Revelations from my Bed: I'm so tired, help?

Hello...I'm in my bed, I just woke up from a 3 hour nap.  I am a napper now!  I sleep, wake up, work a few hours, come home, eat, say hi to Goomba, take a nap, wake up, eat, then go to bed.  Then realize all that I didn't accomplish, get angry.  Then derp.

That is jaime's life now, why won't someone help me?

I want to do so much but I can't :(

I don't want to be positive anymore, I think it bothers people though... But!  Where has positivity landed me?

Nowhere land.  A weird place where I'm starting to get angry with everyone. 😐

Maybe tomorrow will be better?  I haven't showered since Tuesday...I need to, but I don't have the will. 😑

Goodnight, dear void.

Jaime Lee
11:11

Revelations from my Bed: Stop it brain!!

Hello...I am in my bed of course, one-finger typing.  I need to see a doctor about my extreme mood changes...I did some research and it sounds like PMDD.  eek.  It's awful, I say things I don't want to say, I hurt feelings, I'm mean and mad and gyah.

In my messed-up state of numby numb, I keep getting paranoid that my boyfriend is going to do something to hurt me, even though he never has :( he's an amazing and sweet man, but my brain gets weird during these times and it really scares me now.  Sometimes, I wish God would take me quietly from this Earth...And that's not me.

What is happening?  Help me please.  Doctor?

Love always,

Jaime Lee
11:11

MS update of doom

Hello again.  I'm in my bed listening to Friends on the TV.  Life is good :)

Actually it's not so good, but in the disease category.  I don't know what to do anymore and I'm feeling trapped... :/

I still can't feel my hands and the finger muscles spasm and make me feel oogy!  It feels like they are bending backwards.. even when I'm trying to sleep!  Pffft

I see my Neuro in March...I hope he can help, I need my hands and typing hurts, carrying things hurt, holding onto the steering wheel hurts.  Psht. I'm noticing I'm just in an epic bad mood, that's lasted for 7 months, or something is changing in my head. :(

OK my ginger no

My finger burns, goodbye...

Love,. Jaime lee