Jaime will survive!

Hello all!

I've been working two to three hours a day! yaaaaaay me! I am super excited.

But. I have no health insurance. I do not quality for medicaid anymore because I went over the limit by $1.30. Fuck.

Right? So, I'm trying my hardest to make them re-determine it. My case worker is an idiot, she didn't try to help me at all. So, Jaime has to do the work herself. Which is fine.

I am not losing my health insurance because of a buck.

I will live.

I see the neuro on Wednesday, and I need him to sign the handicap thingy for me. I think it will help.

I'm almost out of valium and antivert and I'm scared about running out. I don't want to be dizzy again... but I'm also scared of valium... I hear it can be really addictive and make people kill themselves... :( Imma sad face. I don't want to kill myself!

I have had a weird symptom, loud noises make my whole body get a chill, like I go numb all over if I'm startled and my heart goes floopy. I hope I don't die :(

But, I've decided to be okay with that, since I'd rather not be dizzy and unable to walk or look at something or get to the bathroom myself. That was awful. I mean, my family will always help me, but I don't want to rely on other people to go to the bathroom. :( And I don't want to throw up every time I get up. That was bad. And gross. :(

Jaime will survive though!

I was asked out for this weekend, but, I'm in no shape yet... this sucks. But, life could be worse :)

I have to go watch Bill O'Reilly now, and finish this 'dirty hippie' video on YouTube.... then off to bed to sleep another fourteen hours! yaaaaaaay!

Love always,

Jaime Lee

Little Fighting Relapser