Tysabri has happened!

Hello internet void...

I had my first infusion on Tuesday!  It took a lot of time.  I ate a granola bar!

How do I feel?  Exhausted and extremely emotional...I've been crying randomly.  Ack!

I'm hoping this won't last too long!

 The physical therapy people haven't called me back yet :(

I'm so overwhelmed, I really wish I could float away on a raft, into the ocean.  Find an island!  With a Wendy's!  And...an Applebee's... 😁 But no people besides the cooks.  I want to be left alone in my miserable state I've found myself in lately.

I don't know what to do, life is coming at me like a train and I desperately need time to prepare for the inevitable crash, and I want to process things.  But I don't have time or energy to do that :(

Help me? 😳

Love,

Jaime Lee
11:11

Car accident of doom: Revelations from a floater perspective

Hello internet void...

So.  Those bug looking things I had been seeing are not bugs.  They are floaters!!

I saw the eye doctor and he said I have vitreous gel detachment, which causes the floaters :(

He's referring me to a retinal specialist to see if there's more stuff :/

So.  He said that because of the jarring of my head, that would cause the gel detachment...

Apparently there is nothing I can do and I'll have it forever, which makes me sad because that's one more thing I have to deal with... 😲

I have my first Tysabri infusion on Tuesday...

I'm scared and tired and overwhelmed and I have so much to do and think about.  Relationships take energy and mental stamina that I don't have anymore, gyah.  I'm so frustrated lately, I just wonder if everyone would be happier if I just went away, had my own place where I could go through these emotions and problems myself, without worrying people.

I think I'm better by myself, I always thought so since I was young.  I find my standards must be too high or unattainable that I'm always let down.  If I was alone I wouldn't feel that way anymore!  Aaaack

I'm just typing any thought in my head, since I'm just laying in he'd like usual.  Resting.  Psh.

Ok internet void, I must go...

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11