, knows I could use less bitterness.

Imagine where I would be in twenty years? Oh dear!

So in summary, I'm keeping my heart protected. And I like it. :) I do like dating though... I absolutely love the beginnings of things. It's when people claim they want to marry me is when things die. Why aren't men capable of keeping things simple and slow? I love meeting new people. Those feelings of 'firsts', the anticipation of what will happen. Ahh... that's all I want right now. Is that too much to ask for?

I'll go find me some of that!

Yeah! Go Jaime!

Here I go.

Love,

Jaime Lee

11:11 forever